A/N: If you read the first chapter thank you for staying with me. I hope you like this story as much as I do. Please Review!
Disclaimer: Stephanie Meyers owns twilight and i don't claim to. I just like jerking around with her characters a little.
Chapter 2:
I'm Seriously Not A Homo
I am not a gay. I don't wander around in their company, do not attend the weekly drag shows, not a fag hag or whatever kind of nicknames they have come up with over the years. I don't have any problem with them, everyone is entitled to happiness and love. It just wasn't how i expected my life to turn out.
I am just me, and I tend to act a little crazy sometimes, I tend to let things get out of hand. I am a constant vessel for conflict and surprise.
As my reflection stared into me, asking me what the hell just happened, I could only look on in horror, I had just kissed my best friend, wait, scratch that, I had just sucked a lot of face with my best friend, on the floor of our two bedroom apartment.
"What in all of gods glory am I thinking?" I whispered to myself... I had no answer and it seems that my reflection didn't either. We both looked awestruck.
This was college and not even in my drunken stupors had I ever attempted something of this caliber. And I had been to frat parties, alright.
I saw all those hussies and their inebriated romances with each other, I paid little mind to them. Even when I had a few too many brews, I tried to stray away from them and their ability to attack you with their attention yearning make-out sessions.
My hands pressed against the cold porcelain sink, and I did this kind of hyperventilation dance with it, it wasn't pretty. I finally brought my head to the edge right in between my palms. I just stood there for what seemed like days, trying to regain some composure.
"What does this even mean? I kissed a girl... and I think I fucking liked it." thoughts such as this kept running through my brain. Churning it over into butter. I could literally not think anymore. So I allowed my body fall to the ground, i knelt against the soft oak cabinets under the sink.
I could never leave this bathroom, I thought. My hands lay in my lap with my legs stretched straight so that my feet were touching against the wall. My head hung low still and I stared at my hands.
These silly things, they got me into so much trouble. I let my voice hiss out from my parted lips "you just had to tickle her didn't you... " I glared at them.
Time seemed to rush and stop all at once, I couldn't remember what time I had arrived home, I don't know how long I had been in here, I couldn't even remember what time it was when....
A fast and abrupt knock came at the restroom door.
My head snapped to it in horror, there was no way I could face Alice after I had almost eaten her tongue and without any notice run off to the bathroom like the damn coward that i was. Leaving her only with a flat "i need to pee".
The knock came faster and was more fierce. I didn't budge. There was nothing I could say to her, I didn't have anything figured out. All her millions of questions could not be answered in my present state. So i just sat. Waiting.
Then a voice came that i honestly wasn't expecting
"Bella what are you doing in there, Alice says you locked yourself in the bathroom and wont come out" It was Jacob, my best friend from High School.
I was hesitant, because i didn't want to come out of the room and face Alice again, but i didn't want him to worry, I slowly rose then made my way to the door and reached for the knob.
Opening it, I was met with Jacob and all his massive frame. He had been making love with the door apparently, because out of nowhere his chest was touching my nose. I peeked at him through my lashes "Hi Jake" an uneasy smile adorned half of my face
He looked at me quizzically, I wondered if Alice had told him anything. I chanced a survey of his surroundings to see if she might be around. She wasn't as far as i could gather. Maybe she went into her room, I pondered.
"Are you alright? Alice said you have been in here for hours, I think she is really worried about you" He tried to push his way through the door to inspect my bathroom.
I moved out of the way to let him through, there wasn't anything there of course. It had just been little ole cowardly Bella Swan who, after having her first lesbian encounter, fled with her tail between her no woman's land. Ironic, isn't it.
I cautiously inquired "Is she still around?" hoping that the answer was no
And oh what luck, god decided to grant me exactly one wish today, this was it.
"No, she left to go over to Esmes, something about her grades. She looked really flustered, I think Esme might be trying to kill Alice" He flashed a wicked smile my way.
I let out a sigh of relief at the fact that Alice had kept her big mouth shut for once.
