~We're so late nights

Red eyes, amnesia, on ice

Late nights, red eyes, amnesia, I need you

Right now I can't see straight

Intoxicated its true

When I'm with you

I'm buzzing and I feel laced

I'm coming from a different phase

When I'm with you

Run away now

Like we're supposed to do

Take you to the back now

I take a shot for you

Wasted every night

Gone for every song

Faded every night

Dancing all night long

Drunk all summer~


Aiden's room is next to mine and I still feel so far away. It's the dead of night and I'm unable to sleep as usual. It's been a year since we freed him but the corruption to his soul runs deep. I hear him sometimes screaming, whimpering, crying, whatever tormenting him plagues him every night. We discovered that Tenebrae was not behind the attacks and has even begun aiding us in helping Aiden cleanse the darkness. Everyone has their own opinion on what should be down and I won't allow it—none of it!

Shiva suggested we crystalize him until Tenebrae or a sure cure is found. Azir agreed to the same and dumbass Renekton even had the audacity to suggest we "put him down and end his misery"…needlessly to say, he and I are not talking right now. I hear him in the other room now groaning, his claws ripping into something—probably his mattress or something with cloth. I've been forbidden to go in there again since the last time…

I turn in my bed and graze my fingers over the fresh flesh wound that was ripped into my shoulder. During one of Aiden's night terrors I couldn't help myself, I couldn't stand my brother's pain, and I didn't want to ignore it any longer. He couldn't control himself, his claws spilling my blood over the wooden floors and walls. I can still feel it, as if he was doing it to me again…and I cry softly.

"You must be patient Ethan," Shiva as she materializes next to me. "There is so much darkness that surrounds his heart. Tenebrae is doing his best."

I glare at her harshly and she sighs.

"You can be angry with me all you like, it does not change that we are bound, or that I understand how you feel. I simply just want to do what is best for you."

"Freezing him is what's best for me?!" I snap. "You must be joking and if you're it's a fucking sick joke! I've spent almost a year freeing him and now you want me to put him back somewhere where I can't reach! Fuck you and fuck Renekton!"

Shiva sighs again, her tranquil gaze lingers on me.

"How long do you want to see his pain? In his frozen state, he will feel no pain until can find and secure a cure. It would be selfish of you to do nothing when we have given you options."

"If you're done lecturing me, you can leave now!" I say and dig my nails into the bed. "I won't let any of you touch him!"

"As you wish. Just know that when the time comes, I will act with or without your consent."

What am I going to do? I can't stand to hear him and do nothing! Nothing at all...A rasping at my door catches my attention. I don't respond—I know who it is, and he lets himself in, it isn't locked. His frame causes the bed to sink where he sat. His voice is gentle and consoling as he speaks.

"If you've come to lecture me, too, get out."

"Why're you crying Ethan?" Nasus asks. His fingers touch my back and I shiver at his touch.

I wipe my face. "You don't hear that?" I know he does. Sometimes I wish I had Nasus's powers so I could hear and understand my brother's thoughts.

"This gift is not to pry, Ethan. While I can hear him…it's still his privacy. Your brother is strong."

"I know he is but what am I supposed to do?" I sit up and look at my trembling hands. So powerless and weak!

"It is not a weakness to cry. It takes a strong heart to share and feel the way you do. All you want to do is protect and keep the sun vibrant with not a cloud in sight. I wish I could think like you, be free like you," He slides his hand in mine. "But my home is Shurima, my duty is to the people, not anyone else. You care too much. Despite how you feel, your brother is to blame too. You cannot take on his burdens Ethan. Do not live his life for him."

I close my eyes and sigh as more fresh tears spill from my eyes. He's right. What I want isn't reality. I can't continue to cling on our broken past-our fonder times. But I don't know what to do from here. Eventually…I'll give in to Shiva and the others and take action…but that isn't living either. I don't want him to sleep for…however long it takes to find a cure or is that just me being selfish…?

I feel Nasus pulling me, not into an embrace but to get up. "Come with me. I don't want you alone tonight." He says and I comply.

Nasus wipes my face and walks me down the hall to his room. It's dark and I can only make out Nasus in front of me. I cling to his back gripping his shirt and his hand firmly. His scent is clear and clean like it always is. I hear a door open and walk in with him. I hear a click noise and a nearby lap lights his room dimly. He's remodeled since my last visit which was almost a month now. It seemed more spacious possibly from the lack of books stacked on the floor, or maybe he just made the room bigger.

