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2. Dirty little secrets.

Epov:

"Edward I'm waiting in anticipation for an explanation to way you applied to Yale. You better have one hell of a story. I thought we decided that you're going to study medicine." Carlisle banged his fist on the dining room table in frustration. I snorted, we decided was another way of saying he decided for me. There was no way in hell that I was going to become a doctor.

I was going to Yale to study music, no matter what Carlisle said. Nothing was going to change my mind, I was already accepted into the musical program and there was nothing he could do about it. Esme walked into the dining room and started to clear up the dishes, she gave me a small smile from behind Carlisle's back. She understood that I didn't want to devote my life to medicine, why couldn't Carlisle just understand as well.

"Answer me, damn it!" Carlisle banged his fist again causing Alice to jump in fright. She looked at me pleadingly before she stood up and left, she never could handle any form of conflict.

Great, she was supposed to be my big support in this argument.

"We, haven't decided anything, dad." I said emphasizing the we by making quotation marks in the air with my hands. "You were the one who decided and you never thought to ask me how I felt about it. I'm going to study music and there's nothing you can do about it."

He stood up suddenly, as if he was just electrocuted, causing his chair to fall over. "Nothing I can do about it? Who is going to pay for your studies? I promise you, I will not pay a single dime for you to study some course that will never give you a future!"

I also stood up and glared at him. "I don't remember asking you to!" I shouted at him just as his cell phone began ringing.

"Hello…...yes I'll be right there." He closed his phone and stared at me.

"See! You can't even have an argument without being interrupted by work. So why don't you just go already? Your precious patients are waiting for you."

He glared at me. "This isn't over." He turned on his heel and walked out.

I sighed, I knew that he was going to throw a fit but was it really necessary to overreact like that. I never wanted to become a doctor, music was my passion and it was the only direction after school that I considered. I walked around the table and picked up his chair placing it neatly at the table. I walked slowly to my room. I could here Alice in the bathroom. She was the lucky one. Dad didn't expect her to become a doctor. She could go and study fashion next year, all he wanted to know was how much her entire course was going to cost.

Money, it was always about money. Well I didn't need his money, I will go play a composition to the university's head council in two weeks and get a scholarship. I walked into my room and turned up my stereo. Papa Roach started playing full blast. I grabbed some pajamas from my closet and headed for my bathroom.

I smirked. Having a lot of money enabled my parents to buy a house with three bathrooms. I stood under the shower and imagined it was a waterfall. It helped me to relax. I watched how millions of rivers flowed down my body. I was calmer when I finally came out of the shower. The stereo was still playing full blast, I didn't care to turn it down since Carlisle was at the hospital and Esme was working the night shift. Alice was used to my blaring music by now.

I smiled. Alice really was the best pixie like sister anyone could ask for. Her bubbly personality tired you out a bit, but her knack to brighten up any mood was the best thing about her. No one wanted to believe us when they heard we were twins. We were so different. She had a big talent for fashion and shopping. She looked like she danced when she even made the smallest move, she had dark short spiky hair that stood in every direction, she was built small almost like a pixie and the only why you could tell we were related at all was by our eyes.

We both had the same green eyes. I was a lot taller than she was, even taller than my parents were. I had longish bronze hair that I always wore in a mess and didn't care much about fashion. Alice usually picked my clothes for me whenever we went shopping and I always just went along with her. There was no need to argue with her, since she always somehow manages to get what she wants.

I skipped to my favorite Papa Roach song and fell on my bed closing my eyes.

"Cut my life into pieces, this is my last resort. Suffocation, no breathing. Don't give a fuck if I cover your bleeding."

I listened to the song that described my life at the moment. My door opened and Alice walked in, she said something but I couldn't here her over the music. I sat up and turned the stereo down. She came and sat down next to me.

"Well that went swell, I think he was one bang short of an aneurysm."

I smiled softly. "I didn't want to argue with him, I hate it when we fight but I'm not going to study medicine. I will not leave my family at night and run of to save someone. I won't miss out on my children's birthdays, Christmases and school plays. I want to be part of my family and not just its provider. I want to be there for my children and share every aspect of their lives. I want to sleep next to my wife and not leave in the middle of the night to do some emergency operation. I want a life." I sighed and held my head in my hands creating the image of helplessness.

