Chapter two- doors and windows


And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Fix You - Coldplay


Classy, elegant, refined, and sophisticated.

Those were the words that one could use to describe Professor James Harold Potter; the youngest professor at Hogwarts. Every single female in the castle thought so, there was no denying that he was a charming young man, but he seemed quite oblivious to it all. He made the youngest students blush uncontrollably; he smiled and said that he was proud of them after they had managed to perform a jinx or spell that they had been struggling with for a couple of days. The oldest ones try their best flirting techniques in vain, as they turned in their essays with splashes of their perfume on it, trying to put on their make up perfectly every morning before his class, undoing one more button on their shirt and hoping that he might notice them as more than just a silly student.

He walked from hall to hall as if he owned the place, his steps always confident, parting the crowds as he walked through the mobs of students trying to get to class. His black dress shoes made little sound as he walked down the corridor, his hands inside the pockets of his black slacks and the sleeves of his white button up were pushed up to his elbows. The teacher's lounge always seemed so far away from his classroom that was located three floors above it, maybe he should have just stayed in his classroom for the rest of the day. What was the difference between that and the teacher's lounge anyway? People, there will be people there. Yes, it was a good idea to go to the teacher's lounge; he was losing his mind already.

The bell rang signaling the end of the break, the halls were all empty now, with the exception of few students who ran to class since they were late for one reason or another. Soon the only sound he could hear were his own steps on the stone floor of the hall and some distant talking could be heard from down the hall, where he knew McGonagall's class was located. As he turned around the corner he bumped into a student that was running, the girl dropped her bag and muttered apologies with a voice that sounded thick with tears. He looked up and saw that it was Lily, but she had apparently not noticed it was him who she had run into.

They had both been pretty much ignored each other since "the incident" as he liked to call it, it was awkward enough that they had to see each other every day for class without talking to each other. She even stopped being late to class in order to not get another detention and be alone with him.

But now, that didn't matter. She looked as if she had been crying; her face was as red as her hair, her eyes were puffy and full of tears that she tried to wipe in vain, and the little make up that she wore was all over her cheeks now. She looked awful. She was still a really pretty girl, but at this moment she looked like she would rather jump off of the astronomy tower than to accept his compliments.

"Miss Evans, is something wrong?" Wow, don't I have a wonderful way with words… Of course something is wrong! She is crying you moron!

"Yes, yes I'm fine- nothing is wrong," Lies, not even SHE believes that.

"Are you sure?" he asked again, a little pushier this time.

"Yes, you can leave now Ja- I mean, Professor Potter. Everything is fine." She said, wiping her eyes with her sleeve and giving him a fake smile that looked more like a grimace than an actual smile.

"I'm sorry, but it doesn't seem like it, Lily," he finally used her name as he noticed a letter in her hands, "Are those bad news from home? Anything happened with your family?"

"No- it's Severus, he- oh god!" Lily looked down at the letter and her face fell again, this time not being able to cover it up and keep her act together as she started to cry again.

James felt rather awkward, he was not good with crying ladies, Remus was the one that was good at things like this, but seeing her cry like that broke his heart. He put an arm around her shoulder and led her into a classroom that he knew was empty at the time, looking the door and casting a silencing charm as well. She kept crying for a good minute or two, the tears flowing freely down her face as she tried to wipe them away. He pulled out a handkerchief from his pocket and gave it to her. Lily wiped her face with it until she felt that there were no more tears left and tried her best to compose herself in front of him, not liking the fact that someone had seen her cry.

"Severus sent me a letter this morning, it said-" New tears started to pour from her eyes again; "it said that he had met someone else. Someone older and that had more freedom than I do. He's getting married this Saturday, James! That's tomorrow! That bastard has been engaged for five months now! Five disgusting months! I have been with him for two years, and he barely had the nerve to tell me, a day before his wedding! I gave him everything! I trusted him when everyone told me not to, I stopped talking to my friends just to keep him happy… and even after that, he has the nerve to do this to me! Why would he do this to me? I have been his best friend for eight years and this is how he repays me?! Here I was, dying of guilt at what happened three weeks ago, when he has been doing that to me for god knows how long!"

Tears were falling freely from her eyes as she pulled her hair back, looking agitated, as if she was trying to make up her mind about something.

He didn't know what to say; in a way he felt glad that Snape wasn't around her any longer, but his heart broke at seeing her in the state that she was, crying over someone who was not even good enough to lick the dirt off her shoes. James decided that honesty was the best way to go in this situation.

"Look, I'm sorry to hear that he did that to you, Lily. You're a great girl, you deserve someone who can love and cherish you for how special you are. Someone who will be honest to you; a guy who will put your feelings and needs first instead of his. Snape was a lying scumbag; he doesn't deserve any of the tears coming out of your eyes. Yes, I know it hurts right now, because I had my heart broken before. I've been lied to, betrayed, treated like dirt. It hurts a lot at first, but with time, you will come to realize that this could have been the best thing to happen to you. Life is funny that way, when you think that all the doors have been closed, you can always find a window to open. It sure as hell won't be easy to forget about him, and it won't happen overnight. But with time, your heart will be healed. You will start smiling again, and stop thinking about him as often as you usually did before. Before you even know it he will be nothing but a memory to you. You will get better. I promise."

