Disclaimer: I do not claim to own any part of Stephanie Meyers' work. She wrote the original Twilight Series. I just like to mess with the characters.
BPOV
When I woke up the morning that I would be leaving to go to Texas, I reminded myself I had to face my past before I could go onto my future. My dreams the night before were peaceful for a change, so I had a good night's rest. I stretched out my rested limbs and looked out of the window.
Hmm, it's sunny for a change. Hopefully that's a good sign today will be alright, I thought.
I climbed out of my bed and headed toward the one bathroom the house had. I can't say I will miss sharing a place with my dad. It has been way too awkward the past few years sharing a bathroom with him. Sighing, I start the shower.
After I was washed, shaved, and everything else I could possibly do, I went back to my room nearly colliding with Charlie on the way.
Awkward, I thought. Especially since I was just in a towel.
I squeaked out an apology and ran to my room not tripping once. I felt proud of myself. Jacob had taken it upon himself to help me with my coordination skills and I was very pleased after just a week when I hadn't tripped one single time nor ran into anything.
As I walked to my closet, I wondered what I should wear on this little secret trip I would be taking soon.
I mean really, what does one wear when going to an abandoned vampire house?
I mentally slapped myself and shook my head. If somebody were to hear the things I think of, they would commit me to a mental hospital. This made me glad my mind was apparently mute since Edward couldn't hear my thoughts.
Mind raper. No privacy around that asshole. Wow, I need to get a life and stop thinking these things.
I finally picked out a faded grey pair of skinny jeans, a plain black t-shirt, black lace panties and bra. Just looking at this made me laugh; Alice would have a fit! Too fucking bad. Pixie bitch left- she has no say in what I wear anymore.
After getting dressed I ran my fingers through my hair and decided that it was alright looking. It had grown out to almost my waist over the past couple of years. I've of course had a trim here and there, but I kept it at a long length. I applied a minimal amount of make-up which consisted of black eyeliner, mascara, and a thin layer of lip gloss. Wearing a lot of make-up was not appealing to me. I'd never done it and probably won't ever. Bright colored eye shadow scares the shit out of me, so I don't use it. I know that if the Pixie had her way, she'd make me look like a fucking Barbie doll, frilly clothes and bright make-up included.
After checking myself over in the mirror on my wall, and found I was satisfied, I picked up my phone and wallet and went downstairs. Charlie was sitting in his recliner in the living room watching some fishing show on TV. We talked for a minute before I went into the kitchen to grab a quick breakfast- a poptart- and then left, grabbing my keys on the way out.
The drive to my former vampire family's' home is not something I was looking forward to. But, I needed a bit of closure, even if I had moved on with my life since they had left. I couldn't even tell Charlie when he had asked me where I was heading off to.
"Hey Bells, where are you going? We've gotta get going soon," he had asked.
"Um, well… I'm just going to say bye to Jake and the rest of the pa- I mean everyone else one last time." I almost slipped about the pack for the hundredth time! I hope he believed me though, I still can't lie for shit.
"Oh, okay. Don't be too long. It's a long drive."
I waved goodbye and went out the door.
Charlie had taken a week off of work to drive with me down to Texas to help me settle in. I was mildly excited, getting to spend some time with my dad away from anything supernatural.
It took about fifteen minutes to get to the old Cullen mansion, since I had memorized this route so many times before. As I drove up the hidden path, I could tell nobody had ever come back. All of the shrubbery was overgrown – almost taller than my truck cab – and a lot of weeds. As I got to the top of the driveway, I felt a sense of dread come over me.
I shouldn't have come here.
Too late now dipshit, My inner voice replied.
Fuck, now I'm talking to myself!
Shaking my head, I mustered by my tiny bit of courage and got out of my truck to make my way to the front door. Turning the handle, I was shocked to find it unlocked. I really shouldn't have been though.
"Stupid vampires," I muttered to myself as I opened the door and walked in.
My vision was immediately assaulted with furniture covered in white sheets, and what wasn't covered had a thick layer of dust settled over it. The aftermath of the birthday party had been cleaned up, looking as if it hadn't even happened. The only thing that was out of place was Edward's piano. It still lay in ruins from where Jasper had landed. I suppose though they wouldn't want to be reminded of that awful night. I didn't want to either.
As I made my way through the living room and toward the stairs, I felt a shiver run up my spine. It felt so dead here.
Ha ha, dead. They were dead, stupid!
Shut up! I really need to stop talking to myself.
Rolling my eyes, I continued up the stairs. The first room I went to was Carlisle's office. The door was open, and the sun was shining through the open curtains. As I looked around, I noticed some papers and an envelope laying on his desk. I walked over and saw my name in Alice's elegant script writing across the envelope. I gently picked it up, flipping it over and opening it. I sat down and started to read.
Dearest Bella,
I know that you may not understand why we left you, but it was necessary for what needed to happen. A few days before your party, I had a vision that shocked me. No matter what I thought of to change it, it still happened. I had to figure out a way to make us all leave, including Edward. I'm sorry for the way it happened, I never intended for Jasper to attack you. That part went horribly wrong. I hope one day you will forgive me, I still and will always love you as my sister.
I guess I should tell you why this all happened though. Edward, well… he wasn't your real mate. Yes, he did love you, and still does. Your real mate is a human drinker. You will meet him soon, but I won't tell you any more about it. I also obviously still see you becoming like us, when or how is unclear.
In the bigger envelope under the one this letter was in, is some documents that include a new I.D., bank account information, and a credit card. Please Bella, take them with you. You don't need to use them, but they will come in handy when you're ready.
As I said before, I love you as my sister. You always have a place in my heart. I'm leaving my number with you; you're ready to have it now. You don't have to contact me but if you ever need help, don't hesitate to call me.
Love always,
Alice
I couldn't believe what I had just read. With shaky hands, I set the letter to the side and picked up the bigger envelope and opened it. Inside were exactly the things she told me. I looked at the I.D. and noticed my last name was not Swan, but Whitlock.
Whitlock? Where the hell did that name come from? I thought to myself.
I shook my head and set it aside, looking at the bank papers. Shock was the only thing I could feel. I'd never seen that many numbers in my bank account! Taking a deep breath, I put the items back in the envelope, folded up the letter and added it to the bigger envelope. I left Carlisle's office and moved onto the next room I knew I had to go.
Edward's room was at the end of the hall and the door was closed. Once I got in front of it and opened the door, I was assaulted with his scent. Everything was just as it was the day of the party. I made my way over to the leather couch and sat down.
The room felt so empty. I thought I'd at least feel some emotion, but I didn't. Maybe Alice was right? I knew I had moved on, but doesn't somebody usually feel something when facing their past? With a heavy sigh, I stood up and left Edward's room and closing the door behind me.
As I walked back down the stairs, I pulled my cell phone out and checked the time. Crap. I didn't think I had been here as long as I had been, but apparently I'd been gone three hours. I looked around the living room one last time, and went out to my truck to go back home for the final time.
A/N: I made a twitter account! :) The link is on my page, so follow me for updates on when I'll be posting or anything else that pertains to this story!
I got this chapter done early because we were under tornado watch last night, so while I was in my little home made fort, I wrote a lot of it out. I hope you like it :D
