A/N: Thanks so much for the interest! Here is the next chapter, it is a bit depressing, so far warning.
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"Real life"
"So this one was actually really sad." Lyn says as she takes a walk outside, talking to her friend Jaime on the phone once more. It was a nice day and she felt the need to keep herself busy and occupied, especially after a day like she has had. First this very sad dream, then she had to help put down a dog at practice, and the poor owners had done everything they could to help him. That's life, and she was the one who signed up for this job and did everything in her power to get there.
"What one? What are you talking about?" Jaime asks on the other end, annoyed at her friend's usual way of bringing up different topics.
"A dream. It was another dream about Cas. He was only in it in the first scene, but then the scenes changed again and he wasn't there." Lyn says as she continues walking. She didn't feel weird talking about it since there wasn't anyone else outside for a walk today. Her neighbors all had something they were doing that was more important that enjoying a pleasant day like it was outside.
"You had another one? I thought it was just a onetime type of deal." Jaime says in a quizzical tone.
"I thought so too, but apparently not. I wish I had just had the one. This one felt just as real as the first, and this one hit home, Jaime. It really hurt. I wanted to cry when I woke up and I was happy it wasn't real." Lyn explains, talking over the sound of a lawnmower setting to work in the distance. "And what I found weird was you and Layla were in it, too."
Oddly enough, she passed by a tree that was planted the previous year in hopes to take off, but the poor sapling never survived the winter, now left as a sickly looking skeleton in comparison to the nearby plant life. How very fitting, Lyn thought to herself grimly.
"Well that certainly is interesting. Would you mind telling me about it? Or was it too personal? I don't want to strike a chord." Jaime asks on the other side of the conversation.
"No, believe me, my chord has been struck so many times today, it wouldn't matter. I can tell you about it."
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Dream sequence 2; Barren Tree Pt 1
They were older, married, in a seemingly picture perfect married life, and they had just arrived home after learning about their news, their predicament. And immediately Lyn broke down the second they were in the house and collapsed in his arms. The door hadn't even closed when she couldn't contain her sadness any longer. Cas, however, was quick to close the door and hide the shame that was to come should it have remained open. While onlookers might have thought he seemed just the same as he always was, just as blank faced and stoic, internally he was breaking down just as hard as Lyn was.
Cas held her in his arms and led her over to the couch, not wanting to make her go much farther, and they both sat there, both dealing with the news in their own way. She wept against him, sobbing, each breath seeming to be agonizingly painful due to its force. Cas just held her, his mind troubled with worry for her and sadness over their situation. How he wanted to help, he wanted to help so much, but there was little else he knew to do. How can someone help after such devastating news? And so he allowed his shirt to become her personal towel to wipe her tears on. It was such a small price to pay, he thought as he gently rubbed her back, letting her know he was there for her. And slowly, ever so slowly, she realized that fact and it weakened her sobs and gasps for breath into soft weeping.
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Dream sequence 2; Barren Tree Pt 2
The three of them just returned from a car cruise, which had begun when the sun went down. It was a nice time, the cars all looked lovely in the dying light of the sun, and the show was spectacular to behold. Lyn seemed off, though. She just wasn't quite herself. She used to always enjoy car cruises and car shows so much, but today she just didn't seem right. And Jaime and Layla noticed almost immediately, though they stayed quiet the night to see if they had just imagined things. That and they didn't want to ruin a good time with unsettling or upsetting topics.
So now, as they returned to their cars in the back of the parking lot after the cruise, it was Jaime to speak up. "Lyn, are you okay?" She asked, her usual tone of mirth and calmness rising to one of concern and genuine care for her friend.
Lyn paused in her step and looked back at them, trying to comprehend what Jaime had asked her. "You just don't seem like yourself, is something on your mind?" Layla added as they waited for her to catch up.
Lyn wanted to brush it off. She wanted to rid herself of this madness and situation so terribly bad. But she had to face the facts. And she couldn't bottle it up forever. She needed to talk to them. Lyn looked from their faces to the ground and closed her eyes. "No, I am not okay. I just, I had some very bad news earlier this week. I was hoping that going out with you guys tonight might help me, but I just, I can't enjoy anything knowing what… knowing what I know." Lyn explains before looking back up to their calm, patient faces.
"We are here for you if you want to talk" Jaime says encouragingly, wanting to help her friend as best as she could. Layla nods her head in agreement.
Lyn sighs and looks back around the parking lot. No one else was around, really, as they had stuck behind to speak to some of the owners of the cars before they drove off. Lyn looks back to Jaime and Layla before she speaks up. "You both know that me and Cas have been trying to have a baby, right?" to which both of them nod, their faces going grim. "I had told you it wasn't working. Well apparently it won't ever work. It is not a matter of my fertility or anything like that, it is just our bodies won't accept it. My body won't accept it." Lyn says, her voice growing weak and breaking towards the end. "We won't ever be able to have a baby. At least not in a normal sense. We've looked at other options but we are too discouraged right now to even consider it." And by now a couple of tears have slipped by Lyn's wavering control.
"Lyn… Lyn we are here for you. That is such a shame." Jaime says as she comes closer to give her a hug, understanding now why Lyn was so broken.
"And-and I feel so bad. You know I never really wanted kids of my own, but I wanted kids with Cas. I truly did." Lyn, now sobbing, mumbles as she makes an effort to hug Jaime back.
"Shhh, hey, we are here. Maybe we can help you look at some of your options sometime soon? I am sure everything will work out in the end." Layla says as she, too, moves closer to join in hugging Lyn.
"Thank you. I am not sure if we will go through with it, but I can call you to let you know. Thank you." Lyn says as she starts to calm down, pulling away and wiping at her eyes a bit to get some of the tears.
"It is no problem. Seriously, we are always here for you. It probably took a lot for you to tell us anyways." Jaime says before Layla adds "And we appreciate you telling us what is going on. Otherwise, we wouldn't be able to help."
Lyn nods as she looks between them, taking a deep breath before giving them a small smile that didn't reach her eyes. "Thank you for listening."
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Returning to "real life"
"And that was it. The dream just ends. Like what the hell?" Lyn asks as she gets inside her house, her voice upset and distraught over the entirety of the situation her dream self is in.
"I feel sorry for dream you. That shit is rough." Jaime adds over the phone.
"No kidding." Lyn says with a sigh before running a hand through her hair. "Sorry to drop such an overload on you, but I just had to get it out. It was intense."
"It's no problem, I actually find it really interesting. You will have to let me know what else happens. I hope that dream Layla and I will be able to help you in some way." Jaime says with encouragement and hope in her tone.
"You and me both. Anyways I got to go. But again, thanks for listening. I'll see you later." Lyn says as she goes to sit on the couch.
"No problem. I'll see you later." Jaime says before she hangs up.
Lyn sits on the couch in silence as she takes the phone from her ear and hangs up as well, staring at the phone for a moment as she reflects on that dream. It all felt so real, too real, and she just wanted the feeling to leave her, to be gone. She was actually relieved this was her reality.
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A/N: Yeah that was a feelsfest. Believe me, if it was tough for you readers, it was tough dreaming this stuff. Anyways next chapter will be much more fluffier. And I mean that literally c; just wait to see!
