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''I mustn't get ill. I mustn't get ill..'' Haruhi repeated in her head, attempting to make the ill feeling she felt creeping up her throat to leave, as she was in class about to take a exam. Feeling a hand lightly touch her shoulder caused her train of thought to be quickly interpreted.
''Are you okay? It seemed as if your were just about to get ill...'' Her fellow classmate asked with a anxious expression.
Feeling her stomach begin to turn and feeling more nauseous by the second, she shook her head rapidly before practically jumping off her seat to rush to the nearest by restroom.
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Having to leave university early due to becoming ill, Haruhi was forced to go back home. Walking through the street's she felt so useless. So useless and stupid. If she couldn't even take her exam while only 6 weeks pregnant, how would she every manage with a tiny needy baby crying? ''Tiny little baby, crying in the middle of the night...'' She harshly whispered under her breath. Feeling her palms beginning to get sweaty while thinking more and more of the subject she decided to drop the subject for a while to calm herself.
Just as she was about to arrive home, she heard a familiar voice.
''Haruhi?'' She heard before two arms wrapped around her to give her a hug. Turning around to see who it was, she realized it was Mei.
''I haven't seen you since you left for your honeymoon!'' Haruhi replied to Mei's happy gesture with a light smile and invited her over in which she gladly accepted.
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After having talked with Mei for a bit over a hour, Haruhi had in all pretty much forgotten all her worries and even about her pregnancy. Though, when looking through her past calls on her cellphone and seeing her call to the doctor, she was brought harshly back to reality in which even Mei took notice.
''What happened between you and Tamaki that your so anxious?'' She asked jokingly before biting into a big piece of cake.
''W-What do you mean...?'' She asked nervously being afraid she would figure out the true reason. It had just been just two days since she herself had received the news, and she wasn't ready for others to know yet.
Mei's eyes turned wide when seeing Haruhi's reaction. ''Wait, is there really actually something going on between you?'' As she said this, a somewhat teasey smile appeared on her face.
Her sudden gestures caused Haruhi to blush brightly, ''No! Not all!'' She yelled embarrassed waving her arms in a defensive matter.
''Is that so?'' Mei asked. Seeing how Haruhi didn't want to talk about it, she drooped the subject to gain a big sigh from Haruhi.
Putting her hands in her lap she looked down, ''Can, can you promise not to tell Tamaki?'' Her voice beginning to shake.
Mei kept a serious stare to hear what Haruhi was about to tell her.
''I'm preg-'' Haruhi take a deep breath and continued, ''I'm going to become a mother.''
''Like your... pregnant?'' She asked and received a steady, slow nod from Haruhi.
Hearing how Haruhi was now pregnant, she herself needed a moment for herself. Getting up she let out a little laugh to let out the tension.
''But like haven't you two only been married for like 5 months? Mei said in a loud voice as she sat right back down next to Haruhi causing Haruhi to get anxious again.
Putting her head down she bit her lip before replying to Mei's question, ''4 months actually.''
Seeing Haruhi's nervousness, Mei became serious again and as this happen, the room grew quiet as Haruhi tried to keep herself calm and as Mei thought of what should be said next.
''Are... you not happy about this...?''' Mei asked in a somewhat soft voice, attempting to be sympathetic and help Haruhi feel better about the situation.
Feeling as her heartbeat raised she took a second before answering the question, ''No.'' She began, and feeling her body become cold and weak again her fingers began shaking but she did her best and continued on, ''I'm still in university and have years to go but now a baby in the picture? How will I take care of a 7 week old baby crying in the middle of the night and study for exams?''
Mei held a sad expression as she heard that from her friend and gave Haruhi a gloom expression, ''You wouldn't so happen to be thinking...'' Her voice trailed off and gave herself a second to continue on. ''Abortion.'' she whispered.
''Abortion?'' Haruhi asked with her head down taping her fingers one by one on her lap, trying to get rid of the lump she felt growing in her throat. ''Of course not.'' She said in a serious tone looking up at Mei, who sat back a bit in defensive. ''I respect this child and will do whatever I have to to keep this child healthy through out the pregnancy but it's just that...''' Feeling the lump in her throat get bigger, she began to make sobbing noise's as she spoke, ''It's just that I loved my mother so much but then she grew ill and passed away so I decided I wanted to be a lawyer like her and so, I worked hard. I studied hard and got a scholarship to a famous high school, even studied in america for a year, and got into a good university for this one dream.'' Taking a deep breath and exhaling a sob she went on, ''Now I'm going to have a baby and this huge dream I've been working so hard for will have to be put on hold for such a long time.'' Felling tears rolling down her cheeks and practically choking on her sobs, she gained a puzzled stare from Mei. Feeling ashamed of what she was about to say she clenched her right hand's fingers onto her tea cups handle and looking down she used her left hand and started taping her left hand's finger finger slowly one by one on her lap. ''I know this is incredibly mean for me to say but it would have been better if...'' she decided to say nothing as she put her cold hand on her face.
