A/N - I'M SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG GUYS. I HAVE TO ADMIT THAT I WAS KIND OF NERVOUS ABOUT THIS CHAPTER. THE FIRST CHAPTER GOT 28 REVIEWS! THAT'S THE MOST I'VE EVER GOTTEN FOR ONE CHAPTER AND I JUST WANT TO DO THIS STORY JUSTICE. I'D LIKE TO THANK GLEEK1990 FOR TELLING ME TO POST THIS, BECAUSE SHE WAS SURE IT'LL BE GREAT! SO THANK YOU! I HOPE YOU'RE RIGHT LOL ANYWAY HERE'S CHAPTER TWO!


Everything hurts. I can not believe what I just walked in on. The girl I love more than anything else in the world was just having sex with Noah! My brother! Then she has the nerve to tell me she loves me. How can she look me in the eye and say she loves me? I've done everything to make sure she felt safe in our relationship. I stopped talking to people she didn't like, I always reminded her that she's the only one for me, I assured her of my love and didn't ask for the same assurance or hers. Well that's not completely true, but I just wanted to know that my feelings weren't one sided. Is that too much to ask after six months of dating? Maybe I shouldn't of pushed her to tell me how she feels, but I didn't think she would get so mad that she would have sex with my brother.

My dear brother Noah. I don't even know how to describe the betrayal I feel from him. I'll admit that I knew he had feelings for Santana when I asked her out, but I thought he was over it by now. If he had told me that he still had feelings for her we could of talked about it. I'm not saying that I would of left Santana, but I would of tried my best to help my brother get over her. I would of done anything for Noah, because he's my brother and I love him, but I never thought he was capable of this. I never thought he would have sex with my girlfriend without even thinking how much it would hurt me. The sad part of this is I would still do anything for him. He'll always be my older brother.

I just don't know how I'll ever recover from this. I haven't talked to Puck or Santana since that day and it's only been two weeks. The hurt is still very much there and will probably be there for a long time. Especially since I live with Puck and see Santana at school every day. I know that I won't be able to avoid them forever. They've been trying to talk to me, but I can't bring myself to do that. What exactly do they expect from me anyway? I can't even look at them without wanting to burst into tears. I want to get mad. I want to yell at them and ask them how they could do this to me, but I can't. I'm not as mad as I am hurt.

I'm not saying that I'm not angry about this. In fact I'm very angry, but the hurt and betrayal seem to overpower my anger. Instead of yelling at them or even hitting them, I just ignore them and cry. How can two people who I love so much hurt me like this? Did they even think about me at all? How much this would hurt me? Or did they just not care at all how it would effect me. I guess that's it. They just didn't care. I would never even dream of hurting them like this. I thought they would do the same for me.

I've never felt so alone before. Whenever I had a problem I would always talk to Noah or Santana. I was considering talking to my mom, but I just couldn't. I couldn't bring myself to tell her that my brother had sex with my girlfriend while I was in the other room. My mom thinks the world of Noah and I couldn't tell her. No matter how badly I wanted to tell her that her perfect little boy isn't so perfect after all. I don't think I would be able to handle how much it would break her heart if she knew what he's done. So I decided for the sake of my mother, not for Noah, that I just can't tell her. I won't tell her.

Which makes the current situation I'm in extremely akward. I'm sitting down at the table trying to get through breakfast as a family with my mom and Noah. Something that use to be so easy is now so difficult. I can tell that my mom can sense some sort of tension between Noah and I, but she won't ask what's going on. She probably thinks we're just in the middle of some normal brother/sister feud and that it'll be over soon. Little does she know that this fight is far from over. It might never be over.

"I can't take this!" My mom shouts breaking the silence in the room. It certainly takes me by surprise, because mom usually doesn't shout at the table. It's one of her 'happy family rules' But then again I shouldn't be too surprised. My mom is just as dramatic as I am "What's wrong with you two?"