Lily looked up to him, her eyes big and shiny, still full of tears, her bottom lip quivering and her face still flushed. James didn't know what kind of effect his speech might have on her, or what she would do, but the next thing she did was not what he expected her to do.

She pulled his face towards hers and started kissing him in a very passionately and rough manner. It was nothing like the other kisses they had shared, it was not Lily.

He gently tried to push her away, knowing well that she was not thinking rationally, just acting up because of the heartbreak that she was going through. Knowing that if he allowed her to continue this she would just feel worse than she did right now. He understood why she was doing it, but when her hands decided to take a trip down south and fumble with his belt he drew a line.

"Lily, stop!" he grabbed both of her wrists and moved her hands to her sides, "Stop! I know you wouldn't be doing this if it wasn't because of what you are going through,"

Lily started crying again, hitting him with her small fists on his chest. Her knees giving in under her, but he didn't let her fall; he just hold on to her tight until she was holding him back and started crying again, this time leaning into him as he let go of her wrists and wrapped his arms around her small quivering frame.

"Why James? Tell me why? Why did he do this to me? I loved him… I loved him." she sobbed against his chest, "Is there something wrong with me? Was I not good enough?"

"NO! Of course not, there is nothing wrong with you sweetie… He was just not good enough for you. He didn't deserve you. You are perfect, don't ever think otherwise." He reassured her, rubbing small circles on her back, trying to comfort her as much as he could.

They stayed in that classroom for what felt as an eternity; the bell rang a couple of times, but none of them made an attempt to pull away from the embrace. James would occasionally glance at his watch, trying to make sure he didn't miss dinner time or else someone would notice their absence.

"We should go now, dinner probably started already." Muttered James to Lily's ear, trying to pull her up a little.

"I'm not hungry," she said dully, her face showing no emotion, just the evidence of the tears that had left her eyes.

"Well, too bad, you are coming to dinner. On either your own accord or dragged by me, which one would you prefer?"

She gave him a small smile and followed him to the great hall to eat dinner, deciding that James Potter was a truly wonderful person to be around when one was sad; he was her instant antidepressant.

The next morning Lily didn't make much of an attempt to get out of bed but was dragged out of their dorms by Marlene McKinnon anyway, her best friend claimed that the heart could always be fixed with a good plate of crispy bacon in the morning. Lily was not very sure that it would work, but followed her friend out of the Gryffindor Tower anyway, remembering how James had told her that if he didn't see her eating at least a small plate of food every meal he would force feed her in front of the hall. She knew he wouldn't dare to do such thing, but she didn't want her new –uhh…- friend, to be disappointed.

"I always knew he was trouble, that Snape. I told ya' Lily, from the first time I saw him; I knew he was a lying, slimy, disgusting, little snake – no, worm- yes, disgusting little gooey worm! But since he was your friend I didn't want to upset you by telling you that." Said Marlene as they ate their breakfast, "so did he even tell you who he had been whoring around behind your back with? Because I know someone who might have some undiluted Bubotuber pus and we could send some of that to Lover Boy and his little hag."

"No, and I don't care- can we stop talking about this?" said Lily exasperated as she nibbled on a piece of toast.

"Fine, I'm sorry, Lily, I just- I don't know- I guess insulting is my way of letting out my anger? I won't bring it up again, I promise." Mumbled Marlene with a tight and awkward smile on her face; fidgeting with her napkin before she opened the Daily Prophet to read the news.

"Anything interesting happened in the world while we slept?" asked Lily, feeling slightly guilty about the way she talked to her friend.

"I cannot believe it! The nerve of these two! Oh, hell no! I will be sending this BITCH more than Bubotuber pus! I will be sending her a fucking Blast-Ended Skrewt in a box and hope she gets blown to pieces along with him!" shrieked Marlene, earning a few odd glances from around the great hall.

"Who? Is someone dating Lockhart, because if you are still pinning over him knowing quite well that he's a fraud then you my friend-"

But words could not form any longer when Marlene shoved the newspaper her way.

In the front page, there was a very happy, very well groomed and excited looking Severus Snape, next to him was his fiancé, and soon to be wife: Bellatrix Black.

She looked up to the staff table, and saw James looking at the newspaper with a frown and then his eyes scanned the Gryffindor for her. Their eyes met and were locked for a second and she remembered something he said the day before.

Life is funny that way, when you think that all the doors have been closed, you can always find a window to open.

Yes, maybe she was starting to feel glad that this had happened.


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Anyway, I hope you guys enjoy this chapter, it is shorter than the first one, but it was something I wanted to move out of the way before I started the real Jily Goodness!

And about the Bellatrix/Snape thing… well, I honestly didn't know who I would use as his fiancé, at first I wrote an OC, but I don't like writing them because I tend to turn them into stupid Mary Sues and that's something I don't want to do. I will try to use mainly cannon characters ex: Alice and Frank Longbottom, Marlene McKinnon, rest of the marauders, Bertha Jorkins, etc.

If they don't have much of a background story like Marlene and Bertha then I will try my best to not turn them into that annoying character that comes out in EVERY fanfic that just seems too damn perfect to be real…

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