Chapter 2
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Beca's POV
As we sat waiting for the bus I thought about everything we have been through since the beginning of the year. I thought about how many times I could have just leaned over and kissed him while we were stacking cd's, or the many times I could have cuddled into him as we watched a movie.
I tried to stay still as I let the tears fall slowly. I wasted so much time trying to uphold that stupid oath and stay on Aubrey's good side. Why did I do that? I love those girls to death, but still…
Jesse's face popped into my head as I closed my eyes. Not smiling or laughing, but heartbroken and disappointed. I thought back to the night he tried to kiss me in my dorm and how I had to turn him away, Kimmy Jin walking in before I could explain.
I thought about after regionals when I yelled at him that he wasn't my boyfriend. Really I was angry that he wasn't…but I couldn't tell him that. Jesus what the hell is wrong with me?! Crying harder, I try to bury my face in his shoulder, hoping he hasn't noticed yet.
It's a stupid hope, this guy is more observant than most. Why isn't he saying anything? I sigh with relief as he just wraps his arm tighter around me and rests his head on mine. Although it is painfully obvious he knows I'm crying on him, he's nice enough to not say anything yet, even though I know he wants to.
Kissing my hair gently I hear him mumble something. I have no idea what he said, but feeling it reverberate through his chest is comforting in itself.
After a little while the tears stop coming and I'm just leaning against him as I calm down. Tilting my head so he can see my eyes he smiles gently, "You alright now?" His voice is so soft and I can see how worried he is. All I can do is nod, embarrassed at what just happened. I mean sure, we spend a lot of time together, and we are really close…but I don't cry in front of anyone and here I am a blubbering mess.
"I'm sorry." I sigh, tilting my head down as he chuckles, pulling me back against his chest. "I really don't mind Becs. I wish I knew what just happened…but I'm here for you okay?" I snorted. He thought I was apologizing for crying. In a way…I guess that's part of it, but that was pretty inevitable really.
I sigh, looking up at him again, his eyes full of worry. "No…I mean yeah…I'm sorry for sobbing all over you and being overly emotional. I'm not normally like this and…ya know it's really difficult for me to do this and-" He cuts me off by raising his eyebrows. I know I just rambled a lot and he probably has no idea what the hell I'm talking about. 'Way to go Beca…just confuse him more why don't you!' I shake my head quickly to focus and try again.
"I'm sorry for how I treated you before. I'm sorry that I pushed you away, pushed us away. I wanted nothing more than to do the exact opposite but I couldn't." He leaned in and kissed my forehead, smiling gently.
"The oath?" I could see the confusion in his face, a million questions running behind his eyes. I simply nodded as I got lost staring at him. It was so dark outside, the only light coming from the street lamp about 30 feet away.
As I took a breath so I could explain it to him, the bus pulled up to our stop and we walked on, finding a seat in the back. We were the only people on right now, minus an old couple who are sleeping in the front row.
Pulling me back into his lap he wrapped his arms around my waist again, ignoring the look he received from the driver. "What's the deal with that? I'm not even sure what it is." He looked at me questioningly. I knew I needed to explain, but it was stupid…like really stupid. I can't believe I went with it in the first place.
"All Bella's have to take an oath when we join." I took a deep breath as he nodded for me to keep going. "Literally, it's an oath saying we won't hook up with a Treble. Word for word it goes like this: 'I, Beca, promise to fulfill the duties and responsibilities of a Bella woman. And I promise to never have sexual relations with a Treblemaker or may my vocal chords be ripped out by wolves'." I glare as I can feel him laughing against me.
"Seriously?!" I just nod my head in annoyance. "And you listened to that?" He holds me tighter against him as if I was going to bolt. Honestly, with the way he was laughing at me it wasn't out of the question.
"Well, I wasn't going to originally, but we lost two girls on the first day for not following it, and I really happen to like the other girls." I sighed. "I liked being a Bella…not that it really matters anymore anyway."
I lowered my head and thought about how much I was going to miss them now. Well…not Aubrey, but definitely everyone else. "I guess I'm not an a capella girl anymore…you sure you still want me?" I tried to ask the question jokingly, but I was definitely worried. Why would he want to be with me, I'm really damaged…and now we have one less thing in common.
"Oh Becs…" He turned me to face him and kissed me softly, very mindful of the bus driver shooting us dirty looks in his mirror. "Yeah, I'm pretty sure."
