Well sorry it took kinda long, i couldn't decide on which way i wanted the story to go, i actually had a original version of this chapter, but after a lot of thinking i decided that this is at least a little bit better, sort of.
I do not own anybody from the WWE. I just own my OC Kristian (Catalyst) and the story.
Enjoy.
"DAMN IT!" I sighed and mentally slapped myself as I paced around Cena's locker room. Now I know what you're thinking; 'What is she doing in Cena's locker room, OMG SHE JUST CHEATED ON JOHN WITH….John?' But that's wrong, actually I wouldn't do that to John at all even though he did it to me, I just can't bring myself to cheat on him. I can't bring myself to bring myself to cheat on anybody even though they well deserve it. I'm actually waiting for Cena to finish up his match, I promised him that I would stick around after the match so we could catch a bite to eat, so I stayed here and showered while he went to prepare for his match. Once i got out the shower i sat on the couch to relax and try to watch the main event. I've been sitting on the couch for well over 5 seconds and I just couldn't sit still. So here I am, burning a hole through the locker room floor. I've managed to keep John and I a secret for a good 2 months now, and I'm pretty sure no one have the slightest clue that we're back together. I want to say that those whole two months has been great, but to tell you the truth I can't. It's been a living hell, John's been the nicest thing to me caring for me, and showing his love but deep down, in my heart I don't love him anymore. I found out after a week we've been together. I couldn't bring myself to break up with him because we've only been together for a week. I've been only torchering myself with that decision though. I sighed heavily and punched the closest wall next to me. "You're a real idiot, ya know that?" I whispered to myself as I leaned my head against the cold wall. I just wanted to cry and curl up in a ball, no better yet hop on a flight and move back to Canada, where no one will find me.
"Um, Kris?" I stood up straight and whipped my head in the direction of the door, finding a very concerned Cena. "Are you ok?"
I put on the best fake smile I could muster and nodded sitting in the chair I abandoned moments before. "I'm fine, everything's ok."
John took a while and examined my facial expression before shrugging his shoulders, "Ok, if you say so." He said going to his gym bag on the bench taking out a pair of his fresh street clothes.
"Why don't you go wait in the car while I take a quick shower?" he threw his keys to me as he walked into the shower room. I sighed and walked out of the locker room. I shuttered as the cold air of backstage hit my arms. I made my way towards the parking lot seeing that there were hardly any cars left.
I waited for him by the car going back to thinking about how I was gonna deal with the whole John situation, I know I just can't tell everybody about us and then break up with him the day later, so maybe I should just break it off with the kid before anybody finds out, less trouble for me. And the less the trouble the better my life would be.
"Hellooooo Earth to Kristian, are you there?" I was awakening out of my trance by Cena waving his hand in front of my face. I shook my head and looked at him with a confused face. "Where were you I've been doing that for about 2 minutes now, are you sure you're ok?"
He stepped back to see my face. I looked into his eyes and then darted mine to the ground. I nodded and walked around to the passage side of the car. "Yeah I'm ok, I was just thinking about something that's all." I gave him a reassuring smile before stepping into the car. He stood outside of the car for a couple of seconds before opening the door and stepping in.
"….ok" He put the key in they engine and made his way out of the parking lot. We drove in silence. I was staring out the window daydreaming of what would happen if I told Phil, Randy, and Stephan, I know they would go on rampage and immediately try to kill John, just for breaking my heart the 1st time we were together. I love how protective they are but sometimes they take it too far. I turned my head to glance over at Cena, who was focused on the Road ahead. I wonder what he was thinking about. I let out a long and heavy sigh aborting my head back to the window. John glanced over at me and gave me a worried face, then turned his head back to the road.
"Ok, what's really wrong with you?" He asked
"Nothing," I quickly stated. He turned his head back over to me, this time with a serious look.
"I'm serious Kris, you're acting kinda weird, and I know something's bothering you, I can see it in your eyes." He said seriously, but there was a bit of amusement in his voice.
"I'm back with John." I mumbled. He took a glance at me then back at the road.
"What's that I couldn't hear you?" I pushed my head on against the glass making it fog up from the breath I exhaled threw my nose.
"I said I'm back with John" I said a little bit louder. Cena just put his hand to his ear and smiled.
"Say that one more time, come on Kris, I'm going deaf you have to talk louder." I was getting angry. How many time was he gonna make me admit I was going back with John?
"Damn it, Cena, I know you heard me the second time! I said I'm back with John!" I raised my voice in frustration. He turned his head towards me, the car coming to a complete stop in front of the restaurant.
"I know I heard you the second time, plus I kind of already knew." He smiled and stepped out of the car. My eye's widened in shock and horror, how did he know? How did he find out, WHEN did he find out? A million thoughts raced through my head, making me feel sick and dizzy. I stepped out of the car and made my way towards him.
