Declaimer: "I do not own Kingdom Hearts…"
Kiome-Yasha: "The next part to this Rokunami Day special three-shot :D."
Namine
I was lonely for so long…I just couldn't bear it anymore.
I couldn't stand the timeless hours of coloring memories that weren't even my own. I couldn't bear the plain white walls that mocked me in my small prison of servitude; the echoes of their cackling laughs of amusement as Sora began to fall deeper into their plans.
I just…couldn't bear this feeling anymore.
All I wanted was to be important to someone.
Anyone…
I don't exist in anyone's heart. I never have existed anywhere...
That's right…I'm a Nobody…a witch…
How can someone like me…be in anyone's heart? When I myself, don't even exist.
I cringed from the reality of my tormented pain. Pain? How could I feel pain? No, stop deluding yourself, Namine. You have no right…even if Sora wanted you to smile; you know you don't deserve it. Not after all the trouble you caused him…to both of them.
Yes, you were just nothing but trouble. And, that's why…you should just disappear.
It's not me. It's her…
Sora had Kairi, which I was able to accept…but you had…
I giggled pitifully to myself.
It seems like no matter what, I was always the girl left in the shadows, admiring others. I was jealous; I think that's what they call it? Yes, at least for the moment, I think that's what it was…even if it was an emotion revived from memories.
She was with you either way, both her and Axel. They got to laugh with you, and smile with you. I had hoped…no…I had wanted to see you after I heard about you from Ansem and Riku.
Yes, I really did.
I was just…afraid though…
Afraid I would mess things up again, afraid that…you would hate me. You seemed…so happy…despite being a Nobody like myself. I wonder how she was able to bring that frown of yours to smile? Did it really just take an ice-cream bar that I never even got to taste before? Not even once?
How was she able to make you smile? I…I wanted to make you smile.
I wanted to make you happy…
But no, all I did…was mess things up…again…
I took her away from you, and even to this day…I could never tell you about her…
I was afraid…I was afraid…
I wanted to meet you, at least once…
I did! I really wanted to see you! At first, I didn't know why…to be honest.
I mean, there were many other Nobodies like us, all hallow bodies with no hearts…only their memories to rely on. But no, you were special…you were different…like me.
I thought you would be similar to Sora, identical to his personality, but no…you were completely different. Unlike Sora, you were honest; you actually told me you didn't know how to deal with the fact I was a witch. Unlike Sora, you were afraid to know the truth.
But still, you wanted to know…. you continued to press forward…
And I wanted to be the person, to finally tell you the truth.
After all, I was done with lying.
We will meet again…and then we can talk about everything…
Our meeting together was cut short; I wish it hadn't. There was SO much I wanted to talk to you about, things that were important…and some that weren't.
For one thing, I wanted to know what sea-salt ice cream tasted like…I always saw you eating some with your friends…and…it just made me wonder…was all.
And just when we had finally got a chance to meet, everything just pulled us apart. I was desperate…desperate to keep our time together. I just couldn't let it end there…not for us…
And so…I said…
But, we will meet again…someday soon…I promise!
I had promised…
A promise…
It wasn't my first; actually, it was the second promise I have ever made. I didn't know what to do with it…considering I was the one who made that promise.
Were Nobodies really allowed to make promises anyway? Either way, I knew I wouldn't forget it…
I just hoped…you wouldn't like Sora did…
I have some people…I want to see…
I had explained that to Riku and Axel, the both of them somehow understanding my…feelings…
I wanted to see you again…along with Sora… I cared about you both…
It's why I held my picture of the two of you together so closely as I traveled through the realm of darkness with Axel.
Still…Roxas…you were the one…
The one? 'The one'…to what? I really don't know…so…I asked Axel…
Somehow though, he only laughed at me; saying "I know somebody who asked too many questions once…and I'll give you the same answer…I don't really know until you get a heart, got it memorized?"
A heart…it always seemed to come down to that…it's hard not to get it memorized when it's constantly reminded to us Nobodies.
But do I really need a heart?
This feeling just won't go away…
We meet again, just like we promised…
We finally got to meet again…Roxas…
Yes, it was you who I was saying it to…
I know many have thought it was to Sora…but no…it was to you…only you…
I just don't know why, but somehow…you were able to figure it out…
Now it seemed like the tables were turned; I was the confused one, while it seemed like you were the one with all the answers…like all you needed, was whatever was in front of you.
Which somehow…was me…
I didn't understand…but…I was…happy…?
Happy to see you again, happy to be with you again…I wanted to stay like that… together…
And if possibly…forever…
So, we can be together again!
I didn't know why I sounded so excited…maybe it was because of the weird… warm…fuzzy…sensation that was filling inside my chest at that moment.
Maybe it was because I got to see you again…
Maybe it was because I wasn't alone anymore…
Maybe it was because I was able to fulfill our promise…
Maybe it was because of Sora and Kairi's secret feelings for each other…
No…scratch that…I don't want it to be for that reason…
There were so many reasons…but there was one that seemed the most possible…
…Maybe…maybe…it was love?
End Chapter
Kiome-Yasha: "Namine's POV was a little bit more difficult, but I'm hoping it came out well :D. So now that the second part to this three-shot is over, there's only the last part left with the both of them together :3. Hopefully, I'll be able to update that one later on as well. Happy Rokunami day! ;D Leave reviews please!"
