Chapter Two, Verse Two

If I were a boy.

I would turn off my phone

Tell everyone it's broken so they'd think that i was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first,

And make the rules as I go

Cause I know that she'd be faithful

Waiting for me to come home

(to come home)

Jack strut his way into the Torchwood hub, eyeing off Ianto at the coffee machine. Jack made his way behind his lover, holding him tight and lightly kissing Iantos neck.

"Good Morning Yan, did you sleep well…"

"Of course I did…" Ianto smiled as he felt Jacks strong arms.

"Has one of those coffees got my name on it?"

"Of course, sir… Just the way you like it"

"Sounds like heaven…" Jack moaned as Ianto handed him a mug.

"Where did you get off to this morning…?"

Jack shrugged, taking a quick gulp of his drink, giving him a few extra seconds to think and calm himself before the string of lies began.

"I went for a walk…"

Jacks eyes flash back to the vision of John, naked, holding the gun to him.

"I tried to call your phone…but-"

"It went flat…Stupid thing… I always forget to charge it"

His memories flashed to the walk to the car as he turned his phone off and discarded it to the back seat of the SUV. Ianto would not have been convinced if he considered Jack would go off with anyone else.

"Oh, I – It's Just I woke up and you weren't there…Silly really... I-" Ianto blushed, he felt horrible asking all these questions.

"What is it Ianto?" Jack looked concerned, worried he was caught out.

"oh!, nothing. I just- I'm not used to waking up and… you weren't there… It was just new… I didn't know where you were that's all… just silly things…"

"I'm sorry…" Jack took Ianto into his strong arms, kissing his forehead.

Shortly after, the other team members arrived. Ianto delivered each coffee with a happy, warm smile. Unaware and seemingly content with Jacks excuses. The day continued as normal, except Jack was a bit more distant today, spending most of what he could in his office. His thoughts trailed to John and if he would be at the hotel again, tonight.

The day flew by with very little interruption from the rift, for once. Slowly each member started leaving the hub and continuing home to their lives. First Gwen left to her loving home with Rhys, and then Owen finished up his medical report from an assignment, two days prior. And lastly, Tosh, who was not leaving until she had finished the newest upgrade to the Torchwood security and installing some new technology into each ID card, a project she had been working on for the last two months.

Jack looked over the dark hub from his office window he spotted Ianto cleaning up around the offices. "How do I keep doing this to us…" Jack put a hand on the glass "…I'm sorry Ianto…I wish I knew how to fix this…" Jack whispered, as he argued with himself in thought. 'You know how to fix it… You have to tell John - no more - …' Jack spotted Ianto coming up the stairs, and through the office door. Making his way to Jack's side, they both peered out over the Torchwood hub, Jack wrapped his arm around Ianto, holding him close.

"Ianto…" Jack said softly "would you like a coffee?" Jack smiled.

"After today, absolutely, sir." Ianto smiled, laughing inside, he was the only one Jack would fetch a coffee for, after Ianto spent all day making coffees, It was like a treat for him to have one especially made and delivered by the boss himself.

"Great, You grab a seat…" Jack made his way towards the coffee machine "…or a bed" Jack winked suggestively. While on his own for the few minutes it took to make a coffee, Jack had time to put his words together and prepare to tell Ianto, the truth. He knew it wasn't going to be easy, But he considered, all his lifetimes and experiences he's had, He had a fair idea how this situation was going to pan out.

Jack walked in and hopped in the bed alongside Ianto, slowly passing the coffee over to Ianto. "One Hot, steaming, cup of coffee and sugar…" Jack handed the cup over to Ianto "… and your coffee" Jack laughed. He watched Ianto take a drink before taking a sip of his own coffee.

"This is a great way to wind down after a long day…" Ianto commented.

"That. It is…"

"Jack…Are you okay? You haven't seemed yourself today…"

Jack smiled to himself. 'Of course you noticed…well, it's now or never' Jack sighed.

"Ianto… I need to tell you-"

"Jack?"

"Please… Just listen, this is hard enough" Jack admitted

"Okay… I'm listening" Ianto put his half-drunk coffee on the bedside.

"Last night, I went for a walk… I-I went to a bar… The bartender knows me, he lets me know things…"

"Bar? You said you went for a walk…. Jack.. What things?"