I sit down on his bed with my back to the wall. I smell herbs and hear him pouring something in a cup.

"Drink this," he urges and sits down next to me.

It's green and feels warm in my hands. The shaking in my hands even stops as I feel the atmosphere becoming friendlier, soothing even. Nasus sits with me and sips from his own cup and I do the same. It taste good.

"Do not let my words ever change you." He says and I give him a questionable look. "Do not ever change. Share your kindness with everyone. Be everyone's shield. Compassion changes people—you have changed me. Just," he pauses trying to find the right words. "Do not try to take on the world by yourself. I'm with you and even though Renekton might deny it, he is too."

"You're all so confusing," I say and tear into the green pool of tea. "What is it…you want me to do?"

"Live. Live for us and for Ethan. Share your light with us. It has been a while since you have been out of your room except to your guard post." His eyes lower, a hint of sadness in them. "It's been a while since you have smiled for me."

"I do smile."

"It is not genuine…it does not belong to you."

I turn away from him. He would know wouldn't he? It's hard to hide things in this house from any of them. I soon feel his big hands pat me and tousle my hair.

"I'll tell you a secret." He says and my ears perk. "Aiden fights for you, every day, and he gets stronger. The terrors are not nearly as bad as they were when they first started. Your smile and your kindness light his way. Do not show him pity."

I narrow my eyes at him. "I thought you didn't pry?"

He looks away, a look of embarrassment contorts his face.

"I have seen almost everything in his mind. The storm is almost over. He needs just a little more time and he needs you, too. We…need you."

Nasus gaze turns to the door. "How long are you going to stand outside? You can come in."

Renekton slides in, a bashful look on his face, and his hands balled into fists. I growl lowly and Nasus nudges me to stop. Renekton gestures me to scoot over and sits beside me. His eyes are low and don't meet mine.

"I'm sorry, okay?" He says and turns to me. "I did not like seeing you upset and I wanted you to smile again. Aiden is a part of our family too."

I close my eyes. The apology is nice but I had already forgiven him having talked for Nasus. Everyone…just wants to see me smile. But why? It's just a smile it doesn't give them anything other than reassurance.

"A smile gives a person many things. Hope, love, understanding, comfort, happiness. Your smile gives us that and more." Nasus says and I suddenly feel a peck on my cheek from Renekton.

"Much more," Renekton says and nudges me tenderly.

I blush immediately and push him away. He smiles and I feel my heart dance in my chest. Renekton's kindness towards me is always random and makes me feel weird…but it's a nice type of weird.

"Thank you," I say. Their combined heat is enough to fluster me. If I don't leave now I'll be swept away in another of their primal urges.

"You have been kind of selfish lately Ethan." Renekton says as his hand wanders down my thigh.

"I-I haven't! You've just been an asshole!" I stammer.

Nasus leans in, his fangs grazing my ear as he speaks low and sultry. "He is right. It has been almost three months now. Have you been doing it yourself or are you all pent up?" His hot tongue licks my ear and I squirm in their grasps.

"No." I say and shiver when Renekton's hand find its way in my pants. "Don't do that," I moan feverishly.

"So innocent and cute." Nasus teases.

We spend the rest of the night in each other's company as they indulge me take their fill from me mercilessly. I feel weightless as my mind is subjugated to their ministrations and body craves and loves every moment.

"Ah hahhh!" I hiss when Renekton nibbles at my exposes collar bone. I look back at him longingly with such desire that I almost feel empty whenever his hands leave my body.

Nasus always know where to touch and how to elicit pleasurable noises from me. It was unfair whenever they both were hungry for me. I had no choice but to comply and be swept in their cadence. I don't remember how many times I've came tonight but they're not finished with me yet.

The dawn comes soon enough and I don't want to move. So warm and safe in between them, so much love and affection. So much to share. I smile and bury myself in Nasus's snoring chest. I'll think of an answer for Aiden soon, one which we'll all agree on.


Please forgive me for the long delay for this. I've actually written four different chapters on how I wanted it to be but I suppose this one seems like the best one. I don't want to rush it. Again, please forgive me and i'll try and update weekly! Remember: Nothing is ever achieved without a little enthusiasm!