"Why would you make me admit it 3 times if you already knew? And how the hell did you find out?" I pointed my finger in his pace. He put his hands up in protest.
"Because I like you pick on you." He put his hands down. "And I know because I saw him walk towards the ring entrance for you match with Melina. I knew he wasn't going for Melina because he's being avoiding her all day, plus I noticed that he's been stealing some glances at you when you were talking to Phil and Randy. So I put 2 +2 together and got the idea that you guys were back together."
I stared at him blankly for a moment trying to process and figure out how he could've notice all of those things. He smiled his signature dimple smile and pulled me towards the restaurant. Ok now I'm starting to think that Cena is some kind of spy or something. He already knew John and I were dating just by noticing small things, and then he made me admit it 3 times. He walked us over to a booth in the back of the restaurant and gave me my menu. We quickly made our orders and waited for the waitress to come back with our food.
"Cena, you're so mean to me sometimes." I stared him in the eyes and he laughed softly
"I know I am," He took a sip of his water "And I told you not to call me Cena if John's not around."
"Sorry I forgot." I smiled and dipped my fingers and my water and splashed it on him sticking my tongue out in the process.
"Oh it's on sister!" He took am ice cube out of his cup, walked behind me and put it down my shirt. I felt the ice slid down, sending chills down my spine, and then it got stuck in my bra.
"OMG, JOHN YOU ASSHOLE, GET IT OUT OF MY BACK!" John laughed hard as he watched me fidget around in my seat. The laughing immediately stopped when the waitress came back with our hamburgers fries and diet cokes. I was still fidgeting around when she looked at me as if I had two heads. I smiled nervously nodding my head in thanks. She smiled and walked away. When she was completely out of sight John started to laugh again, this time joined in.
"Ok for real John get this out of my back." I giggled. John sighed dramatically and took the ice out of my back.
"Thank you, now I could eat!" I exclaimed. John rolled his eyes and went back to eating his burger. A while later the waitress came back over with our check and a milkshake with two straws in it. We looked up at her and she smiled.
"Uh, we didn't order this." John smiled kindly; I nodded my head in agreement
"Oh no it's on the house; I was watching how you guys kept locking eyes and smiling every time each other talk from the kitchen. You are such a cute couple." She smiled again before we could say we weren't a couple she was already walking back towards the kitchen. John and I were frozen in place and then turned out heads towards each other. John was blushing like mad and I could feel myself blush too.
"Uh…should we drink this?" John asked the blush going away slightly. I stared at him and then darted my eyes to the table, blushing deeper.
"I don't know." I said "But it looks too good to waste." He nodded and pushed a straw over to me. We stared at the milkshake for a moment until I moved in for the straw, he followed. Our eyes meet as we took a sip from the glass, and for a moment…and just that moment I felt something there between John and I…something I can't explain or put my finger on it, but it was there. I quickly stopped drinking, and sat up in the booth, I felt myself blush again.
"Um you can have the rest…I don't want it." I smiled nervously "Just hurry up."
He glanced at me before going back to the shake. I stared at him, my mouth was watering, that shake tasted as good as it looked. I don't know why I let him have all of it. Then my eyes went from the shake to John's face, his eyes looking down at the table, but quickly rose up and caught hold of mine. He lips moved away from the straw and smiled nervously.
"Is there anything wrong?" He voice sounded shaky. I caught my breath, trying to think of some reason to tell him, why he caught me staring
"Um…no nothing wrong…" I tried to smile reassuringly, but I know I failed epically
"Oh…alright." He lips captured the straw again, drinking every last bit of it, he pushed the cup aside wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. I handed him the check and he took out his wallet to pay.
"Come on lets get out of here." He got up and walked towards the door. I nodded stood up and followed him out the door. Once in the car he quickly started the engine and drove back to the hotel. We drove in silence, the whole time my mind was on what the waitress said about us, Me and Cena…a couple? Neeh it can't be, but what was that feeling I had when I stared into his eyes back at the restaurant? I can't possibly like him could I?
"Uh John…can I ask you something?"
"Yeah, sure." He glanced over at me "What is it?" I bit by bottom lip, fuck this is hard to ask
"Uh, about what the waitress said...you know what forget it." I sighed heavily and turned my head towards the window. He moved his hand from the stirring wheel and placed it on top of mine. I looked over at him and he smiled. He didn't push the subject and continued to drive. For a few minutes it was silent, his hand was still rested on top of mine, he gave it a slight squeeze. I turned my head towards him and saw he had a serious face.
"I should tell you something important." He glanced over at me again and I stared at him in confusion
"What are you talking about Cena?" his hands became shaky and sweaty.
