Chapter 2:Long days
Days go by, and everything seems to be going by slowly. Nothing changes. I arrive in Advanced Physics, and take my seat next to Edd. As usual we ignore one another unless it is absolutely unavoidable due to a partner project of sorts, and even then we quickly split the work and go back to the silence.
I search through my backpack trying to find a pencil and I can't seem to find one. I turn and tap Edd on the shoulder. "Excuse me. Do you have a pen or pencil I can borrow?" He quickly pulls out a pen from his pocket and hands it to me. "Thanks" I mumble. Class goes by as usual, note taking. When the bell rings I turn and give Edd his pen back. "Thank you Kevin" he says smiling then leaving. For the rest of the day the image of his smile is etched in my head. It was kinda cute…'wait, WHAT?! What am I thinking?' I shake my head.
These past few days I find myself hoping for a partner project, just to be able to speak with him, even if its only for a little. I find myself searching the hallways and cafeteria to catch small glimpses of him. I like girls, not guys. No. I can't have feelings for the dork. Its ridiculous, stupid.
At the end of the day I decide to go sit on the bleachers to try and get some fresh air to clear my mind by watching the football practice. I look over and see Double Dweeb walking over. He sits at the top corner and pulls out a book to read. I decide to walk over. I sit next to him but he continues to read.
"Hey Dork, can I ask you something?" I ask, looking down at my shoes. Edd sighs heavily and closes his book before turning to look at me. "Yes Kevin?" I look into his blue eyes, "why do you hate me?" His eyes widen in shock and I look back at the football players. "I don't hate you. I just thought that you did not like interacting with me." I smirk at his response. "Sure Double Dweeb." He checks his watch and stands. "Well I must be going anyways, I have a meeting to attend." I grab his wrist before he leaves and look at him again. "Meet me under the bleachers at 8, okay?" He blushes a deep red and I stand and walk past him to the parking lot. I go home to find it empty, once again. I go to my room and fall into bed. I look at the clock and its only 4:23. I decide to go to the convenience store and buy a pack of cigarettes. I don't know where to go now. I decide to pull out my phone and call Nazz.
"Hello?"
"Nazz, are you home?"
"Yeah, why? Is something wrong Kev?"
"I just don't have anywhere to go. Is Eddy there?"
"No. He's at practice. You can come over whenever you want."
I hang up and got to Nazz's house. Before I even knock she opens the door. She gives me a big hug before letting me in. I walk in and collapse on her couch.
"Nazz, I need advice."
"Ok Kev. What's up?" She walks over and sits on the couch next to me.
"Well, there's this person who has been on my mind lately. And im not sure how to tell them." Nazz sets her hand on my leg.
"How long have you known this person?"
"Well, practically all my life…" I start to twiddle my thumbs, I feel nervous.
"What do you want to tell them?"
"I have these feelings for them. I guess I've always had them, but recently they have come up stronger than before. I see them everyday and I just see more and more in them as time passes. I haven't been able to get them alone until today."
"Oh Kev!" Nazz throws her arms around me and kisses me. "I feel the same way about you! I've missed you so much and when you came back I had all these mixed feelings for you." I pull back and stand. My heart aches, this was a mistake.
"Nazz, no. It's not you I'm sorry." I turn quickly and run out the door, i start my bike and head to the school. I run under the bleachers and collapse onto my knees. Tears begin to stream. My phone rings and I pull it out. Its Nazz. I ignore the call. Its 6:58.
I lie down on the grass and feel myself drift off...
