A/N: Hello everybody! It was great to hear from all of you once more! As always, thank you to my wonderful reviewers, you guys as the BEST! I hope you guys enjoy this 2nd chapter of "Big Time Reminiscence"!

WARNING: It DOES include part of the Jendall I'd previously warned you about...

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WARNING: There IS a Jendall (JoxKendall) moment as was previously warned...

DISCLAIMER: Ohh the things I'd do if BTR was mine...wild crazy sex would be a part of my everyday routine for starters...but alas, it's not to be ;)

Ch. 2: I Can't Move On

Logan and Carlos were really beginning to worry over Kendall's mental well-being as James neared his fourth month in a coma and the blonde boy let no inclinations of moving on.

"I'm worried about Kendall," Carlos said one night as he lay in Logan's embrace in apartment 2J after everyone had gone to sleep.

From their room, they could still hear Kendall's wrecked sobs, the blonde letting himself cry when he thought they were all asleep.

"So am I," Logan said with a sigh "I mean, I get it, James was his boyfriend and he loved him but…it's bad for him to keep going to him like that. It-it hurts Carlos because- he was our friend too but…that body in there…it isn't James. The James we knew and loved is gone."

"I know," Carlos said quietly snuggling closer into Logan's strong arms "Logie," he said "Can I ask you something?"

"Yes, of course Carlitos, anything," Logan said, a little shocked by Carlos' sudden change of tone and subject.

"Would you move on if something like that happened to me?" Carlos asked quietly.

Logan's breath hitched in his throat from the mere thought of something so tragic happening to the Latino.

"No," he said honestly "I mean…I believe I'd eventually learn to just go on with my life but…nothing would ever be the same. I'd never be able to truly let go of you Carlos, I love you. I can't imagine life without you."

"I wouldn't hold it against you, you know, I'd like to know you could move on, be happy, love somebody again…" Carlos said.

"I'd never forget you Carlos, I'd never truly be happy again," Logan said, getting a bit agitated by the subject "Why are you asking me this?"

"I'm just saying…I guess now that I thought about how I'd be if it were you on that bed…I guess I understand Kendall a little better." Carlos replied sadly.

"I see what you mean," Logan said "Speaking about something which is slightly more pleasant however, what do you want to do tomorrow?"

"What do you mean?" Carlos asked.

"Tomorrow's our anniversary babe," Logan said quietly "We've been together for a year…"

"Oh!" Carlos said "Oh, Logie, I'm so sorry, I've just had a lot on my mind lately, what with continuing the band now that James is gone, and getting used to James being gone and worrying about Kendall, I just- it slipped from my mind, I'm so sorry-"

Logan cut him off with a kiss.

"It's okay," he said, cupping Carlos' face in both his hands "It's really okay, Carlos, I get it. I've had a lot on my mind too lately."

"But Logie, I don't want to do anything too fancy," Carlos said quietly "Just a nice, quiet dinner is okay,"

"You sure?" Logan asked softly, though he himself couldn't agree more.

"I'm sure," Carlos said "I'm not in the mood of really doing anything other than that. James will have 4 months in a coma tomorrow, after all."

"I know," Logan said before leaning in to kiss Carlos.

Carlos moaned into the kiss, pulling Logan closer to him.

Logan pulled Carlos underneath him, beginning to rub their hips together, moaning.

Yet they didn't go too far.

"Logan, Logan stop!" Carlos said, pulling away from him.

Logan sighed, he'd known before he'd even tried that Carlos would stop him before they got too far, it had always been the same since James' accident.

"We haven't had sex in 4 months babe," he said, his voice flat, not whiny. It was a fact, not a complaint.

"I know," Carlos said "But I just can't Logan, I can't. All I think about is James and how-how he'd be teasing us or else, I don't know, bugging Kendall- if he were here."

"I get it, Carlos, I get it," Logan said "And don't worry, I'm not mad, I can wait until you're ready. Until we're both ready. We're not very emotionally-stable right now, are we?"

"Man, we're a mess," Carlos said "No wonder Kendall's a disaster…"

"Speaking about him, I don't hear him crying anymore," Logan said, listening intently.

Carlos shrugged.

"He must've gone to sleep already, poor boy," he said "Bet you the first thing he'll do tomorrow morning is go visit James at the hospital,"

"Think he'll ditch practice with Gustavo again?" Logan asked.

Carlos shrugged again.

