Tris POV:
Someone is shaking me but I don't have the strength to open my eyes. I'm so tired.
"Tris wake up!"
I know that voice. It's Four. I try so hard to open my eyes but the sleep is overwhelming me. I'm too drunk to move. Four slides his arm under my knees and the other around my back and picks me up. He smells so intoxicating. I snuggle up into his chest and continue my slumber.
I wake up with the sudden urge to throw up. I roll onto my side and throw up all over the floor. It just keeps coming out. My head is killing me. Why is it so bright in here. My apartment doesn't have windows. Panic kicks. OMG Where the hell am I. I look around and this room is huge. Who's room in this? Oh geez I drank way too much last night. I slide the blankets down and attempt to get out of bed. I put my feet on the floor and attempt to stand up. My right ankle gives out on me and I fall face first into my vomit. This is freaking disgusting.
"Tris are you okay?"
Oh god that is Four's voice. Here I am covered in vomit. This is embarrassing.
"I'm fine."
"Did you throw up on my floor?"
"Nope. Just decided this was a good place to empty out the contents in my stomach."
Four chuckles. "Here let me help you up."
"Thanks." Four helps me up and sits me down on his bed. He looks towards the floor and sees how swollen my ankle is. It's twice it's normal size.
"Tris you need to go to the infirmary and get your ankle checked out."
"I can't go to the infirmary covered in my own vomit."
Four smiles "Tris I can carry you to your apartment so you can shower and change if you like."
I try to get up from his bed again and stumble a little bit, but I find my balance and limp towards his bedroom door. I open the door and see he has a huge apartment with a big kitchen. I spot the front door and start hobbling towards it. I open the front door with Four following closely behind me. Probably to try and catch me if I fall from the pain of walking on my ankle. I start to walk down the hall, but I have no clue where I am. I've never been in the part of Dauntless. I make a turn down another hall I don't recognize. Crap I have no clue where I am. "Four how do I get to my apartment?"
"I was wondering when you were going to ask directions. I will show you."
Four walks next to me and shows me the way to my apartment. When I go to unlock the door Christina throws the front door open. "OMG Tris I was so worried about you. What the hell happened? Why are you covered in vomit?"
"Not now Christina."
"Hi Four." Christina says raising her eyebrows at me. Four just looks at her with no emotion.
"Move please I want to change and shower." Christina moves and goes to her room and closes the door. I walk inside my apartment and turn around to face Four. I'm so embarrassed that I just want to get rid of him. Any chance I thought I had of talking to Four about us I'm sure is out the window. "Thanks for walking me home. I'm going to shower and try to forget this ever happened." Four states: "Anytime Tris. I will always be there for you." He walks away and I'm left confused. Why would he say that. I'm literally covered in my own vomit. I was drunk and passed out on the floor leaning against a wall. I grab my clothes from the room and take a shower. Once out of the shower I brush my teeth and hair. I put on a black tank top and black jeans. I walk out to the living room where Christina is sitting reading something. I sit on the couch to try and take a nap since I'm still feeling sleepy and my head is killing me along with my ankle. But, this doesn't happen because Christina wants to talk. "So what happened last night?"
"I don't really remember. I remember you telling me you are going to Uriah's. I was walking towards our apartment when Peter smacked my ass. I fell and twisted my ankle and passed out against the wall."
"How did Four fit into that story."
"I think he found me sleeping and took me to his apartment."
"You think? You don't know how you ended up in Four's apartment?"
"No."
"Wow. You're telling the truth. Did he throw up on you? How did you end up covered in vomit."
"I threw up on his floor. It was a lot of vomit. Oh God. I should go clean it up."
"Don't worry about it. I'm sure he didn't mind having you in his bed."
"Christina! He doesn't see me like that."
"Yes he does. I see the way he looks at you Tris. That man misses you."
"He did say he would he would always be there for me."
"What? He totally likes you Tris."
I just roll my eyes. "So, what happened with you and Uriah?"
