Author: This is starting to be an AU... I don't own Harry Potter, or it would have ended up worse than it did.
Just about everyone misunderstood me, especially Abraxas, and it affected me greatly. Just when I thought that he wouldn't do anything rash, his lips pressed against mine, my mind going blank. I didn't exactly know what to say or do and in no way did I expect him to do that. He hated me, why would he do something like that? I pushed him away from me and almost said something, only to remember that we aren't allowed to talk to each other, yet. Seeing as I never told anyone that neither of us were right. Then I remembered that we weren't supposed to touch either... Okay then.
I backed away and then started sprinting, I didn't want to even look at him. I wiped my lips and my eyes, as the tears already started falling. I wasn't looking where I was going and soon, I bumped into Riddle and we both fell down hard on to the ground, seeing as I was sprinting. I buried my face into his chest, I didn't want him to see me crying. Riddle must have known that something was wrong, because I never did something like that before.
"What's wrong with you, O'Brien?" he shouted. I raised my head slowly and wiped the tears off my face. I couldn't bare to look at him, the tears still falling from my eyes. I didn't want Abraxas to kiss me, in fact, I knew that I liked him, but I didn't want to admit it. The main reason I knew about it was because I knew that I liked Draco Malfoy in the Harry Potter Series and Abraxas' looks were very attractive, aside from the fact that I always preferred brown eyes up to this point.
"A-abraxas." I muttered, trying to stop myself from crying. Riddle grabbed my chin, to make me look at him.
"What did he do to you?" Riddle asked. I hid my face in my hands.
"He kissed me." I said through my hands.
"And why would that make you so upset, O'Brien?" Riddle asked. I moved my hands from my face and gave him an 'are you insane' look.
"Because." I said, "I didn't want him to." Riddle gave me the look that he gives me when he has no idea what to say. I sighed a big sigh.
"Why did you call Malfoy by his first name and me by my last name, O'Brien?" Riddle asked, changing the subject. I glared at him and stood up, offering my hand to help Riddle up, which he didn't take and stood up on his own.
"Because, you never said that I could." I said, "And it's not like I'm calling Malfoy that to his face. Besides, you hate your first name." Riddle frowned.
"And you know that, how?" Riddle asked. I looked away.
"You always get angry when someone says it." I said, "When usually, you just hide your anger and most other emotions. I know, because I'm usually the same way." Riddle frowned.
"So, why are you so upset?" Riddle asked. I looked at the floor.
"My mind wants me to only like one person at a time." I said, "Besides, I really don't know if I want to trust boys at this moment. Mainly because it seems like all of you just want to kiss me." Riddle looked at me questioningly, as if he didn't believe me, but the look disappeared in a second.
"I better go talk to Malfoy about this then." Riddle said. I frowned.
"Why?" I asked, "It's not like you own me or something." Riddle studied my face for a second.
"But you'd rather it if I did" Riddle stated. I rolled my eyes.
"Only a stupid idiot would think that." I said, "You have too many girls after you for me to even consider wanting you, even if I act like I do." Even though secretly, I was crushing on him majorly. I just wanted him to tell me he likes me first, even if that will never happen. I mean he is Tom Riddle, of all people.
*~The Blood on My Hands~*
Eventually, I told them the truth, that neither of us were right. I also found out that I wasn't exactly the 'flower' in that prophecy, which made it much easier to deal with and I could relax knowing that someone else will save those three men. On the other hand, even though Malfoy and I were able to talk, I started ignoring him. I didn't want him thinking that I liked him.
"O'Brien, why are you ignoring me?" Malfoy asked me when we were alone. I just stared at him, confused about my actions, but as I was thinking he had me cornered.
"What is wrong with you, Malfoy?" I asked him. I could see the anger in his gray eyes and the rest of his face.
"You know that I like you, so why are you doing this to me?" Malfoy questioned me. I shrunk back, my back touching the icy wall causing me to shiver.
"Seriously?" I asked, "I thought that you hated me, because all you ever did is yell at me for doing something to Riddle, even if you didn't know what it was."
"Riddle is my master. I have every reason to yell at you for doing something to him." Malfoy said, "But that doesn't mean that I'm not allowed to want you." I frowned.
"Even if Riddle likes me as well?" I asked. Malfoy frowned.
"Why would he like someone who does weird things to him all the time?" Malfoy asked. I rolled my eyes.
"How should I know?" I asked, "He did the same thing you did to me, only earlier this year. He must have thought that my actions meant something, even though for the most part, I'm just playing with him."
"What do you mean by that?" Malfoy asked, "How do you act with him when nobody is around?" I blushed.
"Well..." I said, "When we're in the middle of a fight, I usually hex him or just mess up his clothes for no reason. When we're not fighting, I tend to act very out of character and I never act the same. Last time I did something strange to him, that time on the train, I kissed his cheek and acted rather seductive. Maybe he thought that it meant that I actually wanted him, rather than just acting strange. You know, Riddle's been acting strange since break." Malfoy looked rather angry.
"Why would you do something like that, idiot?" Malfoy asked.
"I will bash you over your head, Malfoy." I said, "Don't think that I won't. I can't change the past, but I can certainly change the future."
"You are certainly strange, O'Brien, and that's a fact." Malfoy said, "I'd rather that you didn't ignore me, though you may have had a reason, it's not fair that you ignore me even though Riddle did the same exact thing to you." I sighed.
"Just let me do what I have to do." I said, "I can't have everyone attacking me at once. I still have to straighten out my feelings."- I sighed,- "I have to figure out what I really want. Human emotions are rather annoying and unpredictable, I wish that I didn't have to deal with them... Honestly, I don't understand what goes on in my head sometimes and I know that I can't follow my heart, because sometimes my heart wants too many things at once." Malfoy raised an eyebrow.
"So, you mean that you like too many people?" Malfoy asked.
"Too many people?" I asked, "That sounds about right. If you count four people as too many." Malfoy looked shocked.
"Four people?!" Malfoy asked, "As in, four boys?!"
"Not four boys." I said, "Three boys..."
"Who do you like?" Malfoy asked. I blushed and looked at the floor.
"Not telling." I said, "But you know two of them."
"I do?" Malfoy asked, "Who?"
"I don't want to admit it." I said.
"Who is the other one?" Malfoy asked, "The one that I don't know."
"His name is Isaac." I said, "I knew him before I came here."
"That's nice." Malfoy said, "Your first love?"
"Actually, no." I said, "But he was my first kiss."
"So you actually did things when you were a young child?" Malfoy asked.
"I wasn't all that young." I said, "The first eleven years of my life,"- or what should have been in regards to the age of my body.- "Seemed to be several years more than what it actually was." Or at least that's what I have to tell you as to not spill my secret. I mean, I already told people about Isaac and Abigail and used their real names, though I never told anyone that Abigail was actually my daughter.
"Well, it doesn't really matter." Malfoy said, "Just choose one of us, either Riddle or myself. Either way, Riddle and I would have to deal with it." I frowned.
"Why don't I go on two separate dates with the two of you and choose who I'd rather be with?" I asked.
"No." Malfoy said, "You can't do that, you have to choose one of us now, before you can date either of us."
"I'll see what Riddle says." I said, "Besides, I'm more inclined to choose Riddle, because he has more power over your group, whatever your group is or does. I like people with plans, big plans. See you soon, Malfoy, you bastard."
Author: Please Review. I know, she seems to be rather... Annoying.
