I spend most of the day resting and trying to find something to eat that the baby won't reject, I am starting to tire already and this is not good even I know this. "How come your sister hasn't blown up the phone, I would have thought she would have caught this big of a surprise?" I ask as he wanders into the room carrying a tray with scrambled eggs and toast for me. "Huh! you're right, as always my love, I haven't heard from her at all, Carlisle said they were out when I called but really, she should have seen this! I'll call Jasper"
Turns out Alice had no idea about the baby, she said I was a little fuzzy but she hadn't been paying attention, trying to give us some privacy, as we were on honeymoon. So either I was shielding the baby or the baby was doing something itself? Well, we would have to wait and see, maybe Edward would be able to hear its thoughts soon and give us an idea, what was happening. I mentioned all of this to him and again he seemed surprised I had thought about any of that so deeply.
"Edward, I'm beginning to wonder if you think I'm vapid? Just because you can't hear my thoughts doesn't mean I don't actually have any! It's really insulting the way you think of me as the weak pathetic human. I appear to be the stronger of the two of us and I obviously do a lot more thinking and less wallowing than you do!" I know it's the hormones talking but I'm getting very angry with my new husband. "You seriously need to grow up Edward and join me in the real world!" I shout at him as I rush into the bathroom slamming and locking the door to throw up once again.
"Love, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to infer you were unintelligent, it came out wrong. I don't know what to do for you, I feel useless. Tell me what you need from me please Bella?" he begs from the other side of the door. "Have you never heard of the internet Edward, how do you think I knew how to handle our honeymoon, I wasn't born with the information, I learned it, just like everyone else!" I shout at him, I'm on the floor crying by now and feeling really sorry for myself. What the hell does he do when I'm asleep, I know, he sits and worries and achieves nothing.
The tiredness must have gotten to me because the next thing I remember is waking up in bed. Edward is lying behind me cradling my body to him keeping me cool and stroking my hair. This is all I had wanted, all I had needed for two days and at last, he's here with me supporting me and loving me. "I'm sorry Edward, this is going to get a lot worse before the end and you're going to get the brunt of it, baby" I tell him, tears running down my face, "I'm scared too you know, I need you to be strong and calm Edward, I can't do it all by myself, I can't mother you to, I don't have the energy" I sob.
"No Bella, you're right sweetheart, if I had any common sense I would have been caring for you, instead I was trying to fight fate and blame everyone else for this, instead of grasping it for the amazing event it was and being here for you" he says quietly, "I really am seeing us from a new perspective and I don't come out smelling like roses, do I?"
"All new fathers have to learn Edward, you just didn't seem to want too, don't you want our baby?" I ask him afraid of the answer. "Oh god yes, Bella I love the fact that you can give me something I thought was beyond me, I'm sorry I made you and the baby feel unwanted!" he expounded "I have been seriously re-evaluating myself and I know I don't know a lot about women and babies, but I should have been able to handle this better, more maturely and I promise I will be here every step of the way from now on, please don't shut me out, love!"
"Okay, together then, well the first thing I need you to do baby, please don't panic and over think it, Edward. But I think the baby will need me to consume blood for it to develop! It is half vampire after all" I say this and hold my breath waiting for the explosion, but he surprises me, just stiffening at first then he relaxes and says "I think you may be on to something there, and maybe you'll be able to eat better too, if the baby is satisfied."
"Can you hear it's heartbeat Edward? Does it seem okay, normal I mean? You would tell me if anything was wrong?" I was starting to panic, thinking of all the things that could happen. "Shush! Bella nothing will go wrong, the baby's fine and you are the strongest, most awesome woman I have ever met, you can do this, no you will do this!" he tells me and I just crush myself against him and pray he's right, that I am strong enough.
It was still early evening and we were relaxing as best we could when my cell went off. It was Rose to tell us Esme and Carlisle were on their way and should be there by morning. She asked how I was and did I need anything? I just got the feeling that they also wanted to be here for us and I suggested once Carlisle had assessed me and decided what was needed, maybe they would bring it out with them. She was ecstatic and I could hear Emmett whooping in the background, I told her to tell Alice not too many baby clothes till we knew the sex. I heard Jasper laughing at Alice's huffing about not getting to buy out the baby stores.
Edward said he'd go hunting after I was asleep and bring me back something to drink for the baby, I screwed up my nose and nodded, then tapped my belly saying "I hope you appreciate all I'm doing for you 'Squirt'" Edward laughed at me and then leant down and speaking to my belly, he told the baby how wonderful I was and how lucky it was that I was its mummy, my eyes filled with tears and for once was completely content, long may it continue.
