Disclaimer: I don't own divergent or an of its characters.
Tris POV:
I ranked first?! I can believe it. How can this be possible? I'm just a weak little girl. A divergent girl. After receiving numerous pats on the back from friends and other dauntless members I decide to give my instructor, four, a hug. Not a warm romantic hug like I would want it to be but a thankful hug. He helped me through initiation and I don't know what I would do without him.
Ugh I have got to stop thinking about him that way. There is no way he could ever like me like that. He probably just sees me as a scrawny little abnegation girl, nothing more, nothing less.
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I am walking back to the initiates dorm room (we don't get to pick a job or apartment until tomorrow), when I found myself thinking about four...again, probably for the 100th time today. I remember the warmth of our bodies pushed up against each other. Or how rock hard his chest was and how toned his abs were through his shirt.
When I finally get to the dorms I pretty much go straight to bed as it has been a long day of Christiana dragging me around shopping to 'celebrate.' I know fully understand the term shop til you drop. She made me get lots of good (and some kinda slutty) clothes and well as makeup and... um... lingerie. I didn't want to get it but Christiana made me.
She said I would need it when I'm putting on a show for four. She is the only one who knows I have a crush on him. I love her and all but she can be really annoying sometimes, especially with her Candor smart mouth. Anyway I really need to get to sleep its going to be a loonngg day tomorrow. I wounder what job I will pick. Maybe I will be an initiate instructor so I can work with four. I know, I know it sounds dumb but hey when you have a schoolgirl crush on someone ya gotta do what ya gotta do. I guess I will find out tomorrow. I send a silent goodnight out to four and pray that he sends one back but I know it is stupid. Goodnight four xx.
Sorry it is a little short I will see if I can update again later today. Love you all xx
