'Single comma'-Kamiya Hiroshi speech.
"Double comma"-Ono Daisuke speech.
Ono Daisuke P.O.V
"I'm in love with Kamiya-san."
Those words kept replaying in my head over and over as I walk down the hall making my way to the bathroom, as I'm walking I check my phone to see what the time is.
*8:47pm* we should be finishing soon I think to myself as I walk into the empty bathroom and make my way to the sink, I examine myself closely in the mirror.
Kamia-san was in the middle of recording when I asked to go to the bathroom, I didn't really have to go but I knew that if I stayed there any longer listening to Kamiya-sans cute angelic voice I would say something that I wouldn't be happy about after, but it's not just his voice…the way those innocent soft lips move as those sweet words role off his slick wet tongue…ugghhh no I'm getting distracted again.
It's been about a week since I realised these feelings for Kamiya-san and these emotion has been getting stronger and stronger each day I'm with him. But admittingly that's probably because I've been inviting him out to dinner more often than usual.
I'm pulled out of my thoughts when the cleaner comes into the bathroom.
"'Oh sorry excuse me for the intrusion'"
"No no its fine I was just about to leave" I say giving them a smile and leaving the bathroom walking back out into the narrow hall.
The recording should be finished soon I think to myself as I quicken my pace and head to the correct room.
I walk in to see Kamiya-san coming out of the recording studio just in time, my face lights up when I see him and I start to head in his direction.
"Ahh Kamiya-sa…"
My speech is cut off by one of the female workers as she starts a light conversation with him. I immediately stop in my tracts and back up to watch the two from afar.
I droop my head down to look at my feet. Maybe I shouldn't invite him out to dinner tonight, it's probably troublesome for him anyway. I glance my head back up to Kamiya-san direction and see the girl is now laughing with a cheesy smile and her hand is lightly rubbing his arm.
I immediately feel something bubble up inside my gut. It's the feel of being angry, hurt and sad all at the same time, it's like I've been pushed into my own bubble that's consuming and suffocating any positive thoughts I had about myself. I bite my lip as I look back up at the pair and see that Kamiya-san is now smiling back at her.
I can't take this anymore. I think to myself and grab my things that have been sitting on the chair next to me, I quickly and quietly say my good byes to everyone whilst trying to avoid Kamiya-san. I make my way out of the room and head for the elevator.
As I'm waiting for the elevator, thoughts cross my mind.
Offcourse he would want to be around girls, he's not gross like me and doesn't have feelings for another guy that he's known for agers…I wonder if it would all work out if I was a girl and wasn't trapped in this body, depressing thoughts cross my mind as I wrap my scarf tightly around my neck as this weather is out of control, its only been a few days into December but I already feel like I need to wear 5 layers of cloths just to not freeze to death. I hear the ping of the elevator as the doors slide open I'm about to step in and finally retire for the day when…
'Ahh Ono-kun there you are wait up.'
That voice…I would know that sweet hypnotising voice anywhere.
"Oh Kamiya-san, hi" I say feeling happy yet a little down at the same time.
''where you heading home, cas I was wondering if you wanted to go grab some dinner with me' he says calm and naturally.
Oh god yes! Kamiya-san asked me out to dinner this time. My mood suddenly lightens up and I swear at this moment I have a pair of dog ears and a wagging tail.
"Yeah that would be great, thanks" I say with glee and a big goofy smile.
'Ok great let me just go grab my things and then we can go.'
I watch him fast walk into the distance. Aww he's so cute when he hurry's I think to myself. I stand there and fiddle with my key chains while I wait for him.
'Hey I'm back, you wanna get going.'
"Sure" I say gesturing him to get in the elevator first as I follow after him.
We enter the elevator and shortly after I press the "ground" button I feel a soft hand touching my head, it's almost like a patting. I swoop around to see Kamiya-san fiddling with my hair.
"K-Kamiya-san" I immediately go red as he's standing on his toes just to reach up to my level.
'Oh sorry Ono-kun you hair was in a mess I was just trying to fix it up.'
"Umm right right ahh thank, you" I say looking down trying to hide my blush.
'All good' he says and pulls away when he hears the ting of the elevator.