"He said. A man was in town looking for me… said I knew where to find him…" Jack waited for Ianto to ask more questions, Ianto stared at Jack disappointed and angry but he didn't interrupt, and waited for the inevitable news to come.

"I found the man... I found him, and we ended up in a hotel.. Ianto, I'm so sorry…"

"Who is he?" Ianto got up out of the bed

"Does that matter?" Jack sat up and swung his legs out of the bed.

"Does it matter! Jack, I'm here, waiting for you to come home, early hours in the morning and you're out in someone else's bed! Does this mean Nothing to you! Who. Is. He. Jack?" Ianto grabbed his jacket which was hung over a nearby chair, folding it over his arm. Jack knew he was going to try and leave.

"John Hart…"

"John!.. John! Jack… No, You can't be serious! After all he's put us through! And you sleep with him! You!, You always tell us, he can't be trusted, and your sleeping with him! When!"

"Ianto..."

"When Jack! How long has this been going on?"

"It's happened a few times… I haven't counted…"

"A Few Times! Right…" Ianto rolled his eyes at Jack and headed for the door. Jack hung his head and called out to Ianto

"You can't leave…" He got up to meet Ianto in his office.

"Oh, I'm leaving…"

"You can't…"

"Yeah! Why can't I?"

Jack looked at Ianto sadly. Ianto felt his vision blurring.

"You bastard…You drugged me?"

"I'm sorry…"

"You're not sorry! Don't even try…You retconned me? You Bastard!" Ianto held the door handle to keep himself up.

"I love you Ianto. I love you so much…You must belie-"

"So much that I'm not enough? So much that you go off to a bar and sleep with John!" Ianto felt dizzy and heavy, falling down on one knee at Jacks office door, his vision getting worse.

"I'm sorry…" Jack whispered.

"Stop it… What's your plan now? Are you going to tell me? or Keep me for yourself, you selfish-"

"I don't know…I'll think about it tonight"

"While you're at your bar… or while you're with John?" Ianto was fighting the urge to sleep as he slid down the office door to a sitting position. Jack took a few steps towards him in an effort to comfort him.

"Ianto…"

"No!, Don't you come near me! I don't want you near me!"

"I'm sorry Ianto…You know what the worst part is..."

"What?" Ianto felt the full effects of the Retcon. He knew he would fall asleep soon.

"When we break up… I won't be able to tell you why…"

"I'm sure you'll cope…" Ianto slowly fell into a deep sleep

Jack got in closer to Ianto, heaving him over his shoulder and carrying him back downstairs to Jacks Quarters. He laid Ianto in his bed and took a moment to think about what he was going to do in the morning. 'Maybe, I should take you home.' Jack thought 'Ignore you in the morning… You'll think we fought...'

"Ianto… I don't want to lose you…" Jack whispered as he stroked Iantos hair. "…I'm ending it with John tonight… Please. Don't give up on us…I love you" Jack leant in and kissed Ianto on the forehead and headed out to the hotel.

Jack waltzed into the hotel, asking for the room key of 408 and headed up the stairs to the third floor. He opened the door to find John waiting for him.

"Didn't think you'd come back for a round two… This is new…"

Jack smirked at John who was being smart, his red jacket flowing over his tan coloured pants.

"John… We need to chat"

"You are joking? All these years, and you pull 'We need to chat' really? Oh well…"

"I'm sorry John.. I love him.. and I can't do this anymore…I'm killing him"

"Does he know you're killing him?"

"He will…"

"Jack… I know you better than your little squad group… You won't tell him…because you love 'this'" John gestured between himself and Jack.

"Then you don't know me at all… "

"So what… that's it?"

"Afraid so…" Jack shrugged at John, who began sighing loudly

"I guessed... It would come to this sooner or later…" John pulled his gun out. Jack didn't seem surprised but didn't react to John's gun.

"I'm not playing John… I'm very serious… Put the gun away…"

"I'm very serious too, take off your clothes…" John put a silencer on the head of his pistol, Jack laughed at him.

"You're joking right? We both know that's not going to happen..."

"I'm tired of the games Jack…" John traced his finger over his loaded and silenced weapon. He pointed his gun at Jack.