"Possibly," he said "Personally, I believe Gustavo's just about ready to kill him. He's become distant; he hardly responds anymore and is annoyingly monotone. It's even worse than when he used to talk back to him. He's just- not there anymore. He sings and performs because he has to, not because he wants to. His actions lack emotions and God- I sound just like Kelly don't I?" Carlos said.

"Just a little," Logan admitted "But it's okay, so…just a quiet dinner is all?"

"Yeah…" Carlos agreed softly "Just a quiet dinner,"


The next night...

Kendall sighed unhappily as he lay in the moonlight, near the Palm Wood's Pool, attempting to read for he had nothing better to do.

Carlos and Logan had gone out to dinner on a date (to celebrate their anniversary, though they didn't tell him that, afraid it would further upset him) and he'd already been kicked out of the hospital earlier that day after visiting hours had been over.

He didn't want to go to the apartment all alone. His mother was out with Fabio, Katie and Tyler had gone to the arcade and now Carlos and Logan were gone as well. He didn't want to be reminded of how alone he felt since James wasn't there. How alone he'd felt since he and James broke up.

The thought brought a sob to Kendall's chest. He just missed the brunette so much. He couldn't believe how stupid he'd been, letting a grudge get in between them, being jealous of James' ex- when it was obvious James had always loved him.

Kendall wished he could go back in time and prevent the whole ugly accident from happening. He wished for James to be here with him right now. He wished-

"Hey Kendall," a voice brought him out of his thoughts and Kendall looked up to see Jo staring at him with big, worried eyes.

"Hey," he replied weakly at her.

Jo bit her lip in worry. The boy in front of her was NOTHING like the Kendall she'd once known and loved. Even when he hadn't chosen her, she'd still been happy that HE was happy but not anymore. The boy in front of her looked skinnier than ever, tired, and broken and it killed her to see him in such a pitiful state.

"How are you doing?" she asked him softly.

"I've been better," Kendall replied, wishing to be honest with her.

"I'll bet," said Jo "Listen, Kendall, we're all worried about you. Carlos, Logan, your mom, Katie, Camille, heck even Jett. We're all worried for you. I know you loved James, Kendall, but it's time to let him go. I know it hurts, trust me, I do! I lost my little brother when I was about 11 and hell, I know that hurts but…James, he loved you Kendall. He wouldn't want you to be this way. He'd hate it if he knew you were in this state. Do him a favor, Kendall, do both of yourselves a favor and live life for him, the way you would've wanted him to live it."

"You're right," Kendall said quietly "But I don't know how to Jo, nothing's the same now that James is gone…"

"Tell you what," she said "I'm going out tomorrow night, I want to see the new movie with Anne Hathaway and you're coming with me…"

"No, Jo, I don't think that's a good idea-" Kendall began but Jo held up a hand to silence him.

"Uh-uh, no buts, you're coming Mr." she said.

Kendall sighed dejectedly.

"Fine," he said "At what time do I pick you up then?"

"7:30 and don't be late," she told him brightly.

Kendall sighed as he watched her walk away. He hated this. He really did hate this. It felt like he was going on a date with Jo...

'Oh my God!' he thought, alarmed 'I AM going on a date with Jo! No! What have I done? James…I'm so sorry…'

A/N: And there you go...uh-oh, Kendall's going on a date with Jo...is this a good sign or bad sign? I don't know, you tell me...

And James still doesn't wake up :(

On a brighter note...

Who saw "Big Time Pranks 2"? I thought the episode was amazing EXCEPT for the end...I dunno, it WAS kind of obvious that Mama Knight was going to win but still...she's too old to be Prankster Queen. AND they interrupted James and Lucy's kiss :(

Lol. I'm a closet fan of Kames and all these slash pairings but show-verse I'm pretty much a hardcore Jendall fan...you've been warned...again :) and though I prefer Jatie I understand that's never going to happen, much like our beloved Kames so...yeah (JamesxLucy) is fine by me.

CARLOS: ANYWAYS, she's rambling so...don't mind her AND leave a review, will you?

LOGAN: Reviews tend to make her...less evil.

KENDALL: I'm going on a date with Jo? But-but-but...

LOGAN: We know, we know buddy...

CARLOS: Review time! 8-10 are her happy numbers!

LOGAN: And check in back with us next week for the next chapter!

KENDALL: I want James!

ME: I couldn't have said it better myself...review guys!

Cheers,

Franshes