My Escape

How could they bear it? To stand and watch, enjoy watching, all those people writhing on the floor as pain consumed their entire bodies.

I stood there frozen, not looking at them, shutting my eyes so I wouldn't have to see the result of that one word I had so cruelly spoken, while the death eaters laughed mercilessly and clapped, I wasn't even aware of my father's approving gesture of nodding towards me, showing for the first time in years that I had done something right.

It was only when the Dark Lord himself placed a cold, long-fingered hand on my shoulder that I made any kind of movement, jumping at the scaly touch.

"Well done Draco, I am impressed, I have to say I did not think you would be able to do it" The Dark Lord spoke "But it seems that Lucius has taught you well"

The scaly hands moved up from my shoulder and touched my cheek while I tried my hardest not to throw up, scream or bolt out the room even though I felt like doing all three.

Even with my eyes closed I could almost see the snake-like face smirking as he spoke again. "Look at them Draco, open your eyes and look at the scum. You should be so proud of yourself"

I opened my eyes more out of terror as to what would happen if I disobeyed and certainly not willingly.

I looked down at them then, for the first time I actually looked at them. The faces of the people I had just ruthlessly tortured, who had pleaded with me to stop. There was a young girl in amongst the group, who could only have been about eight, her dirt covered body, her mouth open in a scream that wouldn't stop, tears running an unrelenting river down her pale, innocent skin. What had I done?

The Dark Lord turned to the rest of the group, ordering them all to leave and they did. Grabbing the victims that would most certainly be killed and disposed of; they all apparated out of the room until it was just me and the Dark Lord.

I couldn't look at him, my eyes were fixed on the spot where the girl had been. I felt numb, like a statue I stood in the room, unmoving not even blinking and so cold.

"Until next time Draco" The Dark Lord spoke then he too vanished in a swirl of black, leaving me alone in the deafeningly silent room.

I don't know how long it was, maybe seconds, maybe hours but my whole body began to shake, insistent tremors bringing me to the ground where I began to scream and sob, just like the people here before me, like I was a victim too. I curled up into a foetal position on the cold stone floor clutching at my head, silently begging myself to wake up from this tormenting nightmare.

Sometime later the door to the dungeon creaked open, a sliver of light reaching into the room.

My mother stood in the doorway a look of sadness and pain creasing her flawless features.

"Draco?" she spoke softly.

I couldn't take it. Pulling myself out of my hysterical state for the few seconds I could, I stood and bolted past her up the stairs, stumbling from my clouded vision, to my room where I promptly collapsed onto my bed and fell unconscious.

When I became conscious again it was still dark, though I knew chances of sleep would never come to me. My mind was replaying those screams over and over and no matter how hard I squeezed my eyes shut, the images of that little girl remained etched in my eyes.

How could I have done something like that? How could I ever have wanted to become a death eater? How could those men torture innocent young people without the slightest hint of mercy?

But how can I accuse them? How am I any better than them? I stood there and tortured – tortured - people who had done nothing to deserve it. I'm no more human than Voldemort anymore.

Questions like those replayed through my mind as I stood up and walked over to my desk. Reaching out, I picked up a small clear packet, opened it and pulled out a bright red capsule. Looking at it I began to cry again.

What had I become?

Then I put it in my mouth and swallowed and went to sit against the wall in the corner of my room, letting the affects of the drug wash over me.

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