Ianto could never relax. He suffered more as a three year old as his mom died 11 months after his 2nd birthday. The first day it happened was a day he would never forget. It was a few days after his 3rd birthday and ianto was playing happily with the toy cars he had got. They were all spread out in the living room. His dad had walked in and accidentally slipped up on a car. He went ballistic. He scrambled to his feet and ianto stood up as well.

"Are you ok daddy?"

He asked with a lisp. Innocence was the only thing you could hear in his voice.

"NO I'M NOT BLODY ALRIGHT YOU STUPID CHILD"

He thundered. He kicked ianto in the stomach and repeatedly punched him on the floor. Ianto didn't put up much of a fight as he couldn't because his dad was sitting on his. When his dad had finished he picked up ianto nearly tearing his arm out of the socket and threw him in his room. Ianto's room was fairly small, so when he went flying in his face smacked against the wall.

"I hope you've learnt a lesson"

His dad growled slamming the door closed. Ianto couldn't stop the tears he had bruises all over his body and nose bleed as well as a split lip. Hearing his cries, Ianto's dad shouted at him to be quiet. Ianto weakly crawled into bed, getting blood all over the sheets. He pulled up the covers and cried himself to sleep. He didn't know what the lesson he had to learn was.

Stirring yet the 4th round of coffee Ianto could hear Owen moaning for his drink.

"Come on tea-boy I have a dead grandmother who's faster than you!"

Ianto shuddered at the shouting, regressing back top the shouting he had heard as a two year old when his dad came in drunk. His mom and dad always had a fight when his dad got drunk. He picked up the tray and made his way round again. They all said thank you and Gwen didn't add anything on, but he could still feel her gaze burning into the back of his head. He put on a fake smile and walked into jack's office.

He stepped in and looked all around. Jack wasn't there.

"Sir?"

Jack's head poked through the man hole cover

"Yeah what is it Ianto?"

"Coffee"

Jack climbed out of the man hole and walked over to ianto with his big teethed smile.

"Cheers"

He said taking a sip then burning his mouth. He didn't say anything otherwise ianto might have thought he didn't like it. Taking another sip jack looked into Ianto's eyes. He could've sworn he saw just a glimmer of pain but when ianto blinked it wasn't there anymore.

"Ianto are you okay? You've seemed a little off"

Said jack thinking back to watching Ianto cry his heart out on the CCTV

"Yes Sir,"

He replied

"Absolutely fine"