Frozen Thunder

Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon or I'd be rather happy and rich.. I'm just borrowing the characters for my own fun.

Pairings: Rei/Makoto… Hints of Rei/Ami, Rei/Michiru

A/N: This is actually based off of true happenings, bare with me on this as it is delving into personal history to an extent. And will take a while to do as I'm digging up old feelings and memories I've already buried once. As well as still trying to finish another story x.X should really get a beta reader.


I couldn't believe she agreed to go with me out to dinner, I figured I would be the last person she would agree to go out with. After all I had done to her previously one would think, but the past isn't something I'm going to delve into. It is better left where it's currently at for all parties involved. Yes I had everything planned for dinner the fancy restaurant even down to what I would say to her. But now I find I can't, I'm tongue tied around her. Who would have thought I would be the one to act like that. After all I managed to sweet talk my way around the ever so stubborn Mizuno Ami, and distract her from her studies.

Granted that didn't last long between me and her. For knowing the studious girl longer she was just an escape. From the time I saw Makoto I had been drawn by her but at the same time scared. Ami seemed like a safe choice that didn't go so well I ended up hurting an innocent friend in the whole process. My crimes against Makoto are numerous to the point she would be justified to sling me out with the rest of the trash. But to my delight she is refraining from such obviously trying to figure out why I had asked her to join me tonight. It was out of the blue we spend a year not talking, due once more to my own fear and growing dislike of my own actions. The last words we said to each other, that last fight had broken us, me the most.

I had been terrified, yes but also very ashamed. In the end the fight was my fault I listened to another's lies, never questioned the source just took an opportunity to attack. In the end I lost, the liar had used me a punishment more than fitting for my crimes but I also lost a friend and I was too ashamed to say I was wrong. The most I could bring myself in my heightened state to do was tell Makoto that the catalyst that had caused the problems was gone. Her secret revealed and in turn something I no longer wanted to deal with. I can't help but want to snort at my own stupid pride. I let it blind me and for what? A few moments a cheapened pleasure, of knowing selfishly I was in some way in control of what may come rather than taking a chance on something that made even my confident self quake.

The fool I was and still am trying to fix things as if they never occurred. I watched her take a drink of her wine the one Haruka had told me to order, who can argue with a suggestion from the notorious heartbreaker of the senshi. That brow that hiked upwards inquiring now as I sat so quiet, as to why I had requested her company; imploring silently to explain, something I gave into returning to my practiced words after I took a sip of my own.

"I know this seems odd, me calling you up out of the blue inviting you to come spend the evening with me like a.." My voice hesitated as my brain and vocal chords finally seemed to notice that this wasn't my well planned speech, but rather my tongue flying about on its own. "I just want to spend some time with you… time we never got to spend together when we were younger." I couldn't stop myself I squirmed this wasn't going as I had wished. I wasn't saying what I had meant to say, I had wanted to apologize to ask if we could try for something more after we built trust. Spending time together was only part of the whole, not everything I had wanted and hoped she herself was willing to want.

I hastily took another quick drink of my wine barely tasting it as it went down or noticing I had indeed downed two thirds of my glass in that one go. Ready to open my mouth to explain when she finally spoke ending my misery so to speak. "Spend time together how Rei-chan?" She toyed with the stem of her wine glass keeping her eyes on the golden liquid in her glass not looking up at me. "Surely you don't mean fighting alongside each other? We are in a time of peace one I thought everyone was enjoying." I shook my head at the mention of fighting; it was indeed the last thing I wanted. "I can't imagine you mean the time we spent dancing around each other..." She hesitated and my heart seemed to pound harder in my chest with hope. "I couldn't do that again, I miss my friend but work needs to be put into our friendship."

I winced when she spoke with hints of more but only offered friendship; I would accept this if it was all I could get with the brunette for the time being. We can and will work towards more, the year we spent apart, not talking nor seeing each other I had grown. I'm more then certain she has too, yes we are friends but we are also at this moment strangers this is something I have to acknowledge. "I didn't plan on falling back into old habits Mako-chan." I paused trying to figure out how I wanted to word this. "I know I broke your trust and our friendship I want the chance to fix it, to let it grow and flourish once more."

I was even sure how to word my desires, when I wanted far more than just friendship from the beauty in front of me. Had for years even though I denied every moment of its existence while she was quite willing to be up front with me about hers; while I had ran like a chicken in the other direction. As the waiter came and took our orders for our meals neither of us spoke until he was gone. It was then she nodded slightly, her eyes still guarded not showing any sign of the vibrancy I once remembered. "We can fix it, in small steps but I'm sure we can handle it." I wanted to cry, I was never known for being patient. No I was far more well known for pushing until I got what I wanted not caring who I trampled over.

"I'm sure we can too." I replied my mind racing a mile a minute; I wanted to figure out a way how to spend more time with her. I had gone into her establishment a few times but she never seemed to be there much to my dismay. "How about we start small, spending a few days here and there catching up with one another. Becoming acquainted once more and allow things to grow from there. " My head tilted to the side as I let the idea unfold fully in my minds eye. "If either of us is unsure and need a break from it we just let the other know, no hard feelings just taking our time." I held my breath as I awaited her answer and her consent.


AN: Yes I know it seems slight ooc-ness but I assure you in accordance to how each of these characters are RPed they are not. I know this is kind of short but I was never one to enjoy admitting my own faults and writing this part from my Rei's prospective and in turn mine doesn't make it any easier. Please Read and Review, I would appreciate it.