"We went back to his apartment and we were both pretty drunk, so we talk a little bit and fell asleep on his couch. I woke up with my head on his lap and his arm around me. It was a great feeling. Waking up to someone I have a crush on. After Will died I never thought I would have feelings for anyone ever again. But, it's nice having a crush and waiting to see where the relationship goes."
"That's great Christina. I'm happy for you. Uriah seems like a nice guy."
We hear a knock on the door, so Christina gets up and answers it. It's Four.
Christina says with a big smile "What brings you back so soon Four?"
"May I come in?"
Christina looks at me and I shake my head no. She mouths sorry to me "Sure. Come on in."
"Thanks."
Four comes in and looks at me. He seems to forget why he is there. Christina coughs and Four speaks. "Are you ready to go to the infirmary?"
Christina "Why does she need to go the infirmary?"
"Because of her ankle. It's swollen."
Christina gasps "How did I not notice."
Me "I'm fine really. I just need to relax."
Four says in a very assertive matter "Get up we are going to the infirmary."
I'm a bit shocked by his tone of voice, but I get up and grab my shoes by the door and limp down to the infirmary. Four and I don't speak a word to each other the way there.
Once we get to the infirmary I sign-in and sit in the waiting room. It doesn't seem that busy, so I hope I don't have to wait long because I feel like crap. Four sits down next to me and I want to ask him why he's still here but to be honest I like having him close to me. I just wished I could talk to him, but I don't have the courage anymore after this morning. We wait for an hour before I get called back. I tell the doctor what happened and he orders a x-ray. He determines it's a sprained ankle and I should stay off heels for 6 weeks and take an easy with training. No running on it for at least two weeks. I just listen to everything the doctor says. He wraps up my ankle in an ankle brace and gives me some medicine for my headache. By the time I leave the infirmary I've been here for five hours. I walk towards the exit and see Four getting up out of his seat in the waiting room. I can't believe he's waited here this whole time for me. He walks over towards me "What did the doctor say?"
"To stay away from wearing heels for six weeks and to be careful training the next few weeks."
"Okay. I will adjust your training schedule, so you're not standing for long periods of time."
"Thanks."
"I know we haven't talked in months, but I would really like to take you to dinner."
I think about it for a minute and contemplate why I shouldn't go and then I just say "Okay." Oh god why did I say that. Crap I don't know what to say to him.
"Dinner is in about an hour. I will walk you to your apartment and meet you in the cafeteria for dinner. Okay?"
"Sounds good."
We walk back to my apartment and he grabs my hand when I'm about to open the door. It feels like electricity shooting thru me. I miss this feeling shooting thru me. I gasp. I wasn't expecting his touch.
"I will see you soon."
"Thank you for taking me to infirmary. I will see you at dinner."
I open my door and go inside. Four let's go of my hand and I close the door. I miss his touch as soon as I let go of his hand. I want to feel his touch again. We've kissed by chasm before, but it's been so long since then. When he kissed me that night it was amazing. I felt safe and protected by Four. I felt as if nothing in the world would ever come between us. I must have a smile on my face because Christina asks me "What happened? Why are you smiling. I haven't seen you smile in a long time Tris. I was starting to think you forgot how to."
"Four wants to have dinner with me tonight."
"OMG how exciting. I have to get you ready."
"Okay but you only have an hour to get me ready."
"I better get started on you."
We both laugh and I head to her room and sit on the bed. She starts going thru her closet to find me something to wear tonight. She is rambling on about Uriah and how he having a party at his apartment in three days and how I should go with her. I just nod my head in a yes motion and she keeps going. I zone out thinking about my parents. I wish I could tell them about Four. I want to talk to my mom and have her give me advice on what I should do to let Four back into my life. Christina snaps her fingers in front on my face. "Earth to Tris. Snap out of it."
"Sorry I must of zoned out."