"Always so theatrical, I want those things too. Why do you think I'm going to study fashion?" She asked bumping my shoulder.

"Because you have good fashion sense, can't walk past a boutique without going in and have a very active imagination." I teased. "And because you can't stand the sight of gore." I said causing her to laugh.

"Exactly, so don't worry he will come around eventually."

I hunched my shoulders. "What if he doesn't. I don't think we have ever argued about something before and you know how stubborn he can be."

She stood up. "I also know how stubborn you can be. Just wait it out, who knows he might surprise you." She ran her hand through my hair as she left my room.

"I won't bet on it." I mumbled after her.

Well it's my life, right? So the choice is not up to him.

I felt a shiver run down my spine. It felt like someone was watching me. I glanced up and looked straight at Bella's room window. Was it my imagination or did something just move inside her dark room? I turned and switched of my bedroom light, I walked over to my windowsill. As I sat down, I glanced at the Swans house. It was dark and looked peaceful, they were so lucky in having Charlie as a father.

He wouldn't care if they wanted to study music. All he wanted for them was the best in life. I wandered what Bella wanted to study after school. Emmett, wanted to become a lawyer and was heading to Harvard. Rose would join him but she was going to study Mechanics. She would kill me, of course, if I told this to anybody. Alice was going the fashion route and Jasper was going to study physiology. I never thought about what Bella would do after school, not that we were friends or anything nearly close to friends that would enable me to ask her.

She usually ignored me and I never minded this fact until about two years ago. It was her sixteenth birthday and I only showed up at her party because I knew it would irritate her. She was walking in front of me and slipped, I caught her just in time. I held her against me and when she regained her balance, she mumbled something and turned out of my embrace. My arms felt so empty without her and it confused me. I ignored it and never thought about it again until last year. Jacob finally found the courage to ask her out and she accepted. I wanted to rip Jacob to pieces with my bare hands and was yet again confused. It was a week later, on this very windowsill, that I finally figured out that I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with the girl next door.

She doesn't know it of course. She just doesn't know how many nights I spent tossing and turning, just thinking about her. I knew that she was with Jacob and that she was happy with him. I would never take that happiness away from her. We always argue but it keeps me from telling her just what an asshole Jacob Black really is. She'll find out soon enough, it's a wonder he kept it a secret for so long. I still have something he would never have. I have her bedroom window across from mine, that's why I never close my curtains. It's the last thing I see when I go to sleep and the first thing I see when I wake up. I sighed and went to bed. I wished that someday I could wake up next to her for the rest of my life.

I woke to the sound of my alarm way to soon. It felt like I just fallen asleep. I was tossing and turning the whole night. When I did eventually fall asleep, I woke up when Carlisle returned home. Normally I didn't have any sleeping problems and the result to last night's troubles was that I was easily agitated. I dressed quickly and went down to the kitchen where Alice made some breakfast.

"Morning, what's for breakfast?" I asked as I entered the kitchen. Alice was busy in front of the stove.

"Morning, just some pancakes. I didn't have…did you have a late night?" She asked when she caught sight of my face. I could just imagine what I looked like.

"No, I had an early morning." I grumbled as I helped myself to some pancakes.

"Ah…I thought the all-nighter was tonight. Too bad, I missed it. On the other hand, maybe it's good that I missed it. I don't want to look like a zombie at school." I just grunted and finished my breakfast. I wasn't in the mood for jokes.

We left soon after breakfast for school, I was still in a foul mood and I took it out on my car, which meant that we arrived at school much earlier than usual. I saw an old bus in the school parking lot.

Great I forgot that we were going on an outing to the town museum today.

We joined the small group of seniors at the bus and waited for our friend's arrival. Jasper and Rosalie were the first ones to join us. Jasper immediately pulled Alice into a hug.

