Alternate Ending

One of the totally awesome reviewers here (Thanks, Akerri-dogi!) got me thinking about the ending, and this is the result.

While attempting to improve it, I ended up thinking about how most people don't make that decision in high school (or shouldn't have in some cases) because they just weren't ready. High school is a young time even if the feelings we develop at that age can be very adult size.

I like the total-fluff-just-a-fun-Valentine quality of the original so I left it, and added this as an alternate ending! Never did improve the scene leading to the ending of the original, though. Oh, well.

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Ending A: Kurt and Blaine are ready.

Ending B: They are still growing up! But they will do so together.

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Warning: The ending with the decision to hold back is more explicit than the other, since they get into the subject and all.

-I was going for a sweet innocent conversation about taking things slow and about what's right for them... but what can I say, these guys can't keep their hands off each other. That's THEIR problem, I just try to keep up! ^_^

(Do we have to disclaim owning Glee at the top of every chapter? No idea. And no ownership.)


Chapter 2: Alternate Ending

"Well, the song is about you, so you'd think I'd be able to express that…"

Kurt considered for a moment. "By that, you mean… what?"

"Like what I say in the last line of the song…" Strumming along, he sang again softly, "Letting our love take us farther than we ever conceived, Giving everything and more than we ever dared dream."

"See that's what's bothering you about the song… that line is like a place-holder, because farther than we ever conceived? What does that say, other than you can't conceive of what it is to go… farther. Yet. I guess."

Blaine swung the guitar strap over his head and wrapped an arm around Kurt's waist so he wouldn't uproot the warm snuggly boyfriend in his lap as he reached over to lean his guitar against the wall.

"My song is suffering from not paying enough attention to you, is that it?" Kurt pried his sarcastic boyfriend off the soft and ticklish neck he was attacking, but not without a little caress first along the grinning cheek.

"Blaine, I'm being serious. I'm only taking your song as an example. I mean you wrote it. About your feelings for me. And you can't finish it. So..."

This time he was not pried away from having his way with that soft skin at the neck all flushed and shivering at his ministrations. "...So I have to go all the way with you..." It was said as a statement but something in the delivery and the body language made it more of a question.

Staring off into deep thought, and in a way Blaine wasn't expecting, Kurt merely came out with, "Hmm." Blaine looked a bit more serious now too as he listened curiously. "The thing is... Your song has all this yearning for something at each stage and then more yearning for the next stage, just yearning and yearning, from the beginning progressing like that all the way to the end. But... it kind of never ends even though you tried to make it sound like you end up finding that 'everything' or whatever."

Gazing toward the bookshelf, Blaine was starting to finally really process this, as Kurt continued, "So to complete the song, what is the final stage for you?"

Pulling him a little tighter in, hugging his own arms wrapped around Kurt, he thought out loud, "Ahh, let's see... giving 'more than we ever dared dream' It's like, I want to hold you forever, and feel you so close to me, and..." He trailed off and just snuggled his head into Kurt's neck with a big sigh.

Kurt turned and wrapped him up in his arms, with Blaine breathing into his chest. "What do the last passages at the end of the song mean for you Blaine?"

"I think I'm trying to say... What it means... is..." Blaine faltered, searching for words to make sense of his thoughts. "…to give myself over completely to the one I love. You."

"Wait. You… love me?" Kurt pulled back a bit to look into Blaine eyes.

"Kurt, Yeah. Of course. ...Yeah, Oh my g…" Blaine couldn't get the last word out in his haste to fill Kurt's lips with fire and passion and electric energy and... then tenderness. Kurt brushed his lips along the upper lip of his crush, his boyfriend, his love, with his warm breath shuttering like the staccato rhythm of his palpitating heart, which drove both of them crazy and brought on a bout of Blaine trying to discover new worlds beyond Kurt's lips and teeth and tongue and explore anything and everything possible that is Kurt. He wanted to taste him and devour him and become a part of him.

Oh boy and so did Kurt, big time.

Kurt managed to pull himself away for a brief moment to take a breath, and whisper into Blaine's hair, "I've been falling deeper and deeper in love with you, you don't even know how mu…" Quickly Blaine covered his lips, wanting to express all of this in far more depth than words could allow.

Kurt gave back as much heat and energy, and almost in a fury, pulled Blaine's shirt up over his head so that he could taste the spot in the middle of his chest where he'd always noticed the most enticing chest hair, which ended up being soft and rough at the same time… yikes, he could get lost in this one spot. At Blaine's groan into the top of his head, Kurt let his lips and tongue intensify and journey toward that sexy streak of black chalk he'd been obsessed with since he saw that evidence of his boyfriend's painstaking attempts to draw him the perfect Valentine.

Reaching that section of masculine neck and very helpfully working to remove the chalk for Blaine, although what good his teeth grazing along it could do he didn't know or care, he himself couldn't stop a moan from escaping his lips. He looked up into Blaine's eyes, blazing, and brought his lips up to his true love's mouth again.

Rising off the chair and standing finally, their hips met as Blaine pulled Kurt in with one hand on his lower back and the other clutching the back of his head, massaging his hair and keeping their kiss as deep as it could possibly be. Kurt's leg wedged between Blaine's while its counterpart moved on its own accord until it was wrapped around Blaine completely. They moved into the depths of their kiss, together... Blaine's fingers kept caressing down further until they were suddenly clutching the waistline of Kurt's jeans… Whoah. Both boys pulled their heads back at the same moment, frozen in place, star-struck, pausing to look into each other's eyes and assess the situation. As they tried to catch their breath they came to an unspoken agreement, and began the process of calming down.