"We've been over this.. You're pointing a gun at a man who can't die…"

"Oh. I know that. But that's the glory. Where are you gonna wake up?"

"John… You can't be serio-" Jack was cut off by a bullet ripping through his heart. He fell back to the floor and was quickly covered in a pool of blood, and slowly fell into the darkness.

Moments later, Jack gasped back to life, the bullet wound healed quickly and the pain in Jacks chest subsided slowly. Jack was able to judge where he was. 'Same hotel…?' he thought as he realised John had tied him down using handcuffs, stripped him of his clothes and gaged him.

"Jack your awake…"

Jack could only stare in horror as John made his way into the room, his questions and profanities were muffled by the gag.

"No. I don't want to 'keep you forever' Forever for men like us… is too long… I just want to remind you…Remind you 'WHY' you keep coming back…"

Jack shook his head. And pulled at the chains around his wrists, even though, he knew, it would be no use.

"Now… If you just didn't let feelings get in the way… We could be happy, I agreed to never let eye-candy know where you were, you got the best of both worlds… Wasn't that good enough? Wasn't that what you wanted?"

While he spoke, John picked up a leather cock-ring, showing it to Jack before he began playing with the older man. Jack tried not to let John get to him, kept telling himself he was better than that, but it was inevitable, Jack's body would eventually give in to the pleasure, he loved to be dominated, he loved any kind of sex. Jack grew to a healthy size and John continued tormenting him.

"I guess now we can play out our little game for real this time...except You won't be getting orders… today, isn't about you.."

Jack tried to mumble back a smart remark, his efforts were wasted. John didn't care what he had to say. He just smiled at Jack and snapped the leather cock-ring in place, leaving Jack spread and feeling vulnerable.

"Maybe, You can use this to tell Eye-Candy where you've been? Or, you can do what you do every other time Jack. You lie"

John stood only to pick up his first torture device, a small but powerful wireless vibrator, which John took pleasure in inserting inside Jack, leaving it off for the moment; he went to collect his next item. An Electro-stimulant with two electro-pads, John attached one to each of Jacks inner-thighs. Jack moaned loudly through his gag, he admitted that on a normal day, he'd feel excited for the anticipation of what was to come.

"This time… I'm sick of your lies… This time… Jack… It's not about what you want… It's about what everyone wants…and I want to see if you really love your eye-candy…"

Jack's head jerked up at the mention of Ianto, but he soon realised what the new game was going to be. 'Fuck…' was all he managed.

"Now, as mentioned. I know you more than 'anyone' else Jack. I know what makes your tick…"

Jack attempted to tell John this is not what he wants 'No, John… Please…Don't do this…You have got to be fucking me…' But to John they were just cries, muffled sounds, which he could easily ignore.

"You say, you love him… let's find out how much…Every good game needs rules though, right Jack… you always said that…Are you paying attention?"

John pressed down on a button sending electro-shocks to Jacks thighs, to which, Jack attempted to cry out. It was a split second, and Jack got a quick taste of what was to come.

"Alright… Rules…We are going to play for an hour… I will up the ante each time…when I'm bored…If you love Eye-Candy, You won't cum, It's that simple Jack..."

Jack moaned at the sound of the game, he had to stay strong and not climax, but he knew, John was a master at sex and could read Jack like a book.

"Jack, You need to pay attention.." John said as he took hold of Jack penis and began playing with its length "…Because, Jack if you cum, well, I might go find your eye-candy and play a few games with him too…" Jack began to thrash and scream through his gag, the thought of John harming Ianto for something he had caused, made him sick. John held the electro-shock stimulator down just short of two seconds and watched Jacks back arch in pain, Jack managed to relax and prepare for the game ahead.

John headed over collecting more ropes, ties and vibrators that he intended to use, rolling a vibrating cock-ring over Jacks penis, he set it for pulse, and every 5 seconds the vibrator would send pulsating vibrations through Jacks swollen penis. At first Jack's face twitched in shock but he soon found the rhythm and could prepare for each one.

Moments later, John picked up his dial and set the electro-shock stimulator to half second shocks for every 7 seconds. He enjoyed listening to Jack shout out in pain. John took a careful hold of Jacks penis, Jacks face turned bright red with embarrassment as he moaned a protest. John took a rough hold of Jack before announcing.