'Ahh its freezing already and Decembers just started' He utters as he gets a cute shiver down his back causing him to wrap himself up in his jumper even more.
"Yeah it is" I say with a soft smile while looking at his back.
It's not fair…it's not fair Kamiya-san, why is it that it's just me who gets nervous, why is it that your this cute all the time, why is it that every moment I see you my face lights up and I want to kiss you and hold you so tightly yet gently as if your the most precious thing in the world to me.
Since when, have I felt this way about you Kamiya-san
The two go into a small izakaya (it's kinda like a place where they serve heaps of small side dished accompanied by beer)
~a few hours pass by~
'Pfffaa ahh, ok Ono-kun are you ready for another round' Kamiya-san announces, slightly slamming the empty glass on the table whilst his slurring his words.
"uhh no Kamiya-san, it's the third time you've said that just this night, and we both know you're not the strongest of people when it comes to taking your alcohol" I say with a slight laugh.
'No no I can still have about…5 more, I'll be fine I know it' he says resting his head on the table.
"Ok Kamiya-san I think it's about time we got you home" I say going over to him and shake him lightly on the shoulder.
'Oh riiight I get ya, we'll have a drinking party at my house, ok ok.'
I sigh and oblige to this suggestion just so I can get him out of here.
We pay for the food and I call a taxi.
The taxi ride is full of allot of drunken words from Kamiya-san and a lot of me apologising to the driver, until we finally arrive at his place. We pay the cab fee and get out.
Were halfway up the stairs to his apartment until Kamiya-san almost trips on one of the stairs causing me to grab hold of his waist to catch him.
"God Kamiya-san please try to make it to your place without breaking any thing" I say holding his waist tightly and blushing a bit at the same time.
We arrive at his apartment and make our way inside, the moment we walk in were both greeted by an awaiting nya-san at the door, Kamiya-san immediately goes to pick him up and scruffs his fur.
'Aww nya-san did you miss me, aww I love you to nya~ nya~^w^' I stand in the corner and watch Kamiya-san smother his cat in love, until he remembers my presence.
'Oh ahh Ono-kun you can just go sit on the couch I'll be out with some drinks in a bit.'
"Umm ok thanks" I say making my way into the living room and plonk myself down on the sofa.
I check the time and raise my eye brows in surprise.
*12:45am*
Wow were we out for that long, I think to myself as I remember all the time Kamiya-san made my heart skip a beat when he said something that made me happy, off course it didn't mean anything to him he doesn't like me in that way at all…I bet if I told him how I felt he would be disgusted by me and hate me forever, but that's why I can never tell him, I want to keep this good relationship we have, off course I want to be more than friends but I know that would never happen…
I keep talking to myself in my head until Kamiya-san comes out into the living room and stops the rambling within me.
'Here you go.'
"Thanks" I say to him as he hand me a beer and slumps himself next to me. Maybe it's just my imagination, but it feels like he's sitting closer than usual.
I go to open my mouth and start a conversation but Kamiya-san beats me to it.
'It's already pretty late so you should just stay the night we both got tomorrow off anyways don't we' he says in a tranquil yet slurred tone as he goes to take a guzzle out of his can.
"Oh umm ok, but only it's ok with you, I don't wanna cause any trouble."
'It's fine, I get lonely by myself anyways so it's all good with me.'
"Haha its kinda hard to imagine you lonely or needing anyone" I say with a small laugh.
'Hey what's that supposed to mean, I am human off course I would get lonely sometimes.'
I smile to myself at this as I imagine Kamiya-san acting out the cliché way off feeling lonely.
'well I guess its expected for me to be lonely I mean I don't have a great personality or have an super good face like you, I'll just live a lonely life and receive no love from anyone other than nya-san haha.' Kamiya-san finishes his sentence with a little laugh and lies down on the couch with his eyes starting to drift close, but I'm not worrying abut that right now. Was this how Kamiya-san felt this whole time, how did I miss this.
"K-Kamiya-san" I say in a nervous tone.
'Hmm what is it Ono-kun.'
