BLUE MOON
Years ago, while I was still in Hogwarts, I never had really experienced love. All my time was spent worrying about Voldemort and how I should defeat him. Year after year, it became the sole purpose of my being. I was in love with this beauty. My best friend's little sister but unfortunately, I had to go on and save the world. Who else was going to do it? So, hesitantly, we broke up but, I was still madly in love with her.
The night before I left, to go after Voldemort, my friends Ron, Hermione, Luna and Neville threw a get together at the Weasley's house. Ginny was the life of the party and I noticed Neville had his eyes on her. I felt uneasy so I stepped outside for some fresh air.
I stood outside for awhile trying to collect my thoughts. I soon realized that I wasn't alone. Luna had come out as well. Her dreamy, large eyes gazed at me.
"Hello Harry," she said.
"Hello Luna," I replied back.
"Is something the matter?" she asked.
"No, nothing," I said, my hand digging deep into my pockets.
"Are you scared?" she asked.
"Not really. She can go ahead and be with him," I replied absent-mindedly.
"What?" her voice suddenly sounding confused. I realized that she wasn't talking about Ginny.
"For what?" I replied back, trying to cover up my stupidity.
"Fighting Voldemort," she said.
"No, I knew I was destined to fight him," I said.
Suddenly, a soft melody of song came from the house.
Blue Moon….
You saw me standing alone.
Without a dream in my heart.
Without a love of my own.
"Oh! This is my favorite song," Luna said, with her eyes beaming at mine.
She started to sing along. Let me tell you, my friend, you would have never thought Luna Lovegood was much of a singer but her voice entranced me.
"Look up, Harry," she stopped in a middle of a sentence. She pointed up at the night sky. This was a coincidence because there was a moon.
She said serenely, "Harry, they say that when you gaze up at a blue moon with someone, you're destined to love them."
That soon got me jumpy. I looked up and stare at her. She had a funny look on her face. I needed to get away. There was something about her eyes that made me get an odd feeling in my stomach.
"It's getting pretty cold out here. We ought to go back inside," I said abruptly, and then I walked back inside.
After that one night, my adventure began. I never saw them again until the following year. And it was lonely being on your own for an entire year. I missed Ginny loads. I wondered day and night if she was thinking about me or if she still loved me.
Days passed and then I finally dueled with Voldemort. As I recalled when beams of light shot out of my wand, I remember a howl and I ended up on the floor, knocked out cold. When I woke up, I was in St.Mungoes Hospital. Beside me on the table was an edition of the Daily Prophet. I defeated him. I finally defeated Voldemort.
All the young nurses were all kind to me. They brought me chocolates from the shop and they even gave me books to read. They took great care of me. Especially one. To my shock, Luna was now a nurse in St.Mungoes. She looked so much different than last time I saw her. It was hard to believe what one year could do to a person. I was stuck in the hospital for quite some time and she was my company. As the days progressed I grew attached to her. Then one night, things changed.
I sat with her in the common room. She was doing a night shift and the floor was empty. We talked about the usual and the unusual. Then things suddenly lead back to Ginny.
"Do you still love her?" she asked. Her curiosity showed on her face. The arch of her eyebrow and the tone of question in her voice.
"Ginny? I haven't seen her. I don't think I do," I replied back.
"The first loves don't count, you know. It's the love that you have later on that does. The way I see it, love matures," Luna commented.
I could see where she was getting at. I studied her face as she spoke. She suddenly looked so lovely. And being with her was lovely. I took her hand and kissed it. She stopped talking. I kissed her around her wrist. Then her lips. One thing led to another and we made love on the couch of the common room.
The next day one of the nurses came by to tell me that I had visitors. I wondered who it could be, and there by the door way was Ron, Hermione and Ginny. I hopped off my bed and nearly tackled them all down. I was very excited to see them. Ron congratulated me and Hermione couldn't stop saying how much she and Ron missed me. Ginny, on the other hand stood there and smiled. She waited for her turn to talk with me.
"Harry, I've missed you so much," Ginny said.
