Heyy! Sorry it's been a while since I've updated, but school has been eating me up! Lol and there were some questions about who was who…So here it goes:
Who's Kenny?
He's one of Bella's Best friends. I wont tell you anything more…lol You'll just have to read on…
Q. Who's Doggy?
A. He's Bella's Dog…I know its kinda a weird name,… but you'll find out later why he called that lol
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I sped up in the lonely street every few minutes checking the rearview mirrors for the police. I felt wretched. I was late picking up Maggie again. 3 days in a row. I screamed in frustration as the light turn red, right in front of me.
I glared at the red light my vision becoming blurred my tears. I hated doing this. I felt like she, my baby, though I was abandoning her…just like he did. I finally cracked. I rested my head against the steering wheel and let the sobs take over my body. I don't know how long I sat there. Minutes? Hours? Decades even? But I was pulled out of my blank mind by the rude roar of a car honking behind me. I lifted my head and wiped away my tears with trembling hands and started driving towards the school.
I hurriedly parked the car in the parking lot, narrowly missing the Cadillac next to me. I jogged as best as I could in the heels and when I got to the little modern yet homey looking classroom, I hesitantly opened the door.
Maggie sat down in the book area on one of the teeny tiny chairs, her shining black hair gleaming in the sunlight. Becky was rubbing her back unaware of my presence. I slowly walked toward them and said, "Mag?"
I heard her sniffling and Becky graced a tired smile and slowly let go of Maggie and walked toward me.
I watched her approach me slightly frightened, embarrassed, and jealous that she got to spend all day w/ my daughter while I had to go out to work not being able to see my Maggie til school was over.
She placed her small hand onto my forearm and led me outside by the door.
"Hello Bella." She said formally.
"Hello Becky." I replied back stiffly.
We stared at each other none of us moving. This is what bothered me about , She had the biggest mood swings around adults. Oh never ever around he children of course, she was like some sort of goddess to them, but to all the other parents she acted.... different. She reminded me of an animal. I wasn't entirely sure which one it was, but it definatly acted nice on the outside, but in the inside, had the mind of the devil. She studied me in with her green eyes as I did to her.
Today she was wearing a pink floral shirt with blue jeans, unlike the long hippie skirts she usually wore. She had this awkward fascination with cats too. Her desk was covered with pictures and statues of them. Some people collect cute teddy bears and some collect awkward looking cat statues. Oh well. What ever makes her happy..
Her face turned into a deep frown, which she quickly covered up with a concerned look.
"Bella I'm a bit worried about Maggie, she didn't eat or talk today at all. Do you have any idea why that would be?"
I stared at her, she knew why. She just wanted me to say it aloud, maybe turn it into some juicy gossip for the tabloids to eat up.
"Yes I do," I muttered. "But this is probably just a phase we'll get through it, Beck. I'm sure of it." I childishly used the name she hated the most, Beck, but she aggravated me so much! Her reaction to it was satisfying too.
"I'm sure you will." She smiled pleasantly, obviously not believing it, and sharply turned around and went to the main hall, her beads clinking together.
I walked into the room to see Maggie looking out the window.
"You did I again." She said in her quiet voice,
" I'm sorry honey. I really tried to make it in time, but I went to Pamela's today to talk to her about work and I left with enough time to pick you up, but there was a big accident involving a huge truck and 4 other little ones, so the freeway was a mess. I'm sorry baby."
I leaned in to bury my face in her hair, but she pulled away slowly as if unwillingly. "But you promised." She murmured still not facing me. A jolt of pain ran through me, she sounded like my 18 year old self….
"I know. I'm sorry. If I could go back in time I'd change what happened today, but I can't. Believe me, I'd try with all my mite, just to make you happy" I though helplessly as Edwards face flashed through my head.
Unable to take it anymore I grabbed Maggie and hugged her with a all my strength and loved the fact that she tried to hug me back with as much strength as I did. I smiled.
