Chapter 2

(I own nothing except Admerxin)

Tired after being met and greeted by others in this strange world, Demyx convinced me to go to sleep.

When we walked in a room, covered from ceiling to floors with Cd's and posters on the walls, a wave of Déjà-vu hit me, and I stumbled.

Demyx caught my arm in time, and I looked at him after moment.

"Demyx, why are we in your room?"

His eyes snapped up to mine, and he began to jump around.

Demyx came back to me, eyes dancing. "Mer this is great! I can't believe you remembered!"

I shook my head, and another wave began. My head felt like lightning was striking inside it, and I screamed as I blacked out.

"Welcome to the organization Thir-!"

"Comon! We've got a mission-!"

"Mer!"

"Surprise…"

"Mer, we're Nobodies. Nobodies…" Don't feel-

"Demyx, I can promise you, you won't see me or hold me in your arms until you realize what you just said, and how much it-!"

I came to after a while. I felt warmth wrapped around me, and opened my eyes slowly.

Something wasn't right… "No!" I cried, leaping out of Demyx's arms and placing myself near the door.

As soon as his eyes collided with mine, I knew that he knew.

Demyx stepped up to me, I scooted back. "Admerxin… You're back…!" A tear slipped down his face, making me want to go to him and kiss it away.

Tears of my own slipped down my face. I shook my head slowly, hissing out a, "Don't touch me."

A hurt look flashed in my ex-mentor's eyes.

"Mer," he began, "Why don't you forgive me? I told you that I-!"

Quickly I cut him off, "You told me nothing!" I cried out.

He stopped, stunned that I'd yelled.

I held his eyes as I screamed at him, "You cut yourself off! You didn't tell me anything except, 'I realized what you-!' and then you stopped!"

I took a deep breath, and closed my eyes for a moment.

When I opened them, it was to Demyx hanging his head, shaking. "Mer, don't blame me." He said quietly.

He snapped his head up, eyes sharper than I'd ever thought they could be. "I thought you were pretending! I thought that you did remember, but wanted me to suffer!" He yelled.

I jumped at this, and my eyes became slits, anger overcoming me. "Is that how you view me now; a lying bitch who fakes to cause pain?" I said it so quietly, but the air seethed with me.

Demyx froze, eyes and smell fearful, seeing my eyes. They weren't in their worst state, but close.

I felt my nonexistent heart breaking somewhere. "Good luck. I'm never seeing you again. I hope this was worth being free of me." I whispered, my eyes returning to normal, and my mourning for myself began.

I was no longer me. The old I had died with his last words to me, and now I knew not who I was.

I ran away when he realized what I'd said. I came to the kitchen without comprehending it.

Xaldin was chopping vegetables slowly, quietly and the moment my foot touched inside the doorway, he turned with his knife poised to stab anyone.

He froze, and became white, as if he saw a ghost. I smiled softly. "Hey, Xal, I missed you, you know." I came up to him, took his knife, placed it on the counter, and hugged him.

I hadn't expected him to do anything, so when he hugged me back, I jumped a bit.

Another person walked into the room, parting our little moment. I turned to see Saix standing there, staring.

I smiled at him, too, and wrapped my arms around his waist. Saix cleared his throat after hugging me a moment.

"We thought you would never return, Admerxin." Saix whispered.

I grinned, happy someone was glad to see me. "I missed you too, Saix."

He blushed, and I slowly made it up the familiar way to my bedroom, and, upon opening the door, sighed.

Madaxan had packed it all away in boxes, except for my bed, which was still as I remembered it: messy and undone as I'd left it that morning.

My throat caught as I saw a crumpled piece of paper laying on it. I brushed it away, and flopped on the familiar softness.

I slowly, carefully went over my life as a Nobody, and the last bits of as a Somebody in my mind.

Here they are, for you, dear reader. My Eternal Heart, for you to explore.

Good Luck.