That's a very loaded question. There happens to be a lot of things wrong with us right now. What am I suppose to tell my mom though? That my brother and I aren't talking because he fucked my girlfriend? I can't do that. I don't want to do that. The less people who know about this the better. I've already had to answer to the whole glee club why glee's 'perfect couple' is no longer together. Those conversations were unpleasant and I don't get along with half of those people in there. This is my mother asking what's wrong. How can we sit here like a big happy family only to reveal to her that we're not?

"Nothings wrong, Mom." Noah answers before continuing to eat his pancakes. Nothings wrong? I have half a mind to tell mom what's going on right now! "Rachel's probably just on her period."

"How fucking dare you!" I shout jumping off of my seat

"Rachel!" My mom shouts before I could say another word "Watch your mouth."

"I'm sorry." I say when I realize what I just said. I never swear in front of my mother. Actually I almost never swear at all. Noah just made me so angry. Trying to act like he did nothing wrong. He's so lucky I don't tell my mom what happened right now

"Noah," My mom says in a stern voice "You should no better than to be insensitive about these kind of things." I roll my eyes at my mother's words. Noah being sensitive? If he has no problem sleeping with my girlfriend while I'm right down the hall then I doubt that he'll try to be sensitive about anything he talks about. Especially about me

"I'm sorry, Mommy." Noah apologizes with soft eyes. I hate when he does that! Every time he does that my mom's heart just melts and she just forgets whatever he did wrong. He could commit a crime and she'd forgive him in a heartbeat if he'd just apologize to her with those soft eyes. I know that, because she has

"It's not me you should be saying sorry to, baby." Mom says. Noah looks at me like a deer caught in headlights. He looks terrified. Like he's afraid to actually talk to me. He should feel that way anyway. We haven't talked in two weeks at all. Mostly because I have absolutely nothing to say to him

"I'm sorry, Rachel." Looking into his eyes I know that he's not talking about what he said. He's talking about what he did to me. He's talking about betraying me when he was one of the people that I trust the most. It almost breaks my heart when I see tears threatening to spill from his eyes. Almost. It only takes me a second to remind myself of what he's done before the anger starts to humid again

"Save it, Noah. Those soft eyes don't work on me after what you've done." I say before turning around to leave, but I can't because my mom grabs me by the wrist

"That's kind of harsh don't you think, Rachel?" She asks giving me a disappointing look. I hate when she gives me that look and she knows it. I don't want her to think I'm being this way with Noah for no reason, but I just can't tell her why we're fighting. It would completely break her heart

"I'm sorry." I apologize to my mom not Noah. I refuse to pretend that everything is ok when it's not. I might be a great actress, but I refuse to make an effort when my hearts broken. It's just not worth it

"Apologize to your brother, Rachel." My mom says crossing her arms. I'm about to refuse when Noah speaks up

"It's fine, Mom." He says before he stands up out if hos chair "She doesn't have to say anything. I love her enough to forgive her." That is so low! He loves me enough to forgive me? Did he love me enough to not have sex with my girlfriend! Who is this guy? Is he really my brother, because it sure doesn't feel like it.

"Ok." My mom nods "I'm off to work. I'll be working late tonight, so you guys are on tout own for dinner tonight. I love you guys." She says before kissing me and Noah them leaving out the door leaving my brother and I alone

"Rachel,"

"We're going to be late." I say before grabbing my stuff and leaving out the door. I just can't talk to him right now. I don't know if I'll ever be ready to talk to him.

I get to school and the first thing I see is Kurt and Mercedes waiting for me at my locker. I have to admit that I've never been so grateful for these two. They were the first ones I called after I caught Santana and Noah together. They listened to me while I talked and held me while I cried. It's been extremely hard, but it means a lot to know that I'm not going through this alone. I didn't realize how much Kurt and Mercedes cared about me until this happened. They're the best friends I've ever had

"Hey, Diva." Mercedes greets me as I approach them "How are you doing this morning?"

"Horrible." I answer honestly. There's really no point in lying. They can tell when somethings bothering me. Plus I really don't want to lie anyway. I need to talk to my friends about this

"What happened?" Kurt asked

"Another tension filled breakfast in the Puckerman household only this time it wasn't in complete silence." I start explaining "My mom basically freaked out and demanded to know why Noah and I aren't speaking. I just can't tell her what's going on."