"Good morning Edward." He said to me over her shoulder. I just nodded to him. He turned his full attention to Alice. He was really a great friend, he instinctively knew when to leave me alone or when I was irritated. He simply kept people out of my way and from bothering me.

I spotted the big Jeep first. I couldn't believe Charlie actually bought that thing for Emmett and Bella. He should have known that she would never want to drive it. They parked between my and Rose's cars and walked over to join us.

"Hey guys." Bella greeted us all in one sentence. We responded each with our own greetings.

Bella stopped a few feet from me, Emmett walked over to Rosalie to give her a hug. I couldn't keep my eyes off Bella. She looked amazing. She wore blue skinny jeans and a matching blue jacket. You could just make out some form of white shirt underneath the jacket. I looked away before she caught me staring at her. As I turned my face away, I saw Jacob walking up behind her, he slid his arms around her waist.

"Good morning beautiful." Jacob said in her ear before he kissed her neck. I wanted to gag. Of all the idiotic love names, he could choose from, he chose beautiful. I would have chosen love or just settled for her name. She smiled at him and I had to resist the urge to punch him. Luckily, for me our history teacher arrived.

"Come on class and board the bus. Let us not wait for the grass to grow. Mr. Black, no physical contact at school." I smiled to myself as I heard Jacob groan and saw him drop his hands from her waist.

We filed into the bus and I just happened to sit in the seat behind Bella. I could see the lighter strands of brown in her mahogany hair. How I longed to run my fingers through them and feel if it was as soft as it looked. She turned around and looked at my face frowning a little.

Great what did I do now?

"Are you ok Edward?" She asked suddenly.

OK this wais a first.

I glanced at her frowning, I wasn't in the mood to figure out why she was so interested in my well-being and nor did I want to tell her why I couldn't sleep. Well, there's just one way to get her off my back.

"What do you care?" I sneered at her and turned away from her, it hurt me a little to be rude to her but it's not as if we were friends or anything.

"You're right, I don't care. As if anyone cares why you look like shit." She shot back and began a conversation with Jacob. I took out my iPod and turned up the volume, about twenty minutes later we arrived at the museum. I sighed putting away my iPod and joined the others in the foyer.

This is going to be the most boring day ever.

Somehow, I wound up standing behind Bella and my sister. "Alice is everything ok?" Bella asked my sister.

What was with her. She never even acknowledged my existence now all of a sudden she was concerned about me.

Alice smiled at her but even I could see that it was totally fake. "Of course Bella. Why would there be something wrong?" Jeez Alice couldn't you be more convincing.

"Just asking, Edward just seems run down." Bella said and Alice just shrugged. Alice walked away and left Bella alone.

"What is your problem Swan?" I suddenly whispered in her ear causing her to jump. "Usually you ignore me and that suited me just fine, so why are you interested in my sleeping habits?" We followed the rest of the class and stopped in front of some old statue.

"Since your music keeps me awake at night! I can't believe how selfish you are. Are you just arrogant or should we add obnoxious too?" She whispered back angrily glaring at me. Was my music really that loud? I thought for about a millisecond before I remembered that she insulted me.

"Both, so mind your own beeswax." I sneered at her and walked off. I didn't look at her until I stood at the far side of the class. She was inhaling deeply to calm herself.

Well done Edward, once again you're a total asshole in her eyes.

She joined the class and I turned away from her. I listened for about ten minutes to the old tour guide before I decided he was talking a lot of bullshit and slipped on my earphones for my iPod.

Five hours later and we were on our way back to school. I looked for another place to sit on the bus, I didn't want to sit anywhere near the happy couple. Unfortunately, the only empty space was next to Mike Newton. I sighed and sat down. I despised Mike Newton. The only thing he was interested in was with whom he could sleep with. He had his sights on Bella some time ago. Let's just say my fist quickly persuaded him to let go of that idea. The last school bell rang just as we pulled into the school parking lot. Great at least school was over. I followed the flow out of the bus and somehow once again wound up behind Bella.

"Come on Bells. Rose is coming over and my room is a mess." I heard Emmett say as soon as we got out of the bus. He grabbed her arm towing her to his Jeep.