I was so relieved to hear this. I was afraid she forgot about me.
"I've tried writing to you every day but I was not able to get a hold of you. We can start new now, Gin. Like how things were back then," I said excitedly.
Then I saw a frown on the corners of her mouth.
"Oh….Oh Harry, I'm terribly sorry but….there's someone else…" she replied.
I felt my heart stop. One year can REALLY change a person. A started to walk away from me by I grabbed her by the shoulders.
"Who Ginny? Who?" I asked frantically.
"Neville," she simply said.
I felt my heart shatter on the floor. After the visit was over, Luna stopped by with some unexpected news.
"Harry….I'm...I'm pregnant," she said.
"What?" I blurted out.
"I'm pregnant," she said again.
"How, Luna? It was only one night," I said, dumbfounded by this piece of information.
I didn't know what to do. When I left the hospital I stayed at Ron's for awhile. Hermione suggested that I marry her. I did not want to. I was still in love with Ginny. Ron felt sorry for me and said that he would pay for all the wedding expenses.
Within one week, I was married to Luna. We bought a one-bedroom house in the country. It was surrounded by trees and flowers. The sun would always shine down on us in the mornings. Days passed and Luna's condition grew worse. She began to throw up and bleed a lot. But she was still the same Luna. I recalled one night.
Blue Moon….
You saw me standing alone.
Without a dream in my heart.
Without a love of my own
The song came flooding out from our neighbor's house. Luna watched from the window as our neighbor danced by herself with her arms up high.
"Peculiar, what's going on with her? Has she gone mental?" I asked.
"No, she's just a romantic. It looks like she wants love," Luna replied quietly. She began to hum along to the song.
"Do you want to dance with me, Harry?" she asked, her eyes sparkling at me. Its moments like this that her eyes always sparkle.
But I replied, "No, it's getting late. We need to go to bed."
I dreamt about Ginny. She was still on my mind and Luna was beginning to see that.
When we began to attend The Order's weekly meetings, I was so hung up with Ginny that I envisioned seeing her everywhere I went. One time Luna and I were leaving and I saw a lady with long scarlet hair.
I called out, "Ginny!"
The woman turned around.
"It's not her," Luna replied sadly, and walked away from me.
I really screwed up.
Then the night came when the baby was born. You could hear Luna's cries of pain echo in the hallways. The nurse came in and out of the room, dumping bowls of mixed water and blood out into the creek. It was so loud that I, myself, began to feel Luna's pain. When the loudest cry burst into the air, you could hear an infant's cry as well. I stood by the door way and watched Luna gasping for air. I sat beside her on the bed and held the baby in my arms.
"What should we name him?" she asked.
"James," replied right away. I wanted to honor my parents. And if I had a girl, I'd name her Lily.
That was the night James came into my life.
Things got worse between Luna and I. I didn't treat her as I should've. I could see Luna grow sad each day. I caught her standing in the rain with James in her arms. I ran outside to see if she had lost her mind.
"Take him, he's yours," she said, handing James over to me.
"Luna, come back inside you might get sick and catch pneumonia," I replied.
"One minute," she said.
I couldn't tell whether or not it was the rain, but I saw droplets trickled down her cheeks. Later that evening I woke up in the middle of the night. I looked beside me to see an empty space.
"Luna?" I said.
"Luna,"
I got up.
"Luna? Where are you?" I called out, walking into the living room. On the bare table, there was a single white envelope entitled, "Harry"
My heart quickened as I held the envelope in my hands. I opened it.
Dearest Harry,
First and foremost, I want to say that I love you. But I know that you could never return that same love to me. I was glad to be your wife. I was happy. I was glad to live in the same house with you. To be in the same bed with you. Just to be with you in general. But I don't think you enjoyed my company at all and I think you would rather have it Ginny than me. I could tell. One time, you called out her name in your sleep. I hoped it would be my name you'd be calling but it was someone else. This hurt me. So I'm leaving you to start a new life. I'm leaving you our wonderful son, so that you will remember me. Raise him well.
Love,
Luna
END OF CHAPTER 1