"I…I love you Kris, I've loved you for 5 years. Remember that 1st mix tag we had?" I smiled as I remembered my 1st match in the WWE, it was the best experience I ever had. I nodded my head letting him know I remembered it.
"After we won the way you smiled up at me and hugged me tightly thanking me for helping you in your first match made me get butter flies. At first I thought it was nothing just a simple case of nervousness. Then I started seeing you around and would say hi to you and you would smile and wave at me and sometimes you'd leave the other Divas just talk to me. That's when I started liking you more. My affections towards you grew while our friendship grew. When I noticed you had a thing for Morrison I felt bad, but I brushed it off. Then you went for him I was heartbroken but I never showed it around you, I wanted you to be happy…and order for you to be happy…I gotta be happy right?" He looked over at me and smiled unevenly. I stared at him, he loved me? I never noticed! God I'm stupid.
"Oh since we're confessing how we feel about stuff can I tell you something too?" I glanced at him and he nodded "Ok well, I don't know if I love John anymore. Yeah I was happy when he asked me out again but over time I started to get this feeling in my stomach, like it's telling me this is all wrong. " I paused for a moment trying to gather up how I felt. "Part of me says I love him and the other half is telling me I can't let him destroy my heart again."
"Once a cheater, always a cheater, but go with what your heart says Kris." He slowed down the car at a red light. "Who do you room with tonight?"
"I room with John," I turned to look over at him. "What about you and the rest of the guys?"
"I room with Adam and Randy roomed with Phil and Stephan in a suite, maybe you and Stephan should switch rooms, I'm sure he wouldn't mind if you tell him what's going on." I nodded again and took Johns hand in mine.
"Thanks for the 'John Cena pep talk'" I smiled and let go of his hand. He pulled into the hotel room and smiled.
"Anytime Kris, I'm always there for you." He got out of the car and opened the back door taking our gym bags in hand. I stepped out of the car and walked near him, taking my gym back. He held out his hand and I gladly laced out fingers together walking back to the hotel. Once we got in we went to the lobby desk and checked in, got our keys and walked towards the elevator. John pressed the up button and smiled down at me, I smiled back halfheartedly. The elevator door dinged signaling its arrival. John pulled me inside and pressed the number six. I became shaky, I hated taking the elevator. I've seen so many scary movies that involve elevators, plus I had a traumatizing incident when I was younger. Cena took notice of my shaking and squeezed my hands.
"I know, just try not to think about it ok?" How could not think about it when it haunts me every time I get on an elevator?
A couple of minutes later the elevator came to a spot on the 6th floor and Cena and I made out ways out of the elevator. Thank god that was over. I let go of Johns hand and wiped pretend sweat off my forehead. Now all I need to do is talk to Steph so we could switch rooms.
"What's Stephan's room number?" I asked John, he looked down at me and scratched his head shrugging. "Well I guess I'll just text him then. I pulled out my phone and made a text to Stephan.
Jan. 2nd 2012 12:12 a.m. To; Steph:)
"Steph, what's your room number? I need to talk to u. It's an emergency."
I was about to press send when I remembered something very important.
"Oh and don't tell Phil and Randy."
I looked up at john and smiled. A minute later I got a text from Stephan:
Jan. 2nd 2012 12:13 a.m. From; Steph:)
"Room 632, I'll be waiting outside for ya."
I smiled up at John and pulled him down the hall looking for 632, and Stephan. Once I found it I gave Cena quick hug and ran over to Stephan, who had a worried look on his face.
"Hey, what's the emergency?" He asked his voice full of concern. I gave him a reassuring smile and pulled him down the hall.
"I just want to know if we can switch rooms for the night, I have a lot of things on my mind and I just want to be with Phil and Randy." He looked down at me frowned, placing his large pale hand on my shoulder.
"What ya thinkin' about fella, you know you could tell me anythin'" I looked into his deep green eyes and sighed heavily, now's the time to tell Steph my little secret.
"Ok, I'm back with Morrison, but I don't know if I feel the same way about him, and then Cena kinda confessed his love for me tonight so I'm thinking about that too, I just want to make the right choice and I cant do that if I'm in a room with John." I tore away from his eyes, knowing he would be angry at me because I didn't tell him sooner. It was silent for a minute before he spoke.
"Fine, give me your key." I smiled and gave him my key, he gave me his.
"I need to get my stuff, let me go get it." He was about to walk away but I stopped him.
"No, I just wanna stay there for the night, I'm sure by tomorrow I would know what I want." I smiled slighted "Oh my room number is 651 and if John asks where I am PLEASE tell him Phil and Randy wanted me to stay the night." I dropped my hand from his arm. He looked down at me and smiled back
"Alright Kris Kross, I guess I'll see you later." He put his hand on my head and ruffled my hair before placing a kiss on my head hugging me and disappearing around the corner. I walked back to the room smiling at the silly nickname Steph gave me. I slid the key into the slot and walked in the room which was silent, the only sound I heard was the TV. I closed the door quietly and walked towards the room and noticed Randy laying on the bed focused on the TV and Phil focused on his laptop.
