The next day, all Abi could think about was the previous night's events. She actually couldn't even believe that it had happened. The idea of Jay still wanting her, even after everything that had happened over the past year…It gave her butterflies, it honestly did. She wouldn't deny it - she couldn't - even though she knew how pathetic that was. He'd hurt her - he'd really, really, hurt her. Losing him had almost killed her, yet she still wanted him more than she'd ever wanted anyone. No matter what he'd done, she still loved him. She would always love him, she knew that, and he probably knew that too. Well, if he hadn't known it before, he certainly did after last night. How could she have been so stupid? She should never had let herself go there with him, not again. As much as she loved him, she had to look out for herself now, put herself first for a change. From now on, it was head over heart. It had to be that way, because she didn't think she could take any more heartbreak - and that's all he would bring her. Heartbreak.

Last night had been a one off. An amazing, beautiful, amazing one off. As cheesy as it sounded, being with him like that made her feel like she was home. It was like she was whole again when she was with him. He completed her, in every single sense of the word. The sex itself wasn't bad, either. Last night had been something else completely, actually. Maybe it was because it had been so long and they'd both really wanted - needed - each other. Or maybe it was because it was so damn passionate that she could barely think straight. Or maybe it was just the way he made her feel - beautiful, and sexy, and wanted. God, did he prove how much he wanted her. It was pretty safe to say that he got the hint about how much she wanted him too, though. Because she had made it pretty damn obvious when she was ripping his clothes off and writhing beneath him, no matter what she said when all was said and done.

She'd had to say it though. As much as she'd wanted to just lay there with him and pretend the last year had never happened, she couldn't. She'd spent her entire relationship with Ben pretending that she didn't know the truth about him. For once in her life, she needed to do the mature thing. Her and Jay had broken up for a reason, she couldn't just forget that. She'd never forget the way she felt when Ben told her Jay was in love with her best friend, or the way she felt when Jay didn't deny it and she was forced to realize it was true. Every single insecurity, every ounce of jealousy and doubt within her, had all come to the surface that day. It was those emotions, mixed with the large amount of champagne she'd consumed during that fateful day, that led to poor Tramp's death. She'd let her emotions get the better of her when she got into that car, and she promised herself she would never do it again. That hadn't lasted long, had it? Just a few weeks later and she'd been letting Ben manipulate her stupid, misled feelings for him for his own selfish gain. Now, she'd learned her lesson and she wasn't about to let Jay back into her heart just for him to trample all over it again when he decided he didn't want her anymore. What happened when Lola got bored of Dexter's antics and decided she needed good, reliable Jay to be a father to little Lexi again?

It was complicated, to say the least. Now she knew she would have to talk to Jay, to set the record straight and make sure they were both on the same page. She wasn't looking forward to telling him that they were over for good, because all he would have to do was touch her and she'd melt in the palm of his hand. It was genuinely pathetic and she hated herself for it. But, she had to find a way to be strong now. She had to promise herself that she would, for once in her life, be strong and make a sensible decision.

She just didn't know whether or not Jay would accept that. He'd seemed pretty determined to win her back last night - and he might have temporarily succeeded, but it wasn't going to go any further. All she had to do was make sure that he knew that.

What would she say to him? Oh yeah, the sex yesterday was completely mind blowing but I don't want to be in a relationship with you? Well, that was a lie. She did want a relationship with him, but she also didn't want to get hurt, so she wasn't going to risk it. Abi knew that she'd see straight through her, whatever she said.

She was snapped out of her train of thought when her phone buzzed on the sofa arm besides her. She sighed, picking up the phone and seeing it was a text from Jay. He'd been texting her all day, and she had at least eight missed calls from him. But she'd been distracting herself, and trying not to answer. If he wanted her as badly as he made out yesterday, he could work for it.

Can we talk? Please? xx

Abi ran a hand over her face as she let out a groan. She guessed it was better to just get this over and done with now, whilst the house was empty. Actually, having the house to themselves didn't sound so bad… No. She immediately shook that thought out of her mind. She couldn't go there. No matter how much she wanted to.

Okay. Come over now? x


Jay was quite surprised when his phone buzzed just seconds after he sent that text to Abi. After everything she'd said last night, Jay wasn't sure how willing she was going to be to talk to him. He knew that she liked to hide away from her problems until she had no other choice but to face up to them. He only hoped she didn't think of him as a problem. But he also knew that Abi was insecure, and stubborn, and she was even more insecure and stubborn when she was hurting. If she wanted to shut him out, then she would. Perhaps he deserved to have her shut him out. At the end of the day, he was the one who split up with her and knowingly broke her heart into a thousand pieces. He let her get caught up in Ben's manipulation because he was stupid enough to believe his honorary brother when he promised he wouldn't hurt her. Jay knew that Abi wouldn't have even looked at Ben if it hadn't been for their breakup. All because he was dumb enough to think there were other fish in the sea. There was only one fish that he wanted, he was sure of that now.

