It was strange seeing my best friend this involved in my own mess, I had fallen pregnant; couldn't remember who the father was and she was still here by my side reassuring and supporting me as the doctor ran a couple of blood tests. I looked at Jane and saw for the first time a glimpse of something I had never really seen her express toward me before and I couldn't quite put my finger on it. For the longest time I had had a crush on Jane Clementine Rizzoli; I mean she was the greatest thing that ever happened to me, she supported me, loved me and listened to my craziness, didn't accuse me of anything and when the going really got tough she was there for me, I'd never had that before. Not from my mother or father, my bio-mum or bio-dad, nor from ex-boyfriends or old friends, she was one of a kind and that was just one of the many reasons why I loved my best friend. A pair of strong reassuring hands clenched mine and brought me out of my resolve, I smiled and looked at the doctor who had returned
"Well it looks as if you are indeed pregnant. Now if you want us to we can do an ultra sound now or wait until your three month mark when you reach the beginning of your second trimester" she said and I looked at Jane searching for an answer, she smiled and squeezed my hands
"She would love to look at the ultra sound of her baby" Jane said and I nodded my head vigorously.
When the cool gel hit my stomach I gasped a little and then smiled at Jane before looking at the screen, where in just a few short moments I would see my baby for the very first time. I gasped when the doctor pointed out the little peanut sized shape on the screen and I beamed with pride
"Well there's your baby, now at this stage we can't actually tell you the gender but we can listen to baby's heart beat, would you like that?" the doctor asked and I nodded my head vigorously
"Alright then here you go" she said and the little heart beat flooded through the room, and the tears flooded down my face
"I can't believe it, my baby sounds healthy" I gasped and Jane nodded letting a little chuckle escape.
"Alright well everything looks great and on track, I would like to see you in a fortnight" the doctor said and I nodded my head
"Of course" I said as I cleaned my stomach of the gel and repositioned my clothes
"Alright, thank you doctor" I said shaking the doctors hand and grabbing my gear before leaving the room with Jane.
In the car on the way home I asked
"Jane will you come with me to my next ultra sound?" she looked at me from where she sat driving the car and she smiled
"I would love to come, if you want me there" she answered and I sat trying to work out her meaning. Could it be that she liked me too? In the same way I liked her? Was it possible that she would give up swooning over Casey and Gabrielle and fall in love with me instead? Or was she just doing this because I was her best friend and she felt sorry for me?
"Maura?" Jane asked and I looked at her
"What was that Jane?" I asked shaking myself and she smiled that adorably annoying half smile that meant she knew what I hadn't been paying attention to what she said, and I though I saw her expression turn to one of hurt, I couldn't be sure as she was as quick as always to cover it, smiling at me as she asked
"I asked if you were hungry and if so where would you like to eat?"
"Anywhere, I don't mind" I answered reaching out to pat her knee
"Ok how about the Dirty Robber?" she asked and I nodded
"Ok lets go there" I said and she nodded parking the car. I looked around I hadn't noticed that we were already at the Dirty Robber, man this was slightly embarrassing.
Walking into the building we saw that it was almost deserted, so we made our way over to one of the booths and sat down. I sat opposite Jane and she smiled ordering a burger and fries, I ordered my usual leafy green salad with an assortment of vegetables; Jane smirked as she noticed that I had also ordered an orange juice instead off my usual cappuccino.
"What caffeine is bad for the babies development, as is a lot of other things" I said matter of factly and she just shook her head.
We sat in silence for a while before she frowned as her phone vibrated, after sending a quick message to whoever it was, she slammed her phone down on to the table and looked around the room trying desperately to avoid the eye contact.
"What is it Jane?" I asked reaching out to take her hand put she pulled her hands away from mine and I frowned, she never did that not even when we were at the station, so I tried a different tactic one that I was sure would work
"Janey please?" I asked, it took a couple of minutes more before she acknowledged that I'd spoken and she said
"I don't want to dump on you Maur, this is a happy day for you we should be celebrating not talking about this" I looked at her confused, I had no idea what "this" was so how would I know if I would dislike this conversation. However she was my best friend and I loved her so whatever happened to her I would support her as much as it pained me.
"Casey's in town" she whispered and I frowned
"Why is that a bad thing? You've been waiting for him to return from his last tour haven't you?" I asked and she nodded her face falling, pain in her eyes and a haunted expression on her face.
"The last time we talked properly Maur, was about eight months ago. After I lost the baby, and I jumped off the bridge and almost drowned" she explained and I nodded, I guess it made a little more sense as to why she wasn't leaving me here alone by myself.
"When I told him that I had lost the baby he got so grumpy with me and himself; I just - I didn't want to talk to him, I ignored his text messages and his Skype calls I even got Korsak to get operations to block his calls. I just I couldn't face him and I don't think I can now" she told me tears now falling freely down her face
"Why didn't you tell me any of this?" I asked and she shrugged
"I don't know, I guess I just wanted to forget about it. About everything, and that meant dealing with the pain in my own way" she told me and I reached for her hands, squeezing them tightly as she looked at me unsure of where to go from here and I smiled kindly
"Jane, you know I'm always her for you, no matter what" I said and she nodded
"I know Maur, and I'm sorry I didn't tell you. It's just I had no clue how to tell you or how to bring it up. Apart from the fact that it has been a really busy year and apart from Christmas this is the first break I've had since returning to work, I just want to spend it with you and maybe even Ma" she said and I smirked, things must be bad if she was wanting to voluntarily spend time with her mum.
When our plates were empty and our bellies full, we made our way back out to the car and Jane drove back to her apartment so she could grab some of her things, since I had offered for her to stay in my spare bedroom until she was ready to head home. She grabbed Jo Friday and even her tortoise William. Walking through the front door of my house an hour later I made my way over to the couch, Jane had headed to the spare bedroom to put her things in there, Jo Friday had leapt up next to me on my right side and when Jane made her way back downstairs she sat on my left hand side, turning on the TV and grabbing the blanket off the back of the couch.
A/N: Hey guys, I really hope this is a good chapter and you like it :D I loved reading your reviews from last chapter and I would really like to hear more from you :D So please review and tell me what you think!
