Nagisa's Inner Voice 2:
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After watching, everything that I could once see was gone. The person of Tomoya still stood there, he wasn't exactly here yet it seemed. I waited, It was forever before I could see my dear husband and daughter again. And what I saw was spectacular. Tomoya had taken Ushio to a big flower meadow. I saw some older woman behind Tomoya who was his grandmother. This was my dream coming alive. Now I could hear conversation. That was nice.
"Ushio? Did you find it?" He asked. Ushio had lost a toy robot in the meadow. And from there it got great between them.
"No."
"Ushio, I am sorry to say this, but I don't think we can find it. I can just get you a new one at the station."
"That was the only one."
"No silly, there were a bunch at the station." Ushio got real quiet. Oh what is it sweetie. I wished I could be there to say that.
"But... that's the one you picked out." Tomoya looked slightly confused. Come on Tomoya, bond with our daughter. Please. "That was the first time... daddy." She sobbed, and I could see that Tomoya was finally understanding now. He looked as if he was about to cry. In a weird way.. I hoped so. I hoped he would become the father I knew he could be. I smiled at the way Ushio said daddy. I just wish she would say mommy. I wish that someone would tell her about me... just a little about me.
"Oh, I see." He said, care and sorrow running threw him.
"Daddy?" She asked, slightly sobbing.
"Hmm?" He asked, a smile on his face as he looked upon our daughter.
"I don't have to hold it in anymore, like you said on the train? Sanae told me the only places it is ok to cry in is the bathroom or when I am in daddy's arms." That was a good strategy, but I was kind of upset with my mother, how could she let my little girl hold it in that long? Tomoya nodded at her and Ushio immediately went into Tomoya's arms, letting it all out. Crying out her love for her father, her love for me.. a person she didn't hardly know.
It was so heart warming for me to see this, and then the their train ride home, was even better. Ushio and Tomoya were watching the sun set when Tomoya looked at Ushio again, I could see the love and adoration in his eyes. "Ushio. I could... I could tell you about.. about mommy if you would like." I smiled.. here in my personal limbo. That's when I started hearing what he thought about me. "Now.. where do I start about Mommy? Back in high school mommy was having a tough time so she cried a lot..." I smiled at his introduction of me, I did cry a lot... "that was back when we first met. She didn't believe in herself very much. I remember she was standing at the bottom of the hill at our high school and you know what she did when she was standing there that morning? She closed her eyes and she said... anpan."
I could see the small smile on Ushio's face as he told her about me. Thank you Tomoya, please tell her about me... I want her to know about me. "That was a funny habit mommy had. When she was afraid, she would say what she wanted to eat out loud and it would make her brave again. Back then, Sanae was always busy with work and didn't have time to make lunch for mommy. Of course, mommy would have been happy is she had Sanae's food. And maybe Sanae could make time if she had to, but mommy was to nice to ask her."
I had tears running down my cheeks. I love you Tomoya. "That's what your mommy was like, really sweet. Let's see... what else? Uh, she uh..." My beautiful Tomoya was about to cry.. I am sorry for leaving my sweet Tomoya. I am sorry. "Uh... your mommy.. mommy was..." His tears ran freely now. "Nagisa." He whispered.
I could see the memories in his mind... memories of when we first met, When I made dinner, when he asked me to marry him, when I embraced him. "Nagisa." He said that again twice more, crying harder each time. I saw Ushio beginning to cry, seeing Tomoya cry. I was glad that they were bonding officially now.
Ushio grabbed gently at his arm and he looked up to seeing her cry. "Daddy." Tomoya chuckled as he cried.
"Silly." She said, wiping away her tears. "Why are you crying to?" He patted her hair. "Sorry, it's nothing bad. I was just thinking of mommy." I smiled, tears running freely down my cheeks now. Oh, my sweet Tomoya. Wiping the last tear from his cheek he smiled at Ushio. "Ok, let's get back to the story." He sat up straight and looked her in the eye. "Back in high school, mommy was really excited about putting on a play, have you ever seen a play before?" Ushio shook her head, and I heard Tomoya speaking to me in his mind.
Nagisa, I found it. I finally found it. Something only I can protect, a precious treasure that only I can protect. It was right here. Right in front of my all along. I smiled as I heard those words. "I am glad Tomoya. I am happy. I love you." I said, in my resting place where I am forever alone. I watched my husband and daughter together and smiled.
And again I could see. First I saw my mother placing bread around in the shop. And I saw Tomoya and Ushio walk in, holding hands, and my mother gasp happily at their relationship now.
"We're home." Tomoya and Ushio said.
"Welcome back you two, Did you have fun on your big trip?"
"Yup." Ushio said, Glad to hear is sweetheart. I am glad to know you had fun with daddy.
"I had a good time, but I am still waiting on my date with you." What?.. I looked at my mother and the memory of the pretend date went in her mind. I giggled to myself.
"Huh?" My mom asked, acting oblivious. Though she knew what he was talking about.
It's not fair to promise a guy a date and not show up. Such a shame, I was looking forward to our little vacation together." My mom laughed inside, but here came my father. They had aged over the past five years... more so than I thought.
"Hey asshole! You better stop hitting on my wife." Dad! Please, why swear in front of Ushio.
"Aki!" Ushio cheered. Obviously happy to see him. Tomoya turned towards Ushio.
"Of course, you're coming on our date to Ushio, right?"
"Yep."
"Alright you can count me in to." My father said.
"Perfect," My family was becoming one again. This made me happier than I could express. "The three of us will have a great time right Tomoya?"
My dad felt left out. "Hey don't leave me out, I wanna play to." Ushio turned her head towards her daddy. Both smiled at each other.
That's when I saw later in the day, Tomoya in my old room. That entire time he was there Tomoya apologized to my mother and afterwards everything was fine. He even took my Dango's back to his home, where they originally were.
And that's where Tomoya brought our sweet Ushio to move back in with him. Our daughter was now with her father, It made me happy.
Even the baseball game between my father and Tomoya brought a smile to my soul.
The next time I was able to see again was when Ushio got ready for school. Tomoya was fixing her hat.
"All done, ready to hit the road?"
With enthusiasm she exclaimed, "yeah!" Tomoya chuckled and looked at an old photo of me.
"Ushio, say good-bye to mommy before we leave." Ushio looked at my photo and smiled.
"I'll see you when I get back."
"Bye Nagisa." He said it with such adoration it made me wish I was alive again, I wanted to be back with him, and I wanted to hold him in my arms. As they left Tomoya slowly closed the door peaking at the photo before talking Ushio to school.
Now today, what I saw... saddened me to my very core. Why? Why take her away from Tomoya to?
My little girl had earned my illness and had died in Tomoya's arms on a walk.
Tomoya begged for me to save her over and over, but there was nothing I could do, no matter how hard I tried. And right there in the snow, he collapsed with Ushio in his arms, and after that I could no longer see... I heard the body of Tomoya breathe... but he still wasn't moving... just give him time to see and acknowledge everything. And that's when I slowly walked in the other direction. Slowly.
One thing that was on my mind was.. where was my little girl, please bring her here soon.
And then... the last thing I remember is... this place of rest disappearing and I, became a glowing light, immobile. All I knew was I was going back in time, and I stopped above a time so long ago.. Ushio's birth, and here I waited... Not sure what for, but I waited.. for the next move.
All I knew now was a little girl's voice and it said, I was no longer ill and my daughter wouldn't become ill either, from there is where my long journey had come to an end, to begin all over again.
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