"Ok Emmett, I'm coming. I can walk on my own you know." She said and he released her arm. I swore under my breath as I saw Bella lose her balance.

Emmett you ass! Couldn't you think about the fact that she could fall over?

Of all the people in the school, Bella had to be the one who could stumble over flat surfaces. Without thinking, I moved forward and caught her before she could hit the ground. I slipped my arms around her and crushed her against me. I relished in the thought of how good she felt against me. She was so soft and warm. I could even smell her floral scent. Her hair smelled like strawberries, after we regained our balance I relaxed my arms a little but kept them around her waist. I just couldn't seem to let her go. I wanted to freeze time and keep her there, against me, forever.

She looked up and froze. I could see realization flash across her deep brown eyes. Obviously, she hadn't known who saved her. Of course, she would never willingly stand in my embrace.

"I know you attract any kind of misfortune in a twelve mile radius but can you at least watch where you're walking?" I said rudely. She was still frozen and this was unlike her. "Are you ok? Did you hurt yourself or something?" I asked concerned not worrying about how it may sound to her.

"I'm fine. Uh…thank you." She was still looking in my eyes. I could drown in those brown pools.

"Bella, are you ok? I forgot you're so clumsy. I should have been more careful, I'm sorry." Emmett said freeing her from the trance she seemed to be lost in.

Yes, Emmet you should be more careful.

She pushed against my chest with her hands softly and I remembered my arms were still around her, holding her to me. I dropped my arms from her waist. "Yes I'm fine. Edward saved me from a rather embarrassing moment. Don't worry about it Emmett."

Jacob also reached us now and slipped his arms around her waist. "Are you ok beautiful? Thanks for catching her Edward." Jacob thanked me as Bella nodded to answer his question. I ground my teeth as Jacob kissed her in the neck.

"Sure whatever, see you tomorrow." I said and walked to my car, I didn't notice I was clenching my fists until I felt my nails bite into my palms. I wanted to be the person to comfort her.

I got into my car and waited for Alice to join me. This time round I drove slower. Carlisle would be home from work and I didn't have the power to argue with him. "So Edward, when are you going to tell Bella how you feel about her?" Alice asked suddenly. I almost swerved into the car next to me from surprise.

How did Alice know how I felt about Bella?

"I don't know what you're talking about."

Alice grunted, "Uh huh! By that reaction I'm going to ignore your last statement".

I glanced at her. "Never, ok! She is happy with Jacob and I'm not going to mess with that." I said and concentrated on not driving into anyone else.

"So now you're unhappy."

I sighed. "Just drop it ok, I don't want to talk about my love life with you." I pulled into our driveway and turned off the car.

Carlisle's Mercedes wasn't here, for the first time I was glad his job took so much of his time. I walked to the living room and turned on the TV. I skipped through the channels and could find absolutely nothing to watch. I turned it of and walked to my piano, I started playing a composition I worked on for the last month or so. It wasn't finished yet but it had some promise. I still had to find a name for it. I made some progress with the piece by the time Esme arrived home from work.

She brought pizza with her. "Hey, sorry I'm late but I had a complicated surgery that ran a bit late, your father will be home soon." She said as we joined her in the dining room table.

"Hey mom, don't worry. The pizza makes up for it." She smiled as we ate hungrily.

"Edward I heard the piece you were playing. It sounded beautiful. Is that what you're going to play for the scholarship?" She asked taking a bite of her pizza.

"I don't know what I'll be playing yet. Have you told dad about the scholarship?"

She sighed. "Yes, he's still pretty upset. He just can't seem to grasp that you don't want to be a doctor." Alice grunted a rather un-Alice like grunt.

"And you?" I asked hopefully.

"I just want you to be happy, both of you." We smiled at her. We had the sweetest mother in the whole world.

After dinner, I took a shower and relaxed on my bed with my favorite book. I could totally get lost in the fictional world and usually forgot about my surroundings. I smiled as I read how the main characters in the book shouted at each other reminding me of Bella and I, when Carlisle walked into my room.

