"Che!"Shizuo was annoyed at everything today. The damn flea was not at school today. He didn't say anything about it yesterday; neither did he look like he was suffering from some unknown disease. Oh don't get me wrong! It's not like I am worried about the flea. I have plenty of stuff to do without the flea. No. More like the flea doesn't even take a part of my life, I just plainly hate him and I want to kill once and for all. I wonder if he caught a cold and is desperately trying to stay alive. For some reason Shizuo felt an uneasy feeling in his stomach. It must be out of anger that it won't be him who kills the damn flea but a stupid disease.
"I will wait 'till he comes back and beat the shit out of him. Yeah then this feeling will be gone. Must be because I didn't get to smash my fist into that smug face yesterday. Well I will do it for sure when he comes back!"
It was a long day for Shizuo. The day seemed like it would never end. Even the clouds traveled way much more slowly than usual. Finally –which seemed like ages- the bell rang. I started to walk down the hill. Maybe if I waste my time into fights now the day might be able to pass by faster. But I have already promised Kasuka that I won't get into anymore gang fights. Why would the flea be absent? Reason 1#: He has a cold. 2#: He is skipping (damn if only I didn't skip at the beginning of the year then I wound have to attend these classes just so that that I have an attendance record) 3# He might have something to do- huh? What was that just now? Was he seriously counting the reasons why Izaya wouldn't be at school to annoy him? NO! NO HE WASN'T! There was no way that he would even think about that. He didn't care about the flea in the least. Why was he getting all weird when he thought of the flea? Suddenly he froze and his heart skipped. 4#: He was with a girl. Shizuo stared at the ground with wide open eyes. Izaya plays around? That idea had never occurred to him. Now that he thought about it whenever he entered the classroom he would see some girls around Izaya and some from the sidelines talking about him and blushing. So he was popular with girls? Izaya was not ugly that is all that he had noticed. But-wait! Why the hell did he care? If Izaya got a girlfriend or whatever it doesn't matter. Because of course he will be the one who will kill him and watch him from the sidelines as he barely reaches his hand toward his….girlfriend. Shizuo just blankly starred at the statement of the lovely nearing future that was about to come. He shot his leg up and out and kicked a street sign bending it with that sudden action. Once he sees the flea and beats the crap out of him he will feel better. Now his mind finally shot into reality. Right, he was going down the hill. He looked at the busy street in front of him. So many people walking, laughing, hanging out and holding hands. Then his eyes focused onto a couple that was walking down street. A raven haired guy wearing a green shirt and black pants was walking right next to an older girl who was probably 20-21ish wearing a grey top with bows at the sleeves and the front, a pink skirt that went up her knees (not short enough to see her panties) and matching pink high heels and a purse. She looked sexy with that light brown hair. The man turned around to face the woman with the huge knickers that Shizuo saw now and was drooling. But that soon stopped as he saw the mans face.
"Neeee~ Hold hands with me Izaya-kun~" whined the beauty with a very cute voice. "As you wish then" Izaya grabbed her hand gently and held it with just the right strength that a girl could handle but could not complain about that he was half hearted about her.
"Izaya-kunnnnn~ See that ice cream shop over there? Want to get some? I haven't had strawberry cheesecake flavor for such a long time~" The girl looked at him with half pouty lips and big brown eyes that seemed to beg like a puppy. How did I know all this? I had my curiosity aroused and followed them.
"Sure then Mogami-san. Any side dishes to it?" "Yes! I want strawberries, chocolate filled waffle sticks and some chocolate syrup on top please!" Wow she was really sexy talking in that kind of voice to Izaya. "Ok then, one strawberry cheesecake with strawberries, choco waffle sticks and choco syrup and one vanilla ice cream with blueberries." Wow Izaya would buy her stuff? Are they that close?
"Thank you Izaya-kun~" Mogami said excitedly. "Mmmmm! Sooo gooood!" whoa. She is making sexy moans quite the bold one. "Hey Izaya-kun let me try some of yours." Izaya lowered the ice cream cone down to her height so that she could take a bite. "How is it? Good?" he asked wondering. "Mmmmm~ really good~! But-"Izaya arched an eyebrow "I want to taste Izaya-kun cream too. I bet its way much more tastier than the ice cream." Mogami had got her face reaaaaaly close to his now and she was looking at him with complete lust and arousal. Holy shit! I think I am really snooping into their business now. But-…how will Izaya answer to that? I looked back to where they were and it was quiet. And then suddenly Izaya showed a playful smile.
