(my hubs takes my daughter to school every morning and they hold hands on the way)


i drive past our old high school every day

it never fails to remind me of you

of us

some days i smile

some days i don't

i wonder if you ever think of me

of us

if you ever wish things could have turned out different than they did

because i do

i wish

don't get me wrong

my life is good

but i know it could've been better

with you

with me

/ / /

Lillyana grabs my hand as she does every morning on our drive to school

sometimes i think she can read my thoughts

when i smile

she smiles

when i'm sad

she squeezes my hand

rubs over my knuckles

says "i love you daddy"

i fight back the emotions

especially the conflicting ones

i love her more than life itself

but i still miss you

think about you

still wish

wonder if it will ever be different

or better

"i love you baby girl"

she opens the car door and walks into her school

her world

she takes my heart with her

every time

but only half my heart

because

the other half

i left with you

years ago