She laughs "Here put this on and then I will do your hair and make-up. I get up and go into my y room and change into the clothes Christina gave me. This is the second time I've wore her clothes and they are always so short on me. I'm wearing a black mini skirt and a black spaghetti string shirt. Good thing the shirt has a built in bra because my bra straps are thicker than the shirts strap. I walk out of my room and head to the bathroom where I know Christina is waiting for me. I sit down on the toilet and she curls my hair. I look at the time and I see that I'm late. I tell Christina. "I have to skip the make-up. I'm running late now."
"Go get him tiger. You don't really need make-up anyways."
"Walk down with me. Aren't you hungry?"
"Okay. Let's go."
We walk down to the cafeteria and I'm looking for Four. I ask Christina "Do you see Four?"
"I'm short remember? I don't see him though."
I feel like I'm going to cry. Why would he tell me to meet him for dinner and he's not even here. I must look like about to cry when Christina says "Come sit us. I'm sure he's just running late."
"We are thirty minutes late. I doubt that's it." We go and sit down near our friends at our usual table. Tonight though Uriah sits down next to Christina.
I can't believe he stood me up. I wanted to talk to him so badly. The thought never occurred to me that he wouldn't show up for dinner. This really hurts my feelings and I just want to cry. The cafeteria goes silent as the leaders are now standing on the landing waiting for everyone to silent. I look up and see Four's dark blue eyes staring down me. I look away trying to hold back tears. Tori speaks.
"As I said yesterday we had 20 factionless in custody. We not have five. We put all of the prisoners under truth serum and only five will remain in jail for further questions. We discovered that since Abnegation was destroyed that the factionless are fighting with each other because they are low on food and supplies. Abnegation isn't there to help them out and give them food and supplies. So, tomorrow Four and I are heading to Amity to discuss with what's left of Abnegation to try and solve this problem. We will update you with more information as find it out. Enjoy your dinner everyone."
Everyone goes back to eating. Four comes up to me and taps me on my shoulder. "Hey Tris. Do you still want to have dinner with me?"
"I already ate" I say as I'm getting up from the table.
"Please sit back down and eat with me."
"No. I'm tired and I'm going to head back to my apartment."
"Tris please. I need to talk to you. Please can we talk."
"Fine. What do you want to talk about?"
"Let's go to my apartment and talk."
"Fine." I'm annoyed that he wasn't here when I was eating dinner. I feel like he stood me up.
We walk to his apartment and my ankle is killing me by the time I get there. He invites me in and tells me to have a seat. I'm relieved to sit down on his couch and get off my ankle. Four lives pretty far from the cafeteria on the complete opposite side of the compound.
"Do you want something to drink?"
"Sure. Water please."
He goes into the kitchen and I can't help but watch his muscles flex and he leans into the fridge and pulls out two waters. He's wearing a tight black t-shirt and black jeans with combat boots. He looks so sexy in what he's wearing. He walks toward me and hands me the bottle of water. He sits down next to me and we sit silently for awhile. He breaks the silence.
"What happened to us." I guess we are just jumping right into our relationship. I don't say anything I just stare at my bottle of water.
"Please talk to me. I miss you."
I just take a deep breath and let it out "I miss you too."
He grabs my hand amd laces his fingers in mine. "Please let me in Tris. What happened to us."
I take my hand out his and get up. "I can't do this."
"Can't do what? Talk to me?"
I dont say anything.
"You use to be able to tell me anything." he says as almost a whisper.
I head for the door and open it.
"Please don't leave Tris."
His words hit me like a ton of bricks and I have to get out of here. I head down the chasm and sit on a rock and start crying. I want to be with Four, but I can't stand the thought of anyone I know getting hurt because of me. My parents died trying to protect me and I refuse to let Four die to protect me as well.
When Four and I were together I felt invisible. I felt like us being together would conquer everything thrown at us, but I was wrong. I never thought losing my parents would be so emotional for me. I'm always sad and feel miserable on the inside. Why can't I just let Four in. I want to be with him. Then I remember we were suppose to have dinner together but he was late. He probably just wanted to talk about what happened between us for closure.
