A/N: Kay so WARNING! Somewhat sad. Tell me what you think. Too much? Let me know cuz' I'm a little uneasy on this chapter.
Dear Diary,
I need to...I guess I need to...Ugh, look at me! I can't even complete my sentences! I'm trying so hard not to cry right now, because Sam Puckett never cries. I just feel awful! I've never felt like this before! (Except for the time I had that suckish job at chili my bowl.) I never meant to hurt Freddie when I sabotaged his nerd camp application! I was angry, and I didn't think. I ruined Freddie's chances to go to any college he wants! Ugh! How can Freddie stand me? I know we kissed and made up, but I still have this awful aching inside. What is it? What can I do to make it go away? If I could go back in time and get Freddie into camp I would in a heartbeat. I just hope he'll forgive me. I hope he realizes that what Carly said was true. I do love him. UGH! EW! I know! But...I'm pretty sure it's true. I'm pretty sure. I mean how can you not love a guy who forgives you even after you flush his chances of college down the drain? I can't help the tears flowing down my face. Uh Oh, Someone's knocking on the door. I forgot to mention that I locked myself in the iCarly studio about an fifteen minutes ago. It's Freddie. I can see him in the glass of the door. He's obviously been looking for me, but I can't let him see my tear stained face.
"Sam! Are you in there?" he says.
"I'll be right out!" I say...just as soon as my face looks normal again.
-Sam
Dear Diary,
I could tell something was wrong with Sam the minute I heard her voice. It was high and squeaky. Unlike the normal Sam voice I love. I quickly grabbed the key on top of the door frame and unlocked the door. I walked in on Sam, sitting in a corner, crying. I asked her if she was hurt but she yelled at me to go away. Something filled up in my heart. I guess it was anger, seeing my girl hurt and crying. I wanted to know who did this to her. What made her cry? Without speaking I just wrapped my arms around her. I pressed her head into my chest and stroked her blonde wavy hair. She just cried. I was somewhat shocked. I had never seen Sam this upset. (Except for the time she got that awful job at chili my bowl, but I only saw her for like 2 seconds.) I'm still wondering why she is crying when she says "I'm really sorry, Freddie!"
What is she sorry about? I pulled her away from me and brushed some hair out of her face. She was so pretty, I hate to see her so sad.
"Your...Nerd Camp application!"
I have to admit, I was surprised. I wasn't mad at her anymore. I had forgiven her. I gave her a kiss on the forehead and told her that I was fine. I didn't know she cared that much. I mean, Carly had said that Sam loved me, but I didn't know if it was true. Now I knew. Sam Puckett, my normally tough, dirty, and rude girlfriend was now laying in my arms pouring her heart out. Her lips were pink and plump, her eyes and cheeks were puffy her blue eyes sparkled with the shine of her tears. I needed to say something, anything, to make this better. I knew exactly what I'd say. Those three little words I'd been hiding inside myself.
"Sam...I love you okay!"
In a flash, her tears were gone, and her lips were on mine.
-Freddie
K so hoping to write the next chapter after iLove You ! So excited!