"Does it hurt?"

Jacks toes curled and his face cringed with pain.

"Look at me Jack…"

Jack attempted to look through squinted eyes as he prepared his body for the next buzz. 'What do you want from me?' Jack thought sadly, trying not to let the tear escape his eye. John slowed his rhythm and eventually came to a halt. Jack's body shook with fear due to the pain as he cried out once more.

"I love seeing you like this Jack. You look…" John paused as he watched Jacks body arch and tense with pain and then relax, Jack bit down hard on the gag. "…Complete"

'Please…Stop this…' Jack swallowed '3..2…' Jack bit down preparing for the next lot of pain to enter his body. John knew slowly it would become either unbearable or comfortable, He knew he would have to step it up a gear.

He stroked his own hard piece and waited to see which way Jack would fall. Moments later, Jack pulled violently at the chains that kept him restrained. his screams and profanities towards John were muffled.

"Do you know what I Need from you Jack…?"

Jack breathed heavy through his nose, praying the torture would stop.

"I NEED to know that you won't come back…"

John stopped the electo-shock Stimulation device. Jack's body tensed up and no pain was delivered, he lay back doing his best to relax. His whole body shook.

Jack watched helplessly as John took hold of his erect penis once again and stroked it perfectly, John knew what Jack wanted and gave it to him. 'I don't want this…please let it stop…oh, God…it's amaz—no…I want Ianto….please… John.. no more…Ianto…please…' Jack's eye widened with fear as John stroked hard over the head, Jack wanted to thrust his hips into Johns hand, but knew better than to help the cause. Involuntarily, Jack began to moan, he fell into the ecstasy and craved release, he raised his hips and began to thrust into Johns hands.

John smiled, letting go of Jack penis, Jack cried out 'oh, fuck you!...'

"Promise to stay with me Jack…Have the best of both worlds?" John ran his palm over Jacks abdomen, lightly, tickling the older man. Jack swallowed hard, a tear ran from his eye as he remembered the disappointed look in Ianto's face. Staring at John sadly, he shook his head.

"Just want your Tea boy huh?"

John reached for the electro-shock stimulator remote, despite Jacks protests he turned it on, Jack's body arched up in pain and Jack's cries for help lay on death ears.

"Then you've still got 38 minutes 43 seconds…and counting…" A wave of pain hit Jack.

John lowered the timer from 7 seconds, down to 5. Jack wasn't prepared for the blow, he counted between shocks and learnt quickly when each blow would arrive. John reached over Jacks sweaty body to the bedside table, collecting a remote.

Jack nearly forgot the small, wireless bullet, John inserted inside him earlier, as John turned it on its lowest setting, Jack jolted, eye's wide as the speedy bullet massaged him. John then began toying with Jacks balls, stretching them softly, he wrapped a leather separator around them, making it harder for Jack to climax, Jack's body threw itself up as far as the bondage kit would allow and Jack began his count-down from five once more.

"I'm a little disappointed Jack…"

John stroked his own cock, the sight and thought that Jack couldn't fight back made John feel overwhelmed. Watching Jacks face Twitch and scream with pain, and then puff and moan with pleasure.

"Can you tell the pain apart…?"

John stood where Jack could see him, Jack watched as John worked himself up, eye's glued on Jack.

"I want you to watch me Jack…I'm watching you.. It's only fair.."

As John came close, he forced himself to let go, edging himself close to climax. He clicked a button on the remote and the bullet was set at a higher speed, making Jack clench. Jack felt lost in the mixed feelings. 'uh…uh…oh…Why…' Jack thought as his body twitched and continued to clench and spasm.

"Jack…I want you to cum for me…"

Even though, that is exactly what Jack wanted, he weakly shook his head, thinking of Ianto.

"I want to watch you, shoot your hot cum…" John paused waiting for Jack to settle between shocks "…and when you regain your strength… I want to fuck you so hard you'll forget the time…"

Jack pulled again at his restraints as he watched John waltz over to him, John turned the electro-shock stimulator off once more. Jack began to focus on the vibrator inside him and less on John. John stretched out his tongue and licked up Jacks shaft.