I watched as he walked around and searched the room, every single inch of it. He was a big guy and my bathroom was pretty small, He stood at least 5 inches taller than me, he could reach up really high, and demonstrated it by pawing over the top of the vanity, I don't know exactly what he was expecting to find, he probably thought i was on drugs.
I wish i had been.
Jake was on the football team in high school and we were all surprised most of the teachers didn't try and hold him back due to his auspicious 3 year title winning streak.
Jacob had been offered a scholarship to any university that he wanted, it was an athletic scholarship, as long as he won games for a college they were going to give him a free ride. He of course chose the school right down the street from mine.
In high school we had met because of my dad Charlie, his life long friend Billy had came to visit shortly after I arrived in Forks, Washington to stay with my dad. Jacob was with him.
We hit it off instantly, it was crazy how much we had in common, we talked for hours about books, movies, music, and our weird obsession with Mystery Science Theater, which by far, has got to be the greatest thing to come out of America in decades.
Jacob cleared his throat, "Excuse me, space cadet swan"
He broke me out of my reverence and I finally met his gaze.
He continued slowly "So are you going to tell me why you have been in the bathroom for 3 hours?" as he said this I watched him inspect the trashcan near the toilet.
And what exactly was he looking for in there? I hoped to hell there was a used tampon so that he might vomit, serves the curious little bugger right. He looked up at me then obviously awaiting my answer.
I didn't respond fast enough as i was trying to muster up any kind of excuse, I didn't want to tell Jacob what happened between me and Alice, I just wasn't ready. This was a delicate situation that needed to be cared for nice and slow.
I don't exactly know what was going through his head then, but all of a sudden his eyes flew open and I thought he might be having a stroke. Just as I was about to run and call a doctor his mouth moved into a perfect circle as he finally formed some coherent words "Oh. My. God"
I leaned forward trying to draw the rest of the train of thought out of him but finally offered "what?"
"You're knocked up! aren't you?!" his face broke into an all knowing smile and he slapped his hand to his thigh and concluded his performance with a guffaw.
As if someone just gave me a warhead candy, my face puckered while I defended "No you idiot I'm not pregnant, you have to get laid to get pregnant and we all know how long that's been." putting extensive highlight on the word "that". I regress.
"However I could be carrying Jesus so... atone for your sins now cause I'm pretty sure I get some dictation after this" I pointed to my torso displaying it playfully "is all said and done".
I had lost my virginity to Jacob years ago. And I haven't exactly been keen on jumping in the sack with anyone since.
We had been drinking over at one of our friend Jessica's house parties, which she had quite frequently.
We stumbled into one of her parents guest rooms, I blushed as I remembered him being on top of me. Not to mention inside me.
We let passion and our inebriation get the best of us. Its not that it wasn't good, but i barely remember it.
Things didn't even feel weird with us after that. We just kept being Bella and Jacob, we never told anyone, and we never really spoke of it. I think we both understood it was just one of those "hey this is my best friend and oh hey here is some liquor lets have sex and never speak of it again" nights.
Now I had another event to add to the list of "stupid sexual exploits that Bella would like to forget about and move on from" sadly though I knew Alice and she was not as quick to let things go as Jacob had been.
He seemed appeased with my matter of fact mockery.
"Oh, wow, that long huh?" he started to mull this over for a moment while running his thick fingers through is long black hair. "You know Bella you are really pretty, any guy would probably jump at the chance to get you in bed, you don't have to be such a nun all the time"
I rolled my eyes "Jake, just... no, just no, this conversation is over"
I could tell he wasn't letting this go that easily, visibly from his expression you could tell he was working something else out in his head. another solution to Bella Gate 2008.