I sit at the chasm for awhile before I head back up to my apartment. I expect to see Christina there to ask me a bunch of questions, but she's not here thankfully. I change into my pajamas and climb into bed.
I must of been tired last night because I don't even remember falling asleep. I get up and see its 9am. Crap I slept in. I was suppose to be at knife throwing training at 8am. I figured I'm already late and it's over at ten, so I just grab some clothes and get in the shower. When I get out of the bathroom I see Christina is home and sitting in the living room on the couch.
"Hey Christina."
"Hey."
"Want to go breakfast with me?"
"I'm not hungry. I ate at 7 with the rest of Dauntless this morning."
I laugh. "yeah I was tired I guess."
"want to go shopping with me today? I want to get a new outfit for Uriah's party tomorrow."
"sure." Shopping with Christina is an all day event. It will be nice to take my mind off of things and just have some girl time. I usually dread it when Christina wants to go shopping, but today feels like a great day to waste some money. "Let's stop by the cafeteria though so I can grab a muffin because I'm starving." We both laugh. We put on our shoes by the door and head out.
Today was a great day. We went to a few stores where Christina tried on everything it felt like. She bought a lot of clothes and even more shoes. She bought makeup and lingerie too. I asked her if her and Uriah were getting serious and she tried to play it off by saying it's only been a few days since we started hanging out. But, she blushed and I can't tell she really likes him. I bought two pairs of pants and three shirts. Christina tried to get me to buy lingerie with her, but i refused. I told her how I walked out on Four when he just wanted to talk. She asked me about if I still liked him. I just shrugged my shoulders and said i don't know. I knew she could tell I was lying, but she didn't push the issue. I put my things away and ask Christina "Do you want to go to dinner?"
"Yeah. Let's go. I'm starving after all this shopping we did today."
"me too." That's something Christina and I have in common. We love to eat. Christina tries to watch what she eats meanwhile I just eat whatever. I haven't found anything I don't like to eat yet. I don't know how we are not fat from all the food we eat.
Once we get to the cafeteria Christina goes and sits next to Uriah and I head over to drink section to get some juice. I'm waiting my turn when Four grabs my arms and pulls me around a corner by the cafeteria where no one can hear or see us. He puts his hands on my cheeks.
"Are you okay? I've been looking for you all day since you didn't show up for knife training this morning."
"I'm fine. I just slept in and went shopping with Christina."
He hits the wall with his fist. "Damn it Tris. I thought the worse happened to you. Please don't do that to me again." He looks into my eyes and I look away.
"What did I do. I just had fun with Christina. I don't know why you were so worried."
"Tris you may have shut me out, but I still care for you. I still like you and I want to be with you. I was worried something happened to you and I wasn't there to protect you."
"I don't need protecting. I can take care of myself."
"I know, but I just care so much about you that I want to fight your battles for you."
"Four I shut you for a reason. Please just let me be."
"Please tell me what I did wrong. It's killing me not being with you."
"You didn't do anything wrong. I just don't have any family anymore and I just feel lost."
He lifts my chin up so I'm looking into his eyes. "I can be your family."
A tear falls from my eye because I never thought of that before. I care for Four a lot and he wants us to be family. That's so sweet. I lean in a gently peck his lips. Four seems surprised and excited at the same time. I want to kiss him again, but I hold back.
"I should get back to Christina. She is probably wondering where I am."
He stands there not saying anything as I walk away. I sit down at the table with Christina and eat my burger. I can't believe I just kissed Four. Even though it was a brief kiss I want to do it again. I actually feel a glimpse of happiness again. Christina tells me she's going to hang out with Uriah and I head back to my apartment. I sit on the couch and start reading one of the books on the table. I grab the throw blanket from the back of the couch and put it over me as I get comfortable. I figure I'm just going to sleep on the couch tonight.
AUTHOR'S NOTE:
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