Title: Pieces of You Author: YesevaKirkova Pairing: Kaoru/Kyo Chapter: 2-Crimson Tide Disclaimer: I still do not own Dir en grey, unfortunately. Go figure.
Summary: If you look around, Die, I m sure you ll find that Toshiya is all around us. I said casually.
Warnings: Swearing, MalexMale love, mild cannibalism, suggestion of necrophilia.

Heaven help me for the way I am.
Save me from these evil deeds before I get them done.

Eventually, I drifted off to sleep in Kaoru s arms. I must have slept for a few hours, at least. I woke up and stared at Toshiya s body. Even in death, you re beautiful. More importantly, you ll never be a cheating whore my fingers over the cut on his chest, I realized that no part of his body should go to waste, especially not that blood. I made my way into the kitchen to get a few jars. I picked up the knife, and made the cut in his chest bigger, before pulling out his heart. I couldn t stop the moan that fell from my lips as I licked the heart clean. A sick and twisted satisfaction rose in me when I bit into the cold, dead organ. Swallowing the piece effortlessly, I licked my lips at the taste. Hearing footsteps, I turned around, holding Toshiya s heart against my chest.

Kyo, what are you oh my god Came Kaoru s groggy, but husky voice. I just looked at him, Toshiya s blood dripping from my lips, and onto my chest. I knew that no words could possibly justify what Kaoru was seeing. Kaoru, I I murmured, stopping mid sentence when his finger touched my lips. Was I dreaming? Where was the shouting and the name calling? You re not mad? I asked slowly. Kaoru shook his head, running his fingers through my hair. No, I m not. He answered. I was stunned. It is not an everyday occurrence for one band member to kill another, and take a bite out one of their major organs.

You did what you had to do, Kyo. Kaoru commented. Had I pulled him into my madness? I dropped the heart and wrapped my arms around Kaoru, holding him close. I love you, Kaoru. I told him, nuzzling his chest. I love you too, Kyo. Feeling content, I let my eyes close. After a few minutes, I resumed my work, placing the heart into a jar and sealing it, before draining Toshiya s blood and putting it into another. As for the body, I took it upon myself to embalm in, storing it in the guest room with the thermostat on the lowest setting. It wasn t long before all of his major organs were in jars, and on the mantle. I pulled on the pair of jeans that I had tossed aside last night. Suddenly, there was a knock at the door. I watched Kaoru put his pants on, before I went to answer the door.

Die pushed past me and into the living room. Where is Toshiya? the red head asked. If you look around, Die, I m sure you ll find that Toshiya is all around us. I said casually. Oh, god, Toshiya he murmured, staring in disbelief at the jars that adorned the mantle. I went to sit in Kaoru s lap, looking at Die. Toshiya deserved it, Die. He was screwing around on me, with you, as fucked up as that is. Think about it this way: If he was cheating on me, he was probably cheating on you, too. I commented. You ve fucking lost it, Kyo! he shouted, which only made me grin. If you re really that attached to him, you re more than welcome to have one last fuck fest. Don t expect him to move, though. I m sure that won t be a problem, since he probably never moved for you anyway. I laughed. The look on Die s face was priceless.

In the blink of an eye, Die was in front of Kaoru and me with a knife. The next thing I knew, I had been shoved aside, and was staring at a deep gash in Kaoru s arm. Die, get the hell out of here, or I will kill you! I growled, shooting him a death glare. The knife dropped to the floor with a loud clank, and the red head dashed out of the room, slamming the door behind him. I hurried to the bathroom to get peroxide and some cloth bandages. Kneeling before Kaoru, I removed the cap from the bottle of peroxide, This will sting for a minute, baby. I told him softly, pouring the disinfectant onto the wound. A soft hiss escaped his lips. Then, I wrapped a cloth bandage around the gash. I want to go rest, he told me, and I helped him to bed.

Did you love him? Kaoru asked. I didn t answer. We had only been seeing each other for three months. Three months. It was a crack in that hideously unnoticeable window of time. I didn t even know what to call us, what we d been together. It was clich after sickening clich . In those three months, the words, I love you, made everything okay. Then, those words along with, I m sorry, numbed me, and gave me a reason to look the other way, time after time. For me, what we had was nothing other than consistence and convenience. For Toshiya, it had been even less. A little disobedience is fine. In fact, I encourage it from time to time. No, I didn t. I finally answered. I loved the idea of loving him. I laughed bitterly. God knows he didn t fucking love me.