''If what?'' Mei asked curiously and suddenly causing Haruhi to let out another sigh.
''It's getting late and Tamaki is suppose to be coming home...'' Haruhi said, giving Mei the hint she wanted her to leave.
Giving her a big sigh Mei got up and before leaving out the door she yelled, ''Call me when he gets the news!''
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Laying her head against her and husbands bedroom wall she closed her hazel eyes gently as she roughly patted her stomach with her left hand. ''This child...''' She whispered heavily still patting at the flat stomach. ''It's still months away before it's due to be born but look at all the stress It's caused me at only 6 weeks. Perhaps It would have...'' Feeling her eyelids begin to close on there own she did her best to finish her sentence, ''Even if this is cruel to say, It would have been better never conceived...'' She whispered while putting her left arm back to her side and slowly sliding her head to side trying to find a more comfortable position.
''Eh Haruhi?'' A loud confused Tamaki asked causing her to quickly stand up. Laughing he attempted to lean in and kiss her but just as he was about to kiss her cheek, she stood up embarrassed and feeling as her face turned red out of embarrassment she covered her face quickly. ''Haruhi?'' Tamaki began to ask seriously. ''What's wrong?'' Haruhi shook her head and as he attempted to touch her she moved away a bit causing him to ask again. ''Haruhi? Why are you not wanting to talk to me? Haruhi answer me!'' His yells became louder and he touches her neck lightly causing her to jump a little and turn to look at him.
''Why didn't you wanna talk to me?''
After getting over her embarrassment and remembering that she had just told Mei the big news, she had decided it was also the appropriate time to tell her husband the news. Sighing a tiny sigh she began to try and do her best to give him to news.
''It's just that, uhm you see...''' Haruhi realized looking away a bit from Tamaki might help the situation a bit as she felt herself getting even more anxious and nervous when looking at him straight in the eye. Though that was a bit of a hard task considering whenever she would attempt to look away just a bit away, her face would be turned by Tamaki's hand to look back.
''Just tell me what's wrong!'' Tamaki yelled with worry in his voice. ''Did someone hurt you, did someone steal something from you, did someone say something to you?'' He gasped and began to bite his index's finger nails nervously as he thought of all of horrible possibilities that could have happened to her.
As Tamaki rambled on the familiar nauseous feeling began to take over Haruhi's body once again. Knowing she wouldn't be able to hold it in she panicky covered her mouth and rushed past Tamaki to run to the bedroom bathroom.
''Haruhi wait! Where are you going?'' Tamaki quickly asked grabbing the back of her shirt. Haruhi rushing to the restroom pushed him away harshly and continued to rush to the bathroom that was attached right next to the master bedroom before it was too late.
Running after her he could begin to hear the reason she rushed to the bathroom and walking in he found his wife with her head over the toilet. She looked up at her husband with wide eyes, ''Why did you come in here?'' She asked annoyed.
''Because I care for you!'' Tamaki said, his voice sounding weak and soft as he felt somewhat hurt at his wife's annoyance toward him.
''I didn't say you could come in!'' She snapped and gave her husband a somewhat pouty expression. Ignoring his wife's yells he laid next to her and gave her a small smile. Wanting to get it over with and wanting to avoid all of Tamaki's up-coming questions she deiced she had no choice but to tell the news at that very moment. Feeling incredibly anxious and feeling her heartbeat race once again she took a long deep breath and closed her eyes tightly.
''Tamaki, I'm pregnant.'' She said and looked up at her husband. Not knowing what to say next she just looked at her husband and waited for a response from him. Her big hazel eyes filled with nervousness and fear, her hands so cold they began to fell numb, her breath becoming heavier and colder, her shoulders becoming tense as she waited for his answer.
Grabbing his wife's hand he hugged her tightly next to himself, ''We're having a baby!'' He yelled in the most cheerful loudest voice she could imagine. Looking at her blank face with a huge smile he kissed her frigidly lips. And putting his hand on her belly he began to stroke it lovingly. ''Isn't this great, Haruhi?'' His eyes were gleaming, his face with a wide happy smile, his whole body felt warm. He was so happy. His wife whom he loved so much was carrying his child in her. Their child. How could he not be happy?
Seeing how happy he was despite that she herself really was not happy at all she didn't want to ruin his happy mode and simply nodded and agreed to every thing he said.
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This is like the quickest update ever, huh?
Ugh this chapter was hard to write because I was having trouble adding details. Choppy writing = X_X
Well review and hopefully this wasn't too terrible.
I'm so happy I got two reviews for chapter one so please keep reviewing!