"I don't mind Mogami-san but, your boyfriend will get angry." Mogami looked at him with a frown "I don't really care about my boyfriend. Izaya-kun is so much nicer and-"she paused and looked at him from head to toe "your body seems even more so….." she placed her small hand with perfect manicure on to his chest and she smirked "Such soft body- I wonder maybe I can be your first…" Izaya sighed and took Mogami's hand of his chest "No. You won't be even if you are very sexy and pretty I wont be my first" Mogami looked at him with wide eyes and then she closed them and she put a smug look on her face " I see, so Izaya-kun really was taken by other girls. This is not a surprise. But. I am very happy. Izaya-kun acknowledged me as pretty. I wasn't like this in high school though. I was an ugly fat face that only knew haw to eat chips. But Kairi changed me. I fell in love with him so I tried my best to get skinny and pretty and when he finally acknowledged me and dated me I felt really happy. But recently I found out that he has been getting along with one of his collage classmates. They are together almost every brake and they go hang out sometimes at weekends! She even called him in the middle of the night to come pick her up from a pub! And Kairi went and picked her up! If he wants to date her than so be it! I will also find a boyfriend very easily with my current face as well!" Izaya stared at the angry figure of the woman. Girls can be very scary. "Mogami-san you don't really want to give him up. Do you? So what are you doing flirting with guys? Go back home and show him that you don't like it. Also show that girl that you are his girlfriend and that she can't be so close to him." Mogami stared at him and smiled she whispered "Whoever got you first is quite lucky." After that she turned around and walked to the opposite direction they came from " I WILL SHOW HER HELL LIKE NEVER BEFORE!" she yelled at Izaya right before she turned a corner and disappeared.
Izaya sighed and was about to start walking right before his phone rang. He flipped it open and he started walking.
"Yeah I am done. Ok. I am coming." He flipped his phone closed and stopped to look at the sky. At that time I saw something shocking. Izaya who usually has a smirk or a grin on his face showed an expression that I have never thought he had. An expression of loneliness and sadness. At that time all I could see in Izaya's eyes was hollowness just like he had given up on everything. To Shizuo this was the first time that he had seen Izaya not wearing a smug face. He looked back at Izaya. That expression that he saw for only one moment was gone and replaced my hopeless eyes and a sad smile. After that Izaya looked down and kept on walking.
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Today is Monday –aka the worst day of the week. I woke up by the sound of an annoying attention whore alarm clock. Damn that bitch wanted so much attention this early in the morning; maybe I should rename it "girl". I put of the covers and walked to the washroom. First things first-a shower. I stripped off of my shirt and shorts and got inside the shower and turned on the cold water. It hit my face roughly and it made streams as it went down my body. Over all of my scars and burns. But the one that really got my attention was on my wrist. A very memorial scar. I slid my thumb over it tracing as the deepness of it got from little to deep and then to little again. I squinted my eyes as memories flashed back into my mind. Memories that I don't want to remember are coming back. I turn the knob to an even colder level. I can hear my heart in my ears. Its faintly reminding me that I am alive-which makes it all worse. I get out of the shower and grab a towel that I cover myself with. I walk outside the bathroom and head my bedroom to change. I reach my bed and turn around to see a water footprint path behind me. I let go of the towel and it falls to the ground. The huge window near my bed had been opened and the curtains were playing around with each other by they force of the wind. I look over my left wrist one more time in the sunlight and quickly dress up. I head for the kitchen. I take out the coffee and I boil water. I look at the table next to the sofa where mail was sitting waiting for my attention. From: Sora Ritsuko-To: Izaya Orihara. I almost trip on the way to running towards it. I put the mail close to my face to make sure I am not dreaming. My hands start to shake. I bite my lower lip before opening it hesitantly. I didn't see the mail yesterday; I just threw it at the table and went to bed.
"Is this for real?" I asked as if someone was going to answer. "Sora…." I read the letter and my eyes water. For such a long time I had been waiting. In the end I shouldn't expect much. I should have expected this much. I am really foolish to think that she would say something to make me happy.
To Izaya
It really has been a long time but during all these two past years I have written this letter little by bit to get all my feelings straight. I have made so many roughs and fakes of this letter that it seems almost like this is my masterpiece of life time. In my other letters I didn't write my true feelings and thoughts and it felt so wrong to send them to you. So, I decided to be truthful to you just like you were with me. I still cannot forgive you for what you did in the past. I still hate you with as much vengeance as I did back then. Your sin- I still cannot forgive. For Aoi and for your actions at that time. My other letters said stuff like "I believe that Aoi has forgiven you and I had tried to too during those years and my hatred for you has turned into complicated feelings." But that is not true at all. What I feel towards you is hatred and vengeance. My feelings are not close to love in the least. I believe that Aoi has not yet forgiven you. I truly believe that. But because Aoi is a kind hearted existence she will probably forgive you-her loved one. But I will not forever and ever I will let vengeance consume me 'till it reaches my bones and rots my flesh I will still not answer to your feelings. This will be my punishment towards you. Aoi-I want her back. She was my one and only dear person and yet you took he away. But I also need to find happiness as well. Because Aoi told me this "If I were to die, then I would like to become the sky! I will be able to watch you from everywhere and reach you in no time when you need help." But of course that was not meant for me. It was once again for you. But writing this letter of hatred will only get my feelings cleared up. I want Aoi to achieve happiness as well. So for her sake, find someone you love again-fall in love again and be happy. But don't you dare forget about Aoi. I know you won't but in an attempt to be happy you might try that-which is unforgivable. After all you won't forget about her because you were gentle to both of us. This is the reason why I hate you. That new person that you find' definitely don't let them go. Hold on to their hand and make sure that they don't feel lonely. Izaya- for that confession. My feelings are not the same-they are the opposite-I hate you. But for that confession-thank you and sorry. In a month it will be the one year anniversary. Make sure your there and both of us will pray together. From: Sora
Let Aoi find peace.