"umm well to tell you the truth at first I gotta say I was a bit scared of you, but I think that's the same with everyone if its someone they've never met before, and once I got to know you, you had one of the best personalities ever and you laugh allot and that makes me happy more than you would ever think…"
Oh no I need to stop talking…
"And also I…think you're very handsome and are enchanting in many ways, you're cute and adorable and that's what so great about you…"
This is getting bad, I need to stop before I say something ill regret. I try to stop myself from talking but my sain thoughts are being drowned out by the adrenalin…
"And you said that no one would love you but…that's not true because…"
No don't say it.
"Because…"
He's going to hate me so much after this.
"Because…I love you Kamiya-san…"
Oh fantastic job OnoD you just rewind you only chance to stay close to Kamiya-san with those three stupid words.
My eyes stayed glued to the unopened can of beer being clenched in my now slightly shaky hands. I wring out all the courage left in me and I turn my face slowly to look at Kamiya-sans, in those few milliseconds visions of his disgusted and horrified expression cross my mind and my heart drop and shatters into fragments…
But when I finally turn my head to look at him I see nothing, no expression at all really, all I see is a relaxed face, two shut eyelids and a pair of slightly opened lips, while his chest rises and falls slow and deeply.
He's…asleep. I feel reassurance and sadness run through me at the same time. Until there's a sudden pang in my gut and I feel nervous as my body starts to move closer to Kamiya-san, wait, what am I doing, it's as if I have no control of my body.
I get closer to his face and I eye up his lips as I start to lean down slowly.
Please Kamiya-san please wake up and hit me and call me an idiot before I do something really bad.
Please wake up right now and stop me from doing this to you. Please!
I need to stop myself but…Kamiya-san why do you tempt me like this…
I'm only millimetres away from his lips when I close my eyes…
"…"
It's soft, it's really soft, ten times softer than what I ever imagined.
I feel like I should pull away already but this rising feeling in my chest is willing me to keep going.
It's beautiful. I've never experienced this feeling in my whole life the feel of happiness mixed in with nerves and so much…love…love that will never be returned.
Before I know it the lips that I was experiencing are gone within what feel like a second and I lean back to realise what I just did.
The taste…It's sweet yet I still feel the tinge of the bitterness from the bear, I guess this is why they call love bitter sweet, my head is swimming in confusion excitement and desire.
My first actions and thoughts are to run and get out of this place I quickly gather my things and head for the door, as I'm about to leave I turn back and look at the peacefully sleeping Kamiya-san on the couch. I quickly runback inside and get a blanket and swiftly cover him up, As I do I feel my hand give a soft touch to his silky cheek, I look at him in silence and mutter an "I'm sorry" barely audible to hear.
I try my best to rip my gaze away from Kamiya-san and head out the door but when I'm heading back down the reality of it all hits me and the frantic thoughts start to rumble.
I just kissed Kamiya-san, on the lips, did he know was he able to feel it, no, he was asleep, maybe he heard what I said to him, no, once again he was asleep, but wasn't that kinda like harassing him I mean I didn't ask for permission and he didn't oblige, but he was so tempting and innocent how could someone NOT kiss him…
After allot of arguing with myself I finally came up with a scary but honest solution to this matter.
"Ok I'm gonna do it…" I take a deep breath and clench my fists.
"I'm going to tell Kamiya-san that I'm in love with him…"
~Authors note~
Sooo what did everyone think of the second chapter. Omg omg omg OnoD kissed him! Kyaaahh .
I just wanted to thank you so much for actually reading this story and to the people who commented and/or favourite this story thank you so much it means allot to me ^-^ (I seriously can't believe I've gotten reads on this . haha)
Anyways what did you think of this chapter…please give me feedback it helps me heaps, commenting anything is fine
Also I will usually update this story in the time span of a mim of a week and a max of 2 weeks, I promise so stay on the lookout, and there will also be Kamiya-san P.O.V's later in the story. And since we're talking about Kamiya-san, it's a bit late but I wanted to wish him a happy birthday. Wooooooo! (OMG HE LOOKS TO KAWAII TO BE 40 ;0; !) And btw this isn't going to be a sad frantic it happy! :D
Anyways please stay tuned for the next chapter. (Sorry I'm dragging it out so much, anyways please stay with me love you all ^w^)
P.s I freaking LOVE nya-san I just had to add him in :3
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