"I'm going to make you cum Jack… And I'm going to love sucking every last drop out of you…"

As John wrapped his lips around Jacks pleading penis, he set the small bullet up another level, Jack shot his hips up at the extra attention. Jack rolled his hips unsure where to put them, he was put back in the ecstasy once more and seconds into his blowjob, John had cut all attention that Jack was receiving. The bullet now, turned off, and John pulled away from Jacks penis.

Jack moaned and cursed at John, he tried to swallow, but his mouth was dry at this stage. Jack's heart was racing, he breathing became short and hard. Jack was seeking release.

"Come back to me Jack… Or my torture will continue…" John licked his lips savouring Jack dazed look, John looked down at himself and stroked fast as his cock, keeping his own erect. "…or you still have …24 minutes and..12 seconds…" a few long, slow strokes and John stopped checking the clock properly. "All you have to do is tell me… that pretty boy is all you want and last the game… or surrender and have me fuck you… belong to me Jack… that's all I want…"

'24 minutes…I can do this…24 minutes and I can go home… to Ianto…' After what seemed like forever, Jack shook his head. John smiled.

"If you cum…Jack, this is a warning… If you cum and the timer hasn't gone off…I'm going to fuck your pretty…pretty tea-boy…"

Jack stared angrily he shook his head angrily at John, John knew inside, Jack was threatening him. John climbed on top of Jack, Leaning over him.

"I'm going to fuck him so….so hard… and I'm Going to tell him who I fucked before him…" Jack raised his head, his heart sank, he felt sick at the words coming from Johns mouth.

"…And after your tea boy is WASTED… I'm going to tell him where you are…so he can see for him-SELF… what YOU did…" With the harsh words, John kissed Jack, the words still ringing in Jacks ears.

"with that out the way Jack… You only have to survive 23 minutes and…37 seconds…" John kissed his way down, lowering himself to Jacks wanting cock, jack felt the sweat on his brow forming.

'23 minutes… I can do th-… please…' Jack pleaded himself not to surrender.

John flicked the bullet back on, Jacks cock collided with Johns chest as he jumped at the sudden pressure. John simply took hold of Jacks piece, sliding the foreskin down to it's base, placing his thumb at the neck of Jacks cock, rubbing gentle circles, Jack twitched staying focussed in his thoughts praying he would not give in.

'I can do thi..uughh…' Jacks eyes rolled back with the sensation as John pumped his cock.

John put his lips at Jacks cock again and began working his magic. John felt Jack half pushing himself further into Johns mouth. John hallowed his mouth and worked a little faster, he listened to Jacks heavy breathing through the gag. John lightly tapped at Jacks balls an unfamiliar rhythm as his head bobbed only over the tip of Jacks penis. Jack was going wild. 'Please!... STOP this!...ahh…Oh…Ugh!...No!..No!' Jack felt himself shuddering, knowing he was close. John lifted his head Jack screamed through the gag at the loss of contact.

"Thought you'd care to know.. You only have to last 7 minutes… and I'll go away.. Buut…" a few flicks of the remote and Jack couldn't control the clenching, he craved release. "this is my game…"

'Ahh!... Ugh!.. No!...Stop it!..Ianto…Please…Ugh!..."

John then unbuttoned the only other thing stopping Jack from reaching climax, tossing the leather ring aside, John moaned loudly putting his mouth back into work, he continued to moan over Jack overwhelmed penis.

'Oh..God… I'm… I'm…No!... Don't…Do… iii- ah…ahh..' Jack was holding with everything, every thought he had.

In between slurps John teased "Give it to me Jack… Cum in my mouth… Give me your steamy, hot cum…"

With three minutes still remaining Jack had his eyes closed praying to hear the buzzer go off.

'Plea-..AH…Ugh…Oh!...Ugh!...No!...No… No!... Pleeease…'

Jack blew his load and John swallowed willingly.

"with 2 minutes and 47 seconds to go… Such a shame…"

Jack could hardly focus the only words he heard were;

"I'm off to see your tea-boy…."

If I were a boy, I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl, I'd swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her.

Cause I know how it hurts.

When you lose the one you wanted cause he's taken you for granted and everything you had got destroyed.