"Hi guys," I smiled both heads popped up and smiled
"Oh hey Kristian." Randy smiled getting off of the bed walking over to me and gave me a big viper hug. "Where's Stephan?"
"I asked him if we could trade rooms, I wanted to sleep in here tonight." I smiled nervously. Phil walked up to me and hugged me too.
"Well I guess you have to take the couch then Krissy." He smiled and picked my up gently throwing me on the couch playfully. I landed on the soft couch and laughed. I need a laugh tonight, it felt good to laugh after all the things I'm thinking about.
"Hey Papa Punk, where's you're title?" I was used to calling Randy and Phil dad, why? Mainly because they've became very protective of me over the years and they care for me as if I was their own.
"I left it at work, I didn't want to carry that heavy ass thing around." He smiled coming over to sit couch next to me.
"What about you Daddy Randy, what happened at your number one contenders match?" Even thought I was there for his match I didn't see what happened because I was getting dressed for my match with Melina. Randy groaned and walked over towards the couch and sat on the arm of it.
"It was horrible! I don't know who I could loose to Jay!" Phil started to laugh hysterically turning red in the face, before turning to Randy
"Yeah, you got your ass handed to you by Captain Crybaby!" He spoke through the laugh, Randy reached his hand out and slapped Phil in the back of the head making him wince. I laughed softly before standing up and near the bathroom.
"It's ok Ran don't get all pissed about it, plus you kicked Jason's ass a lot of time before." I said before closing the door. I could hear Phil and Randy conversant about his match and Punk started to laugh again. After that I heard a smacking sound and things went quiet. I handled my business before opening the door and walked back to the couch, where Randy was smiling victoriously and Phil holding his jaw mumbling softly. I smiled at both of them and took a seat between them.
"So Krissy, tell us the reason why your in this room and don't give us a bitch story cause we could tell when you're lying." Randy turned to face me with his arms crossed. Crap, I can't tell them about me and John, but then again they can tell when I'm lying and I damn sure won't get away with just a smile and shrug of the shoulders.
"Well let me tell you that I'm sooo sorry that I didn't tell you guys this sooner, but I was scared and I didn't want to make you guys mad at me." Phil turned to face me and they both raised their eyebrows in curiosity. I looked down at my hands and started to fidget. "I'm back with John, I've been for a while now an…"
"WHAT?" I turned to look at Randy and saw his face was red and his eyes were full of anger, I turned to Phil and saw the same thing.
"How the hell could you not tell us about this Kris?" Phil yelled
"Yeah, you know we hate that bitch for breaking your heart, and most of all you waited so long to tell us?" Randy screamed. I felt tears boil up in my eyes I blinked them away and looked down at the floor.
"I'm sorry guys but let me finish," I explained everything to them that had happened today, and how I now regret going back with John. "I was gonna tell you guys as soon as u got out of my match that night but you weren't there so…I kept it to myself." I turned to look at Phil and Randy once again, this time they had calm expressions and a caring look in their eyes.
"Oh, well I think you should start thinking about it now while you try to sleep." Phil said
"Mm hmm, go lay down." Randy patted my back before walking towards the mini fridge. I stood up and started to walk towards the bed when I realized I needed something to sleep in.
"Hey guys can I borrow something to sleep in?" They both nodded and walked towards their bags, Phil threw me one of his 'Best in the World' shirts and Randy threw me a pair of his basketball shorts. "Thanks guy, um can you turn around please?"
Both men stood up and turned around facing the door. I quickly stripped from my clothes and put on the ones they've given me. I threw my clothes in the corner, pulled back the sheets on one of the beds and slid in. "Ok guys you can turn around now."
They both turned around and walked near me, placing a kiss on my forehead. "Good night." They said in union before Randy walked towards his bed and Phil walked back towards his laptop, resuming whatever he was doing earlier. I laid on the bed staring at the wall trying to figure out how I feel. Do I really still have feelings for John? What he done to me was wrong and unforgettable, I shouldn't have him back but I thought I still had feeling for him. Maybe what if feel towards him is betrayal instead of love. When I say I love you to him my heart aches, and the more I say it the less I mean it and feel it, and to make matters worse Cena had confessed his love for me. Now I have to choose between both Johns. Should I stay with the one who Phil, Randy, Stephan, and Adam hate, the one who everyone warned me about and the one who in the end broke my heart? Or the John who Phil, Randy, Steph, and Adam love and adore, the one who everyone this I should be with and most of all my best friend for 5 years?