"OK we need to finish this song." Blaine pulled away, and both of Kurt's feet were on the ground… having brought the rest of Kurt back down from heaven.

"The SONG?" Kurt chuckled almost incredulously, but with good humor at the same time.

Taking both Kurt's hands in his, Blaine brought them to his lips to place a sweet kiss on the back of each one in turn. "Yeah. The song. It's our definition. It's our all-the-way. We write that ending and it's our idea of what it is to give everything to each other without holding back."

"Like we're holding back right now."

"Exactly"

They plopped down on the couch as Kurt said, "Like we always do." At the look on Blaine's face Kurt realized he was probably taking it the wrong way, and that's not how he meant it. "That's a good thing, I think. It's what's right for us. I think. Must be."

"It's not about being scared of sharing anything with you," Blaine offered, taking a hand into his own again and drawing lazy patterns with his thumb. "It's not about being too... vulnerable with you. It's about..."

"I know." Kurt tried. "It's... Well we're just not ready. For... Whatever, it's just, you know, we're... Young. I guess. Right?"

Blaine let out a chuckle and took the other hand. "Yeah. I guess that's it. Mostly. Probably."

"So. We're just not ready. That's OK." Kurt rested his head on Blaine's shoulder and continued holding both his hands.

"Yes but..." Blaine nudged his boyfriend's head with his own, "We keep holding back from something... And we always almost go too far... So... We should know what it is. Holding back from what? You know. What would be …. not holding back? Just so we don't... push each other too far, I guess..."

"Um. I don't know. I guess, it seems like. I think..." Kurt contemplated an answer to this and wasn't getting too far. Then it seemed to sort itself in his mind, and he whispered into Blaine's shoulder, "Well. We can call it anything that would result in…. losing control."

"Ah."

"Hmmmmm."

And Kurt made a decision right then and there, but one that he suddenly realized he had known all along. "I'm not ready for that. Losing control. At least… not just yet."

Kurt felt the huge sigh of relief from Blaine warm his forehead where those fabulous lips rested. "Me too." With a soft kiss to the forehead he added, "Kurt, I want to give you everything. I want to give over my everything to you. It's not that I don't want to be vulnerable with you, or that if things are too intimate it feels scary… or anything. I want you to know that I am not afraid of anything when I'm with you. I feel like I could do anything when you're beside me. You make me bold, and alive and invincible. And… when I'm with you I can't keep my hands off you. I can't keep my lips off you. I feel like I could do anything to you and let you do anything to me. Anything. But…"

"Yeah." Kurt took over, "I'm right here with you. I know what you're trying to say. It's the… losing control. I mean don't get me wrong. I'm sure that will be… amazing. With you. I want you to be the one I lose control with. Actually… I absolutely crave making you lose control. Believe me. I dream about it. I daydream about it, driving you to lose control. Damn."

Blaine was practically shaking at this point, and said "I know, it would be like abandoning all sense and reason and..." He stopped and chuckled. They both began to laugh. "I don't know! I've never experienced it either! Shut up! I can only guess... But it's a good guess, based on what it feels like at the brink of losing all reason when I'm kissing you and exploring you and feeling that you return everything I give to you…"

"OK. Good. So we're just not ready yet."

"Yeah, it's just that… we're still young."

"Hahaha. Yeah, we're growing up."

"Together…? Though." He looked at Kurt with such a vulnerable expression Kurt's heart almost broke. Dropping his head back onto Blaine's shoulder he opened his mouth to reply but had trouble finding the right way to agree completely and unconditionally.

Answering his own question instead, Blaine reached over to cradle Kurt's chin and pull him in, and right before kissing him for the 23,745th time (well maybe not that many quite yet) he stated confidently, "Yeah. Absolutely together."

Blaine got up and walked over to pick up his guitar, which made Kurt jokingly whimper in protest of being abandoned. "What are you doing…?"

"We can finish the song. We should try to discover the right lyrics for us." He leaned over Kurt, gazing deep into his bright eyes sparkling up at him, slowly raising his chin in his hand making sure the guitar pick didn't make contact with his skin, and gave him a long, tender, talk-about-intimate! kiss, and then added, "Together."

"OK, we'll write the song. We'll discover those lyrics. But the problem is… I was kind of busy discovering something else I want to get back to first… just for a minute or two… Because I believe I was just getting acquainted with a certain very delicious spot right about... here…" After he pulled the guitar out of his love's hands, his fingers traced along his chest hair down to the sweet depression he'd found earlier… "I was finding that my lips seem to fit almost perfectly… right… about… he…." replacing his fingers with his lips once again, until Blaine's head rolled back and then managed to recover a bit and come back to, and drop down in complete happiness to kiss Kurt on the top of his gorgeous head. "It's going to be fun growing up with you, Kurt."

Letting our love take us over when you're here with me, Giving everything and anything because you are my dream.

"Well… not great… But it's a start!"

*Guitar comes this close to bashing boy's head. Ah, but followed by affectionate kisses. Of course.


A/N - Please do let me know: Too much? Would a simple conversation have been better? I'll keep trying.

P.S. - That line about counting kisses... *Hi, boriqua522! How many Nuke kisses did Luke and Noah get up to again? *smiles! (emoticons disappearing weirdly here)