"You know what? Tomorrow I have the day off and after school I'll pick you up on time and we'll go to the park and have a picnic and then we'll even go to Build a Bear!" I said with a grin.
"Really?" she said looking at me with her big dark blue eyes.
"Yes really." I said.
She studied me for a moment as I crouched perfectly still hoping she'd see the truth and finally said, "Kay" She smiled and skipped to go find her stuff in the cubby room. I looked around the classroom and saw her artwork and smiled. Hers stood out the most using the most realistic colors and coloring inside the lines, while the others used blazingly bright, effulgent colors and looked hurried, but still all looked amazing.
I turned as I heard her shoes clattering on the floor.
"Do you have everything?"
"Yep", she grinned, her 2 front teeth missing making her look even younger.
I grabbed her stuff and took a hold of her small hand and walked out to the parking lot.
I opened her door and buckled her into the safe guard seat and placed her stuff into the trunk of my silver Lexus. I backed out into the street and looked at her from the rear view mirror. "How does ice cream sound Mag?"
"Yaaay!" she squealed. I laughed she was exactly like her father; always so full of life and energy. It made sense though; I mean he had been a dance and gym instructor. I let a small chagrinned smile grace my face as I the memory came back to me.
A few months after Edward left. I guess a word that could sum me up was…chaotic. I had been on the borderline of severe anorexia and insomnia, when Charlie had enough, and had Renee come to Forks and bring me to Florida. I threw an amazing fit, no more like a tantrum, or like all hell broke loose as Charlie like to say it. I ended up leaving though, but more for the reason that it would please Renee and Charlie. I remember having an epiphany that everything would be different at my stay in Florida, and boy was I right.
After my first month in Florida I showed signs of 'improvement'. I ate, and sometimes even talked. The only thing that had not improved much at all was my lack of sleep. I woke up every night screaming, that awful day re-running in every corner of my sleep. Almost like Freddy Crooger. Only I woke up while I hoped I had died like in the movies, just to take the pain away.
I shuddered as the memory brought back memories that threatened to rip open the wounds of my heart with great ferocity. Gosh after these past months I thought I was over it. Done with him. I was just fooling myself.
Well Renee had home schooled me for the first and a half-month, before she was satisfied at my improvement, hell even I was satisfied, and sent me tothe public school nearby.
I went to school and amazingly became pretty popular among some people. Of course the school had its own Mike Newton's and Jessica Stanley's, so I managed to avoid them most of the time, I happily noticed that the people in Florida didn't make such a fuss as they did in Forks. Probably because there were so many people there.
One day Renee had the insane urge to learn the tango. Yup that's it tango. I had laughed at her at first trying to convince myself she had not gone loony, but the week after that I found myself in a studio, with Chanel death traps strapped onto my feet. Alice would have been proud. I was partnered with Maggie's father, Calvin, who was pretty good at tango since he was after all the dance instructor, Sam's, nephew. We became friends and eventually more. We did so much together, Disneyworld, the beach, clubs…He was like my best friend, but had the potential to be more.
One night during Spring Break in Cancun, Calvin and I had a little bit to much Vodka, saying if we were gonna have one night only when we drank alchohol we better make it count right? Well we lived up to that thought, and woke up next to each other the next morning nude.
Let's just say we were both full of plenty of surprise to fill up a concert full of people. And my scream that morning probably did wake up a concert full of people. We both brushed it away though, musing at how at least it happened with someone we both knew and not some drunk hairy arrogant jerk. Calvin laughed when I told him that, laughing at my fear of hairy men.
We went on w/ life and eventually just stayed best friends.
I snapped out History Heaven when I heard Maggie screaming out, "Mommy! You just passed Ben and Jerry's!"
I screeched to a halt and did a U-turn to Ice Cream land. "Sorry, baby, I wasn't really paying attention. You know me."
"Well come on mommy! I'm so hungry I could eat a horse!" she giggled.
"Ha ha. O.K. honey let's go."
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