I burrowed into his chest and tried to just relax until we got back to the school. Hopefully the Trebles wouldn't be too mad at him for missing the performance…I mean…they did tell him to after all.
As I sat there, I heard him begin to sing softly, and I couldn't help but smile. His voice was so soft, so calming. I've never felt as safe and perfect as I did at that moment in his arms.
Long steady road
Oh travel, be kind
I'm searching for some peace of mind
The home that you know
A home left behind
Oh trouble, don't trouble this time.
It took me a moment to recognize the song. I was amazed that he knew it, more so that he knew I love it!
And baby don't look back,
Odds don't stack
They just crumble down around you.
Oh, you gotta go away if you wanna come back
I won't crack I can't make a sound without you.
And even if it sounds crazy darling I won't let you go
And even if it don't stop raining darling I won't let you go
And even if the world's burning darling I won't let you go
Even if it sounds crazy darling I won't let you go.
As I listened to him sing I couldn't help but think he was using this song to make a promise to me. He was always going to be there. It wasn't even a question I needed to worry about.
Know your way down your music, your town
You never are walking alone
A storm that won't wait, a heart that won't break
Your mountains ain't made out of stone.
I turned to look him in the eyes as he sang. I could tell he meant every word, and I couldn't help but smile. How had I almost given this up just to be a part of the Bellas? I mean, the group was amazing and all, but I'm pretty sure that I can get in again next year when Aubrey isn't there…and the season is over anyway right?
So baby don't look back odds don't stack
They just crumble down around you
Oh you gotta go away if you wanna come back
I won't crack I can't make a sound without you.
And even if it sounds crazy darling I won't let you go
And even if it don't ever stop raining darling I won't let you go
And even if the world's burning darling I won't let you go
Even if it sounds crazy, darling.
So Baby don't look back,
Odds don't stack they just crumble down, around you.
Oh you gotta go away, if you wanna come back
I won't crack I can't make a sound without you
And even if it sounds crazy darling I won't let you go
And even if it don't ever stop raining darling I won't let you go
And even if the world's burning darling I won't let you go
Even if it sounds crazy, darling I won't let
You go
No I can't, No I never will, never ever would, No I never could let you go
No I just can't, No I never will, never ever would, No I never could let you go
As he finished the song we arrived back on campus and he pulled me off the bus and started heading for Baker Hall. I really didn't want to go back to my room, but I was nervous. How do I tell him that?
"Hey Jess?" He tilts his head to look at me as we walk. That same smile still on his face.
"Yeah?" I'm really nervous to ask him this. What if he takes it the wrong way? I mean…sure, there have been plenty of moments that I have wanted to just jump him, but this really wasn't one of them.
"Can I just come back to your room? I really don't want to be alone right now…and Benji is gone…" I trailed off, looking away in embarrassment. 'Real smooth Beca…'
He laughed and just kept walking. "I wasn't taking you to your room yet." I looked up at him again and caught the mischievous look in his eye. "It's movication night. It wasn't going to get to happen today…but since we're here…" He laughed as I groaned.
Dammit…I should have known he would want to watch a movie. 'Maybe now that we're together I can get him to let me fall asleep during them without getting in trouble' I thought to myself.
He snorted and I looked at him confused. Wait a minute… "Did I just say that out loud?" He just nodded his head and pulled me in closer to his side.
"Yeah, yeah you did, and no. Now that we're together you definitely can't fall asleep. This is even more important now!" He chuckled as I rolled my eyes. Great…
We arrived at his room in no time and he ushered me in quickly. I couldn't help but laugh at all the star wars stuff on the wall. Seriously? "Hey, please tell me that's Benji's stuff." I turned to look at him with a smirk. "I might have to rethink this relationship if it's yours." A laugh escaped my throat as his eyes narrowed and he stalked towards me.
Pulling me into his arms he trailed kisses along my jaw, nipping at a spot in the crook of my neck, causing me to moan loudly. "You were saying?" He smiled against my neck as I moaned, pulling me closer.
My brain was mush as I wrapped my arms around him. Like literally mush, I had nothing. No comebacks, no witty comments, all I could do was moan and think about the feelings coursing through me.
I tilted his head up and captured his lips with mine, angling my head to deepen the kiss as he backed me up towards the bed, his hands playing with the hem of my shirt and inching it higher.
As he lay me down my nerves started creeping up, but I tried to push them away. It all felt so amazing; I really didn't want to stop. His fingers trailed up under my shirt, caressing the skin just below my breasts and all thought flew from my head with a groan.
