I don't know why or how, but this is just how I feel. I just need to feel and see fire, no matter the cost. This strange feeling never happened before, and I never heard of it happening to anyone either.

Sometimes, I can hear a small comanding voice saying, 'Burn it, burn it now!' in my head when I look at something, even people.

That's the part that scares me the most. I thought while eating my breakfast. I could ask Donnie about it, but I doubt he would know anything, and he would probably take these thoughts as some kind of threat. I huffed. I think I might just wait and see. I'll just tell Donnie if it gets worse. I sighed, I probably should say something, but I can't.I don't know why, but I just... can't.

"Hello? Earth to Audrey?" I heard a sarcastic voice ask. I instantly snapped out of my haze and looked up at a confused and angry Casey.

"Huh?" I said stupidly.

"Duh! I asked you if you wanted to go see a movie with April and me!" Casey said, now more mad than confused.

"Umm, sure." I said blankly. Casey gestured for me to follow him, April, and him and I left for the movies.

OoOoO

I had no emotion on my face, none, but anger. The others and I were in the middle of a Kraang fight. The Kraang developed a fire weapon that supposed to something... I don't know, I wasn't paying attention, mainly due to the fact that they kept using the word fire. So, obviosly I wasn't very happy. It didn't help that the whole place was on fire! I hated every single thing that was happening at that moment.

Once the Kraang were defeated, Leo iddn't hesitate and started to put out the fire.

Before I could stop myself I screamed at him on the top my lungs, "NO!"

Leo stopped and everyone looked at me in shock. For some reason, instead of getting embaressed or saying 'sorry,' I was wearing a look of anger on my face. My hands were gripped in fists and fire burned hot from them.

"Wh-what do you mean 'no!?" Leo asked, clearly not happy.

I walked up him and yelled, "DO NOT PUT OUT THAT FIRE!"

Now Leo was white with fear. I raised my hand to strike and... everything turned black.

OoOoO

I opened my eyes and saw a bright light hovering over me. Once my eyes got clearer I noticed it was a lamp hanging from the ceiling. I looked around and relized that I was in Donnie's lab. I tried to get up but I noticed that my arms and legs were tied to the 'medical bed' that I was on. I also saw that my hands were covered by some weird metal gloves that (yes, I checked) were fire resistant.

I'm going to kill Donnie for this. I sighed. I deserved this though. I scared everyone to death the other night.

That's when I heard foot steps coming to the lab and I froze. I saw an eye peak in. Then the door opened and Donnie walked in.

I narrowed my eyes, "Thanks for trusting me, Donnie."

"I'm sorry, Audrey. But can you blame me." Donnie said calmly. I didn't answer but my eyes stayed narrow. He sighed and went to a nearby table, grabbed some keys and started to get me out of my metal prison.

Once I was out he asked, "What happened back there?"

I took a deep breath, "Look, I think that I was just tried or something, because I honestly don't know."

Obviously not the answer he wanted, Donnie huffed, "Ok, but if think of anything, you let me know, got it?"

I nodded and got up and headed for the door.

Why!? Why did I lie!? Donnie's smart, if anyone is going to find out about what is actually going on, it's him.

As soon as I walked out, Mikey and Leo's eyes darted in my direction. Mikey looked terrified and Leo was practicly boiling with anger. I rolled my eyes walked to the kitchen. Only Raph was in there, which probably sounds like a good thing.

"Hey, Bami." Raph said carefully. I narrowed my eyes at his statement and didn't say anything. "So what? Are mad at me?" he asked.

"Why would I be mad at you!?" I snapped at him.

"I don't know, you tell me."

"Look, last night was a memory that's a thousand times worst for me than for all of you guys combined! I don't know why I did the thing that I did! I was probably just tired so all of you guys stop acting like I belong in some mental hospital!" I yelled.

Raph's gaze softened and his sholders fell in defeat. I rush of gulit went over me and I looked at the ground. Raph walked over to me and gave me a big hug.

"I'm sorry, Bami. I should have figured last night would have been hard for you."

I felt tears forming at his soft and gentle words. I pulled away from his hug and before I even could think of doing anything else I pulled him into a hard and passtionate kiss. Raph hesitated at the sudden hardness but finally returned the kiss. He wrapped one of his arms around my lower back and the other was planted gently on my neck.

After what seemed like forever, we pulled apart.

"I really needed that." I said before I could stop myself, and Raph just laughed and nodded.

How could I put him through what I did? I thought to myself as I walked to the fridge. Heck, how could I put any of them through that? Ever since I knew them, they all have been so good to me... especially Raph. I sighed as I got out an orange. After getting to know Raph for a while, I learned what April had told me was completly true, and that I was indeed, really lucky to have him. So how could I even think of throwing it all away like did last night. Maybe I really was tired. No, I know what happened, and what happened can't ever happen again, because if it did, then I would have to tell the others, and then I would have to kiss all this trust goodbye.

OoOoO

After the whole incident was done with I made a deal with the boys. I would start medatating daily, and the others had to stop giving me looks, being careful of what they say to me, and act as though it never happened. Which, they were happy to do for me. If there is one thing the boys (including Casey) loved to do, it's spoiling April and I. Like, the other day, we were eating pizza, and they were fighting about the last slice and I mentioned that I was still hungrey, and they didn't hesitate to give it to me (well, Mikey didn't).

Anyway, I actually liked metatating a lot. It really helped me with my fire issue. I still get the urge to set something on fire, but not people, and I'm having that weird dream less and less. Outside of my fire problems, it also helps calm me down and actually got me closer to Leo and Splinter. Leo and I were friends, but we were not very close. Now, since we always wake up before everyone else, we go to the dojo and metatate together. It got Slinter and I closer, because he taught how to do it and him and I have tea, and talk. I learned about him before he was mutated, about his wife and daughter which, I'm not going lie, I had to fight back the tears when he told me.

Donnie also warmed up to me because of what happened. Now, he asks me about how I'm doing, if anything is bothering me, or if there is anything he can do to help. He lets me watch him do his work and sometimes, he asks me for my help, because I'm actually smarter than I give myself credit. (At least, that's what Doinnie says.)

Raph didn't change all that much around me. I would say that he respects my space more. But still, he knows how to treat me. He's not clingy and relizes that since four of my five best friends are male, he needs to learn to not be jealous, which he does a good job of. I myself, can be clingly but I'm trying my hardest to not be clingy with him. He told me, 'I'm not clingy, so you don't be.' which I can agree to and he says I'm doing a good job giving him space, so I suppose I'm doing it right.

Mikey and Casey did not change at all. The day after the day that it happened, they acted as though it never happened. Which I kinda needed. Mikey was still his usual goofy self, and Casey was... Casey. April didn't act different which, with her and I being the only girls, is definatly a good thing.

So, everything was fine, for the moment.

I'm sorry this one took a while, and I'm not consistant on publishing chapters. I'm starting think of some kind of schedule so I can keep things in order! Anyway, thank you for reading!