As soon as he got the text back from Abi, he announced to Phil and Ben that he was taking an early lunch. There was no chance for either of them to argue, because he was gone within seconds. Jay knew how quickly his ex girlfriend could change her mind, he wasn't going to let this opportunity pass. He'd been fully expecting to have to bother her for ages before getting so much as a look in, so he was just pleased that she seemed willing to talk to him. Maybe they could actually face this like adults. Or, even better, maybe she'd admit how she felt and things could go back to being the way they used to be. The two of them could be happy again. Isn't that what really counted in all of this? Their happiness.

He might have hurt her - badly, he knew that. But he wanted to put things right with her now; he didn't want to waste any more time when he knew that she was the one he wanted to be with. Being without her was horrible, and he completely hated it. He hated seeing her with Ben, falling for all of his lies. Ben's feelings about that relationship may not have been genuine, but Abi's were - and her loving someone else bothered him more than it should have. He never said anything, because he wasn't that much of a hypocrite. He knew that he had no right to be upset about her being with another bloke, because he was the one who let his head turn. He was the one who let her think he was in love with her best friend. Who was he to be jealous of her trying to move on?

So, he'd left her alone. He wanted her to be happy, he really did. That was all he could ever want for her. But he knew that she wasn't going to find that happiness with Ben, not really. It would all be a lie. He'd tried to warn her about Ben's sexuality, but he should have known she wouldn't listen. She was stubborn like that. He'd tried to get her to see sense, genuinely because he cared about her and loved her, but she didn't want to know. He knew she'd put two and two together eventually, so he just had to be patient. Now, she knew the truth and her relationship with Ben could be nothing but a distant memory. A mistake, just like his short-lived fling with Lola.

He'd honestly been thrilled when Ben came home the other night and announced that they'd broken up. He told everyone that the two of them had just agreed it wasn't working anymore, but Jay and Phil knew the real reason. That didn't stop Phil trying to convince Ben to put things right with her though, as if he was going be able to talk his way out of a gay affair. Jay would have loved to see him try, that he'd admit.

Jay hadn't planned on telling her how he felt when he'd gone round there the night before. He'd honestly just wanted to give her the rest of her stuff, so that she wouldn't have to come back to the Mitchells' to get it, and make sure that she was okay. He'd had the best of intentions, but he couldn't help it. But he'd had a few drinks, and being there with her just felt right. It was the first time in ages that they'd been properly alone, and she looked so beautiful, that he just couldn't hold it in any longer. So he was finally honest with her about how he felt and he was extremely glad that he did, considering what happened next. They'd slept together for the first time in over a year, and it was amazing. He just wished she hadn't freaked out on him afterwards.

Jay raced round to Dot's, immediately moving to knock on the door. But his hand didn't even reach the door before it opened before him, and he was being dragged inside.

"Alright, calm down," Jay remarked, watching Abi slam the door behind him. "God, babe, I know I'm irresistible but calm down."

"We need to talk," she said seriously with a frown, crossing her arms across her chest as she walked past him into the living room.

He was quite taken aback, but obediently followed her. He couldn't help but think she was hot when she was like this - all feisty and demanding. She always looked gorgeous to him, but there was something about her when she was like this. Then there was the fact that she was wearing skin-tight jeans and an extremely low-cut (as in so low-cut he could see she wasn't wearing a bra underneath) top, and her hair was curled and falling over her shoulder. He just couldn't help but let his eyes wander.

"Are you going somewhere?" He asked, raising an eyebrow.

"No," Abi shrugged. "Why?"

"You just look nice, that's all," Jay replied, about as subtle as a brick.

"Thanks," she said, glancing down and biting back a smirk. It wasn't long before she was moving her hands to her hips and giving him a not-so-innocent smile though."The top's new. Do you like it?"

Abi didn't know where that even come from. What the hell was she doing? She was supposed to be telling him nothing was going to happen between them. She was supposed to be telling him that she wasn't interested - which was exactly why she'd rushed to change into her new, more mature clothes that she'd bought, straightened her hair and put on a seductive red lipstick. Obviously.

She definitely didn't just ask him that to draw his attention to her cleavage, either. Obviously.

"Um, yeah," he stuttered, trying to keep his eyes on her eyes. Which was pretty difficult to do when she seemed to be practically inviting him to stare at her exposed cleavage. "Yeah, it looks good on you."

"Thanks," she smiled, before biting her lip to stop herself from laughing. Even after a year apart, she could still read him like a book. It was safe to say that she knew exactly how to get him where she wanted him. "So, what did you want to talk about?"

