Chapter 2-
I open my eyes, there's a light illuminating my bedroom, a slight smile formed on my parched lips, what happened while my eyes were closed? I wonder. I glimpse a pink nursery baby next to my bed, my smile crumbles, there's no baby there. And then I remember Kaya, one of the mistakes I made with Cato. My clothes are exchanged, my hair is wet. My feet touch the ground, I'm going for the needle who is compressed with the serum.
I do squeegee handle, and finally my vision is sharper. The voice of Caesar Flickerman is audible. "Mom?" I go down the stairs, reaching out to the living room. Gald is holding Kaya with Enobaria's help.
Her eyes meet mine. "She's beautiful. And has Cato's eyes and your lips, " Enobaria smiles at me. Within seconds her arms are wrapping me, I hug her back.
"What Caesar was talking about?"
"He was announcing the birth. Cato sampled her for the cameras, if you don't mind. "
I swing my head in agreement. "I do care, but nobody told me before, right?" I grab my coat and put my boots. "You can take care of her while I go look for my mom?" I asks after opening the door. Yes or no, I would go anyway.
"Of course, but the doctor said you need to stay home."
"Okay," I close the door. My skin is paler still. I blow my hands and remember that I didn't take my gloves, but I won't go back there.
I walk to school, there's a swing in the playground, where I immediately sit. How did I end up here? My hands are steady in the chain and I cross my legs. I'm so lonely. There isn't a noise, this time people are in their homes if warming up in their blankets. I can hear the sound of my beating heart. Help.
A boost in the swing push me, my hands slide down the chain. Maybe then I can die this way. A muscular arm holding my chest and I don't fall. Cato sits on the swing next to mine with a silly smile on his face. I am so angry at him. He didn't even care to know his daughter. Maybe I also don't want this to occur.
I turn my face towards him, I'm never going to be able to see him in the same way that I saw. He was just my friend, and there were rumors that I was in love with him, I imagined the two of us together, I'd be the girl he would marry. Now, all I feel is guilt. I saw him kill people without batting an eye, he doesn't care about me or Kaya. I won't be able to take care of her myself. And my mom has better things to do.
"Hi," he says after a devastating silence.
My heart hurts, I get up. I'm more embarrassed than upset. My thoughts are in my eyes, I remember every time I watched him and Santan, envying her.
"Clove, wait!"
He's following me again, I hate when he does that. I want to be alone and he can't accept that.
I turn my body to him, "Stop following me Cato, you already got what you've always wanted to win. Now, please, leave me alone, please," I don't even start talking and I collapse. I'm crying already. Maybe Enobaria was right, I should be resting.
He pulls me, I let my body go. I don't know any movement, I'm exhausted. My body is pressed against his with strength. I whimper rather than prevent it. I'm completely silent when his lips seal mine. Again my body is being driven by him. He buries my face in his neck as he hugs me. His skin is so warm that I don't even care. He offers me his coat, but I refuse.
Finally I carry some movement, I pull away my body from his, without looking at it I still go my way home. That kiss swept through my tears, I know won't happen again.
"You." I hear a female voice calling out to me. When I look back, Santan is coming to me, she's with a pout on her lips. She's angry.
She pushes my right shoulder and approaches me, "Just because you have this angel face doesn't mean you're one. You can't fool me, I saw you two on the playground. You owe me a good explanation, "she looks at me from the feet to the head.
I look to the side, we're in front of the school, she is only doing this because everyone's watching. "I have nothing to explain. Maybe you should look in the mirror and see why he kissed me. " I know he did this because he was feeling sorry for me, but I wanted to squander it on her face and confuse her.
I lean my head when my hair is pulled.
"You're lying! Maybe the baby isn't his. And just because I said it, don't stab me, "she unleashed a laugh.
I can't help but to push her. She falls to the ground. I didn't even know I'm so strong now, or she's so weak. Everyone is laughing, "Oh my God, I'm sorry," I say.
She grabs my hand to help her, and throws me to the ground. It's not more than that, she just wanted to return the attack. I realize that everyone is staring at me, I don't move a muscle. I'm all sore and all I wanted to do was sleep, sleep till the sun goes down. My face is steeped in the snow, I can't even move the corner of my mouth or opening my eyes. I don't feel any hand holding my body, but I know that I am moving.