He smirked against my lips, and leaned back to pull my shirt over my head. My hands immediately rose to cover myself; no one had ever seen me like this. Literally ever, and the nerves were definitely back full force.
Jesse's POV
She was driving me crazy. Literally. She's so beautiful, and the sounds she's making…God Damn it's the hottest thing I have ever heard. I watch as she tries to cover herself after I take her shirt off. My eyes glaze over and I lean down to nip at her neck. "Don't. Please don't, you're perfect." I kiss along her collarbone and move her hands gently, smiling as she runs them hesitantly under my shirt across my abs. Jesus, her touch is like fire.
I trail my kisses back up to her lips, groaning as her fingers skim across a sensitive spot on my side. She's amazing. Running my tongue across her lips I beg for entrance and she moans happily as my tongue invades her mouth, exploring the cavern within.
My hands follow a path of their own and finally reach her breasts, my thumbs rubbing against her nipples through the fabric as she moans my name breathily through our kiss. I'm harder than I've ever been in my life and I grind down into her, smiling as she lurches against me.
Beca's POV
I feel like I'm on fire and it's fantastic. His hands, Jesus I didn't know I could feel like this. As he grinds against me I can't help but moan, feeling a wetness pool between my legs. I want more, but I'm nervous too. I gently push on his chest, trying to get him to lean back so I can talk to him. "Jess," I sigh, turning my head embarrassed as he pulls back, looking at me curiously.
I'm as red as a tomato when he tilts my face back to him, looking into my eyes. "Bec you alright?" He runs his fingers up and down my sides as I smile weakly. "Yeah…it's just…" I have no idea how to tell him this. Seriously, what if he just decides to kick me out? What if he decides I need to leave?
I start to freak out, my breaths coming faster and I can feel the tears welling in my eyes. He looks scared now, climbing off me quickly and sitting to my side, eying me anxiously, "Did I hurt you? What's wrong?"
I groan. Oh great…now I'm worrying him? Awesome! I sigh and turn to where I'm facing away from him, trying to catch my breath. "No! No you didn't hurt me…it's just…ummm…I'mavergin." I mumble out quickly and bury my face in his pillow. God! Why the hell am I so nervous right now?!
Wrapping his arms around me he turns me so I'm facing him, tilting my chin so I'm looking into his eyes. "What was that?" He looks so confused, it's adorable, and if this was any other situation I would have laughed so hard at that look.
"I'm a virgin. I've never done this before…any of this. Actually…"I take a deep breath and bury my head back in his chest to hide the blush coming to my face. "Ya know when you kissed me earlier?" I feel him nod and I can tell he is waiting for me to continue this fabulous confession. "That was…it was…" I can't do it; apparently I don't have to because he pulls my head up to look into his eyes.
"That was your first kiss wasn't it?" I groan, seriously uncool. I am honestly the dorkiest person on the planet right now…I'm just waiting for him to say it. Nodding my head I wait for the ridicule and laughter, but it doesn't come. Opening my eyes I see his face so close to mine, I can feel his breath on my lips.
He looked…happy. Ecstatic actually. "How was that your first kiss? Have you ever had a boyfriend?" He runs his hand across my stomach, causing a tingling feeling to shoot up my spine, "It's not a bad thing, that's pretty awesome actually…it means I'm the only one to get to do this." Leaning in he kisses me again, and I moan. Not that I have anything to compare it to, but his kisses are amazing.
He runs his hand across my skin again, his fingers playing with the area just under my bra, my breath hitching in my throat with the pleasure of it all. "Do you want to stop? We don't need to keep going."
I shake my head and reach behind my back to undo the clasp there. "No, just…go slow? All of this is new." He nods, smiling as he moves my hand away and takes my bra off, groaning as my breasts come into view.
Jesse's POV
I roll back on top of her, my thumbs caressing her nipples again as I settle between her legs, a moan escaping her beautiful lips. I'm never going to get enough of this, she's so responsive and I just want to keep touching her, drawing those amazing sounds out of her.
I lean down to nibble on her ear as her hands travel under my shirt again causing me to hiss. "Jesus Bec." She grasps the bottom of my shirt and starts to tug it up. I reach down and pull it over my head, tossing it onto the floor. Grinding down into her I get even harder, she just feels so damn good.