"Why not?" Mercedes asks "It would be a great opportunity to show Shelby that Puck isn't the perfect little angle she thinks he is."

"I thought about that. It was actually the reason why I was going to tell her, but also the reason I couldn't. My. Mom thinks the world of Noah. If she was to find out what he did it would break her heart. I can't do that to her."

"You're a better person than I am." Kurt says "I would of told her without even thinking about how it would effect anyone else. Although I understand why you didn't tell her I still think you have a right to be a little selfish here. Someone has considering you brother and girlfriend didn't."

"Ex-girlfriend." Mercedes points out. It's still kind of weird to hear that. I never thought that Santana would be my ex-girlfriend. I thought her and I were going to be together forever. I also never thought she would cheat on me either though

"Can we just go to class now?" Kurt and Mercedes nod before the three of us walk towards our next class

This entire day went by really slowly. I've never been so thankful for a day to be over. I have three classes with Santana and it took every bit of strength in me to not burst into tears at just the sight of the girl who still holds my heart. I don't know how long it will take me to get my heart back, but I know it won't be anytime soon. I meant with all my heart when I told Santana I loved her. I've never loved someone the way that I love her. That only makes it hurt more to think about her and Noah together. The girl that I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with did this to me. The girl I would of done anything for. How does a heart heal from such a betrayal?

"Rachel!" I turn around to see Noah running towards me. I just ignore him and continue to walk down the hall and towards my car. I always thought that it was a waste for Noah and I to drive our own cars to school, but now I've never been more thankful that we do. Now I can just completely ignore him and drive home without worrying about Noah in the slightest. I'm not sure I would actually care if he had a ride home or not anyway.

"Stop ignoring me!" He shouts before grabbing my arm and dragging me into an empty classroom "I'm sorry! I am so sorry, Rachel."

"You slept with my girlfriend, Noah! The girl I love more than anything! Then this morning you have the nerve to tell Mom that everything's ok! When you know Damn well that it's not and may never be ok! What the hell were you even thinking when you slept with her?" I've never fought with my brother like this. He's always had my back since we were born which confuses me. Why would the person who's always looked out for me hurt me more than anyone else ever had?

"I thought you didn't deserve her." He sighs "I've always loved her and you knew that. You knew how I felt about her when you asked her out. You knew how much I loved her, but you went after her anyway." He's not completely wrong. I knew he had feelings for her, but I didn't know that he loved her. I was just so happy and so in love with her that I didn't think Noah would be so upset. I thought he would be over that crush right now

"That doesn't justify what you did, Noah!" I shout "I didn't even know that you still had feelings for her! You're with a different girl every weekend! I thought you were over her! I never did anything to hurt you! I went out with Santana because I love her! I would never do anything to hurt you like this!"

"I know that ok! I know that you would never do anything to hurt me! I'm not trying to justify my actions! I'm just trying to tell you how sorry I am. I'm really really sorry, Rach." I look at my brother and notice there's tears in his eyes. I really want to tell him not to cry, but I can't. I want to forgive him, but I can't. I want our relationship to be like it was before, but it can't. I'm not sure we'll ever be the same again

"I can't do this. You hurt me so bad, Noah. You're my big brother. You're suppose to have my back not stab me in the back. I love you, Noah. You're my big brother and I will always love you no matter what. But, I just caught you in bed with my girlfriend two weeks ago. I don't think I'll ever be able to trust you again." I sob and run out of the room before Noah can answer

I can't forgive him so easily, but I don't want to stay angry with him either. This is so unfair! Why is it up to me to do the right thing? Why can't I just stay mad without worrying about anyone else? Why do I care about Santana and Noah anyway? It would be so much easier if I could just hate them. If I didn't care about them then I wouldn't be running towards the bathroom in tears right now. I wouldn't of just busted through the bathroom door to find Santana on the floor crying and holding a pregnancy test. Wait! What?