In all honesty I didn't want to deal with any other cock-eyed explanations Jake was going to come up with, so i finally spoke "listen, Jake, nothing happened. Me and Al got in a little tiff about the temperature of the apartment and I was just trying to cool down, it was hotter than the devils back bone in here and I was kind of freaking out, you know I have a thing about getting too hot"
Ever since I was a baby I have been wary of any situation that caused me to be around excessive heat. I hated it. I could barely breath and when I could barely breath I started to freak out. Major anxiety overload. Don't ask me why, it was just a birth defect i guess.
Jacob had to help me in one of my over heated Bella freak outs before. So I knew he understood.
One of the main reasons I had loved living in forks because it was never hot, it was always just perfectly chill. Moving from Arizona to Forks was like my own personal version of heaven. Nice and cold.
Speaking of which, Alice must have turned the heat down because it was getting breezy finally, I started to relax a bit. Jacob was sending me questioning stare after questioning stare. I didn't move to continue the conversation and I think he finally bought it.
Sucker.
"So what are your plans for the day sir?" my mood lightened with the dissipating of the heat, I knew I had a lot of things to figure out, but for now I was going to try and just calm down, hopefully spending some time with my best guy pal was going to help me in the pursuit of easiness.
"Well I just brought the 5th volume of MST3k over for us to watch... but I suppose if your a little too frazzled from the heat we could-"
He was cut off by a high pitched squeal expelling from me accompanied with my ever present but always awesome slang vocab "huzzah! that one has Merlin's magic shop on it, one of my favorites!" I clapped my hands together joyously.
I finally saw Jacob shine on his flawless Jacob smile and I knew the whole ordeal was going to be tossed aside... for now at least. If Jacob was good for one thing, it was that he knew when to just let it go, even if he didn't agree with it, thank god for Jacob Black.
We spent the next 6 hours watching each episode together talking and laughing. I always enjoyed Jacobs company, he constantly put me in a good mood, knowing exactly how to make me laugh.
We talked about how school had been, I was getting pretty good grades except for my public speaking class, which I was only getting a C in.
I hated being in front of crowds, actually, hate it too tame a word to describe how I felt about speaking in front of people. However, my major required one speech class so... just had to grin and bare it.
Jacob didn't need good grades, most of the professors kissed his ass on a regular basis, despite that fact he actually did try at school, he liked learning almost as much as me. Which is saying a lot.
Although I can say I was having a good time with Jacob, there was still this growing fear in the back of my mind. My imagination was zooming with scene after scene of what was going to happen when Alice got home.
We were in the middle of a conversation about the differences between Mike and Joel when the front door opened and in stepped Alice. We both stalled in the middle of what we were saying to look towards her. She did not look happy.
Piss.
Jacob was the first to speak "Hey Al, how did the thing with Esme go?"
Alice just stood in the doorway expressionless. She walked past us without saying a word. Went down the hallway and into her bedroom.
Jacob looked at me and sighed "Wonder what happened" immediately shrugging his shoulders and giving me a wondering glance.
"I am not sure, maybe you should go" I didn't really want Jake to leave, he was keeping me from having to own up to the situation from earlier. In fact if you had asked me at that moment what i wanted more than anything I would have easily said I wanted Jake to take me over his gigantic shoulders and steal me away from this fucked up scenario.
He obliged as he always does however and I watched him rise from the couch. I stood to meet him in a warming hug. I needed this little bit of encouragement more than he could ever understand. Just one small gesture like this was really going to haul me through the mud.
The door made a click as he shut it, simultaneously Alice's door opened. Just as I had feared.
She had been waiting.
I was standing at the front door to our apartment trying to keep my breathing steady.
She walked with paced steps towards my back which was facing her. I could hear her small feet inching closer and closer. I was not prepared for this.
She stopped and in a tone that I have never heard from Alice ever in the whole time we have known each other said "Isabella, we need to talk"
I stared at the door and moved to turn around, I was met by Alice's scowl, only a few inches from my face. I dared to breathe and started to form any words I could think of at this point, i pivoted my body towards the door ready to make my great escape. "Al-"
But she stopped me dead in my tracks, ferocious as a mother tiger, her conviction was fast and crippling
"Now."
