Never Giving You Up

Rated T

All mistakes are mine

Don't own anything


Robin sat on KF's bed. It smelled like him. He wanted his friend back. He wanted his best friend, his love, his Wally back. He had never thought of Wally like that before, as a lover. Not until after Wally had already made the sacrifice.

But now Kid was gone, Wally was gone and he was alone.

"Stupid idiot." Robin said to himself. "You weren't supposed to leave me. It was supposed to be you and me. Always. Now it's just... Me."

"Argh!" he flipped over the former speedster's desk. He hated this. Wally was gone, he was gone, and it was Robin's stupid careless fault.

He fell to the floor and wrapped his arms around himself. "I miss you Wally. God do I miss you."

Robin looked at the mess on the floor. He pulled himself together enough to clean it up. KF's room would be just how Wally left it for whenever the red head came back.

And he was coming back damn it.

Somewhere in all the mess there was an envelope with his name on. His real name.

'Dick'

"Whoa" he let out a breath and sat on the bed, envelope clutched in his hand. Wally knew? He knew who he was and never said anything?

Robin, Dick, ripped it open and pulled out a letter.

'Hey dude'

Of course that's how Wally would start a letter.

I found out about your secret ID, I thought I should tell you that first cause it's probably what you're most concerned about.

It wasn't. He was more worried about Wally. The ID thing was just a mild curiosity.

I found out a while ago, back before Young Justice. A kid from the circus adopted by a rich guy in the same city as a kid that flips across rooftops and a Bat with expensive toys? It wasn't too hard to figure out. It helped that I knew you inside and out though. Your laugh, the way you'd smirk when you thought civilians were incompetent.

I had seen you practice and I'd caught footage of what happened at the circus. It was too similar for it not to be you. And really Rob? The circus? That's awesome, wish you would've told me. I always wanted to go to one.

Anyway, your secret is safe. I never told anyone. I wish I had gotten to see those blue eyes in person though. It's ok, I still knew you better than anyone else, and that's enough for me.

Robin smiled. It was true, Wally really did know him inside and out.

Listen, I don't know what went down. I don't know how things ended, but if I'm gone then I need you to be ok.

And I need you to know that I love you. Not like a best friend, not like a brother. I'm in love with you. I need that to be clear.

If that scares you or pisses you off, I'm sorry. I just, I don't know, somewhere along the way I fell for you, for my best friend and the most amazing person I've… I had ever known. I didn't want to flirt with every girl I saw, I wanted to flirt with you. To hold your hand, to kiss your cheek, to hold you.

Stupid right?

"No, it's not." Robin answered Wally's question even though he knew it didn't make a difference now.

On the off chance that you didn't rip this to shreds and burn everything I owned... I'm not sorry I'm gone. As long as I saved someone in the end then I'm not sorry and I won't apologize. And if I did it to save you, then I'm glad. I wouldn't live without you. I couldn't.

There were so many missions I would distract myself with watching over you. Keeping tabs on you, catching stray bullets instead of leaving them deflected, carrying around extra medical supplies instead of snacks.

"Kid Idiot." Robin muttered. Wally should've been taking care of himself.

I would train harder when you weren't here. Tried to be better, faster. And when you would finally get to the mountain I'd spend every minute possible with you.

We're heroes Dick,

Robin's breath hitched when Wally wrote his name. He wish he could've heard him actually say it, just once.

and we know that we may not come back from the next mission. It comes with the job, and we knew that from the start. That each day might be the last chance we get to say everything that needs to be said.

Robin looked at the letter, words started to blur together. He didn't realize he had started crying.

But sometimes it's hard to say everything at once. That's why I wrote this for you. So that you can know what I wanted to say but never got the chance to. Because if it was the last thing I did, it was making sure you came home.

If there is the slightest chance of me returning (cause we've seen weirder right?) then know I'll do everything in my power to get back to you. But man, do not obsess over this like Bruce and Barry will. Don't lose your laugh, or your jokes, or you whelming (yeah, I said it) personality. Otherwise there really is no reason for me to come back, you wouldn't be Robin anymore. You wouldn't be the boy I fell in love with.

Alright, I'm done. We're going to the beach tomorrow and I want to be up early enough to see you when you first get up. You're the only person I know that can make 'bed-head' adorable. I wonder if you'll look back and remember that trip to the beach when you read this. Or if there will be so many that it's impossible to tell which one I mean.

Regardless, I love you Dick. And I'm not sorry.

Wally West

The letter crinkled in his hand. Robin panicked, thought he had torn the last thing KF had said to him. He hadn't. It was smudged in some spots from tears, and a little rough around the edges, but still whole.

Robin lay back on Wally's bed. The pillow smelled like the speedster's shampoo, like coconut and iris. Dick had called it girlie, Wally just thought it was funny that it had his Aunt's name on it.

Dick thought back to the beach day Wally had mentioned in the letter. It's true, there were a lot. But the 'bed-head' comment narrowed it down.


He had rolled out of bed and grabbed his shades. Didn't change from his sweat pants or brush his hair. He smelled pancakes, and that was way more important than how he looked.

Walking into the kitchen he saw the red headed boy expertly flip the delicious breakfast in the air. Looking at the ceiling you could see spots where mistakes had been made.

Robin smirked.

He must have made a sound because Wally turned around and gave him one of the biggest smiles he could remember.

"Morning. Nice hair."

"Shuddup." Robin yawned.

KF laughed. "Pancake? I made chocolate chip..."

Wally knew those were his favorite and that Batman looked down upon sweets. Damn speedster probably did this to make him get outta bed after a late night of video games. Which meant it was Wally's fault that he looked the way he did.

"You were actually in the same room as chocolate and didn't inhale it? Impressive."

"Well someone is cranky. Shut up and sit down before I change my mind and do just that."

Robin laughed and took a seat. Wally placed a stack of deliciousness in front of him and smiled. Those green eyes never wavering. It would've been weird if anyone else had stared at him like that for long.


Dick let out a laugh that sounded more like a sob. Knowing Wally, Rob was probably manipulated like that a lot. He didn't mind, he had some of the best moments of his life with the speedster.

He stayed in KF's room for a while, clutching the pillow and rereading the letter. He could practically hear Wally's laugh, his voice. See those green eyes shine when he smiled.

Robin whispered a promise to himself. "I'm getting you back Wally. And I'm never letting you go again you stupid jerk. You don't get to leave me that easily."


AN: ok, so that's my update. like i said, i had planned on leaving it as a one-shot but you guys asked for more, so ta-da! anyway, this was a super update (uploaded the same day), idk where this story is going so i'm not sure when i'll update again.

if there is anything you really want to see in this story then let me know, i'll prob look into how Barry is doing in the next chapter.

thanks for the reviews, they keep me writing.