"You applied for a scholarship. Making it seem like we can't afford to send you to university." I looked at him quirking my eyebrow.

Yesterday he didn't want to pay for it, and now he was worried about our family's reputation?

I just looked at him waiting for him to calm down. "I have never been this disappointed in you."

That did it. "Says the man, who refused to pay for his son's studies! I knew you wouldn't pay for it! That's why I applied for the scholarship!" I screamed at him.

He looked shocked and turned on his heel walking out of my room. He slammed the door and the noise it caused bounced of the walls. I punched my bed covers next to me in frustration. This was so fucked up. I placed my book on my bedside table and turned of the lamp. I glanced at Bella's window and wished I could be there with her instead of here.

I don't know when I fell asleep but the next thing I knew was that someone was shaking me.

"Come on. Time to wake up, sleeping beauty." I groaned and something tickled my nose.

"Bella wake up!" I shot up and stared at Emmett.

What the fuck, why was Emmett in my room?

"Finally, I almost thought you were dead."

I frowned. "Why are…" I was shocked into silence when I heard a different voice than my own come from my mouth.

"Bella maybe you should go wash your face. You look disoriented this morning."

Bella? Why was he calling me Bella?

Emmett walked out of the room and closed the door behind him. I looked down and something fell over my face. I moved my hand pushing it out of my face and to my amazement found that it was soft sleek hair.

What the fuck was going on here?

I spotted a full-length mirror against an open cupboard door and jumped from the bed. In my hurry to get to the closet, my feet were caught in the bed sheets and I fell, face first on the floor. I felt a burning pain in my left wrist and saw that it was bandaged.

When did I hurt my wrist?

I untangled my feet and walked over to the closet. I stared and stared and then stared some more. I still couldn't believe my eyes. I raised my hand and Bella did exactly the same movement. I opened my mouth and saw a gawking Bella.

Holy crap, I was Bella.

I dropped my eyes and stared at the two small bumps on her chest. How easy would it be to lift her shirt and…

No stop that this instant Edward. You're stuck in a girl's body, in Bella's body and all you can think about is looking at her breasts? Wait, where is Bella? Bella, are you in here with me?

I thought aloud in my, no Bella's, head. I waited as if I expected her to answer me. If someone saw me now, they would probably lock me up and throw away the key.

Think Edward, maybe you're dreaming. Yes, this is just a bad dream, you're going to wake up any minute now.

I leaned forward pressing my hands on the wall and cringed in pain. Stupid I forgot about the injured wrist.

Wait! There shouldn't be pain in dreams.

I turned around and scanned the room. I spotted her cell phone charging on her study table. I began walking over to the table and was almost there when I hit the floor again.

"Dammit Bella, you're clumsy." I stood up and grabbed her phone. I dialed my cell phone number and waited.

Please be Bella. Please be Bella.

I said repeatedly in my head.

"Hello" I listened in wonder at my voice. Crap, this is going to be awkward.

"Bella please tell me that's you." I said hoping that it didn't sound as crazy as I thought.

"Yes, it's me. Edward Cullen, what did you do to me?" She shouted into the phone and my relief only lasted a few seconds as rage took over.

"Great, Bella! Of course, it's my fault. I wanted to end up in your body." Shit Bella was in my male body.

"Ok, ok…uh I'll get dressed and come right over, just don't do anything Edward." Get dressed? She was going to get dressed? This was getting weirder every minute. Well at least she will be the first girl to see me naked. I imagined this differently…Focus Edward.

"Just hurry, ok?" I ended the call.

Well if she was going to dress me, I might as well dress her. I walked over slowly to her dresser hoping I wouldn't eat some floor again.

A/n ok so the second chapter is finally finished. This was just so you could see how different they were and how different their family's are. Bella is complete caretaker of hers and Edward has a few issues with Carlisle.

Thanks for the reviews it really brightened up my day. Thanks for the people who added the story to their favorites and alert's list.

I would also like to thank my wonderful beta, Princes Blair Rose, for editing and polishing this chapter to perfection. Be sure to check out the story she's writing "Bella Cullen" it's great.

Thanks for reading.