"W-what?" He asked, scratching the back of his neck.

"Your text said we needed to talk," she reminded him with a smirk. "I'll take a wild guess and assume you wanted to talk about last night."

"Yeah, last night," Jay let out a breath, pulling himself together. "I know you said you don't want me anymore-"

"- I never said that," Abi interrupted, stepping closer to him. "I said a lot of things, but I didn't say that."

"Well, you might as well have," Jay shrugged, only then noticing the strappy black stilettos she had on. He wondered briefly why she was so dressed up. "You said you regretted it, like, a minute after it….ended."

"Yeah, I know," Abi sighed, glancing down the ground as she bit her lip. Jay couldn't help but think to himself how sexy it was. It was as that thought ran through his mind that he twigged what she was doing. She only got sexy with him when she wanted something - including him.

"So?" Jay said, dragging the word out questioningly as he tried to figure her out.

"I don't regret yesterday, it was amazing," she admitted quickly, looking back up so that her eyes met his. "I mean, it was really amazing. But I don't want to get back together."

"So, you're saying that yesterday was amazing but there's no chance of it happening again?" Jay asked, and it was obvious in his tone that he didn't believe her.

"Yeah," Abi replied, very unconvincingly.

"I'll believe that when it sounds like you believe it," Jay smirked, cheekily.

"I do mean it," Abi insisted.

"No, you don't," Jay stepped closer to her, so that they were stood right in front of each other. Neither of them were either to take their eyes off the other.

"How do you know?" Abi questioned breathily, raising an eyebrow as her gaze fell to Jay's lips. He was so close to her now that she could feel his breath on her. She felt her own breath hitch as his hand moved to her cheek, snaking across her skin until he tucked her hair behind her ear. All he had to do was touch her and her stomach was doing backflips.

She blamed his eyes, she always had. Those big blue eyes made her weak at the knees and could make her hang off his every word.

"Because I know you, Abs," Jay breathed huskily, lowering his eyes to her cherry red lips as he tilted his head to kiss her. "I know exactly what you want."

They both leaned in that extra fraction and just like that, their lips were closing the tiny gap that had been separating them.

Their passionate kissing continued for a few seconds, their hands all over each other. Abi shoved him back slightly, and he stumbled back onto the sofa. She let out a laugh at his reaction as he just stared at her as he tried to catch his breath. She let him appreciate the view for a second longer, before she climbed onto the sofa, straddling him and throwing her arms around his neck.

"I don't know what the hell has got into you," Jay breathed, as he gripped her waist with his hands. "But I'm definitely okay with it."

"I was hoping you'd say that," Abi smirked, not giving him a chance to reply before her lips were on his again.


Half hour later, they were both laying on the sofa. They were both sweaty and still trying to catch their breath as they soaked up the aftermath of their bliss.

"Seriously, babe, you were always good at that but," Jay sighed, thinking out loud as he buckled his jeans. "But that was actually unreal."

"Well, I'm glad you enjoyed yourself as much as I did," Abi smirked, playfully rolling her eyes as she pulled her top over her head.

"Yeah," Jay laughed. "So much for it not happening again though, eh?"

"We're still not getting back together," Abi shook her head, smiling gently.

"I'm sorry, you're telling me you don't want to do that again?" Jay questioned, raising both his eyebrows in complete and utter disbelief.

"Oh no, I would be more than happy to do that again," Abi shrugged, doing up the button on her skinny jeans before turning back to face him. She lifted her hand up to stroke his cheek, just like he'd done to her half hour before. "But we're not getting back together."

"You.." Jay frowned, trying to string the words together. There was no way she meant what he thought she meant. "You want to sleep with me, but you don't want a relationship?"

"...Sure," Abi replied after a few seconds. She'd already proven that she wanted him, and loved him but he didn't need to know that, so what was the point in trying to be subtle about it? He was right. "I'm not jumping back into a relationship with you, Jay. But that's no reason why we can't have a bit of fun. For old times sake and all that."

"Are you serious?" Jay asked, trying not to smirk. Sure, he wanted her - all of her - but he'd take what he could get. As far as he was concerned, any part of her was better than nothing. Plus, after last night and now today, he wasn't going to be turning her down.

"Yeah," Abi smiled, knowing he was on board. She wasn't ready for a relationship, but she needed to have him in her life. He made her happier than anyone, afterall. "Call it exes with benefits."


Thank you for the follows, faves, and reviews for the first chapter! I'm really glad that you guys like this, the positive feedback means the world. Honestly, I wasn't going to start another story so soon after completing Baby Blues but I couldn't really resist. Once I have an idea in my head, that's that, especially when it comes to Jay and Abi! I really miss them on the show, so I figured I'd put it right in my little fantasy world. It's how I cope with my withdrawal symptoms. ;)

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