Leaning down to capture one of her nipples in between my teeth, I nibble gently, loving the sounds she's making as she arches up into me and my hands travel down to remove her pants. I take the rest of her clothes of quickly and reach into the drawer next to my bed, pulling a condom out and setting it off to the side.
Shedding the rest of my clothes as well I climb back onto the bed and begin trailing kisses down her body, learning what she likes. As I get close to where she wants me most, I nip at the soft flesh of her thigh gently, purposefully avoiding touching her there quite yet.
"Baby please." She gasps out, digging her hands into my hair and arching up off the bed. I chuckle softly and just continue to kiss her thigh, getting close to her center but still not quite there.
"Please what?" I trail my finger over her core quickly, eliciting another moan. I know it isn't nice to tease, but it is definitely fun. "What do you need Bec?"
She groans, knowing I'm torturing her. I'm sure I'll get payback for this later, but right now it's just fun. "Jesse, I don't…more. Please, just more." I take pity on her and run my tongue across her folds, tasting her quickly, moaning as she lurches up against me.
I delve in, wrapping my lips around he clit and nibbling, loving the sounds that are coming from her, I can tell she is close, which is good because I don't think I can last much longer without some relief.
Her hands grip my hair tighter and I watch as she comes undone, loving how she moans my name.
Crawling back up her body, I trail my lips across her skin, reaching for the foil packet I had tossed on the bed as my other hand finds her clit, drawing a new round of moans from her. I quickly put the condom on and line myself up with her entrance, looking down into her eyes.
"Beca," I kiss her nose and try to get her to focus, stopping my fingers so I can get her attention. "Baby, are you sure about this?" I anxiously wait for her answer, taking a deep breath to keep myself in check.
Honestly, if she said no right now I might go mad, I'd definitely stop for her, but it wouldn't be the most comfortable thing in the world. That didn't matter though; I had to make sure she was alright.
"Yeah. Please, just go slow okay?" I nod and slide into her slowly until I come to her barrier. "Fuck!" She's feels so good; I groan and drop my head to the pillow by her head, trying to stay in control. "Oh God you feel so amazing Becs." I look up into her eyes; wordlessly making sure it's alright for me to continue.
At her nod I break through her barrier in one thrust, sheathing myself within her completely and struggling to stay still so she can get used to the new feeling. Looking into her eyes I see a couple of tears escape. "Shhh, it's ok, it'll feel better soon. Just tell me when you want to go on okay?" I wipe her tears away and just look into her eyes lovingly.
After a minute she grinds herself against me and I groan, pleasure shooting through my body. With a smirk she does it again and I know it's alright to keep going. Gripping her hips I begin to thrust slowly, angling my hips so I can find that spot that'll make her scream my name.
She pulls my head down to kiss her and moans as I find it, her hands tangling into my hair as I pick up speed and her walls clench around me. She feels so good and I am not going to last much longer.
"Cum for me Love." I thrust into her faster, pressing my thumb against her clit as I strive towards my own climax. Groaning as I feel her hit her peak.
"JESSE!" She screams my name into my shoulder as she falls over the edge, dragging me with her into oblivion.
I quickly remove the condom and climb back into bed, pulling the sheets up over us and wrapping her in my arms. "Wow." I kiss her softly and just stare into her eyes, smiling at the contented look on her face.
"Jess, that was…" She trails off and I just nod, tucking her into my chest and watching as she settles into sleep, a peaceful smile on her face.
That's it; I'm in love with this girl. It's a good thing she's mine, because damn…I don't know if I could deal with it if she wasn't.
I rest my head back against my pillow and drift off to sleep with the girl of my dreams wrapped in my arms. Tomorrow would bring interesting challenges, but for now…everything is perfect.
Beca's POV
I lay in his arms for a while and just listen to his heartbeat, basking in the happy feeling coursing through my veins right now. I have never felt this way about anyone, never allowed myself to let anyone in. Sighing softly, I turn over and cuddle up closer to him as I breathe in his scent.
This is perfect, I let go and found my happiness. Tomorrow I will need to go talk with Chloe and see what happened. Tomorrow I'm going to need to try to do damage control on what happened, but for right now I'm content.
So there is chapter two! The song is I'll Never Let You Go (Darling) by Hedley. Let me know what you think! This was definitely an interesting chapter to write, and I'm a little iffy on where I'm taking this one. Ideas are definitely appreciated as well. Normally I have an idea in my head of where something is going…this one…not so much.
