Chapter 2
Sian pov
"Matthew you need your breakfast so sit your butt down at this table" I said sternly as he came back from the telly sulking and sat at the table.
"Here you go… scrambled eggs" I said happily as I gave him the plate, but he didn't seem too impressed. He started playing with his food.
"Not hungry this morning…. I made your favorite" I stated as he shrugged. "Babe what's wrong" I asked as he looked at me and rolled his eyes. He had grown used to doing that and it made him look so much like Sophie. I sighed and poured him some orange juice.
"So are you doing anything special at school today" I asked him as he just shrugged. I sighed again as I gave Lily her breakfast. "Here you go baby" I said to her as she ate her fruit bowl eagerly. I noticed Math still hadn't touched his eggs. "Matty you do realize you're not gonna leave this table until you've finished that" I said leaning on the table. He frowned as he started putting big pieces of it in his mouth. "Babe slow down you'll get a tummy ache" I said but he already finished it.
"Done" he mumbled as he got off his seat. I frowned, I was about to go after him as the phone rang.
"Uhm hello" I said distracted by Math stomping his feet as he went to his room.
"Sian it's me" Sophie said angrily.
"What is it Sophie, cause I'm kind of busy" I stated as she sighed.
"You were supposed to bring them back this morning" she stated as I closed my eyes.
"Right… sorry I forgot" I stated as she scoffed.
"I'm sure" she mumbled as I got angry.
"I did" I almost shouted. "Look I'll bring them over now, if that's what you want" I stated as she sighed.
"What I want… fuck sakes…. No it's fine I'll pick them up from school" she sighed.
"What about their stuff" I asked as she sighed again.
"I'll come and get it okay" she replied.
"Fine" I replied. "Bye" I said as I hung up. I felt frustration and anger hit my body. "God why does she have to wind me up so much." I thought.
"Math are you ready? We're leaving" I huffed as I picked Lily up. "Come on let's get you sorted for day care" I mumbled.
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"Hello can I help" I said to the bloke that just entered the shop.
"Uhm well I have to say sorry to my girlfriend 'cause I knocked somebody up, any suggestions" he asked as I tried not to raise my eyebrows. "Great another scumbag, who thinks that flowers will make it all go away" I thought as I smiled at him.
"Uhm right well the best way is a bouquet, cause a simple bouquet of roses won't cut it" I said as he frowned. "A dozen red roses mean gratitude, 25 mean congratulations and 50 mean unconditional love. You need to go with the 50, but add six stems of deep red roses to tell her that you feel ashamed what you did. And then add another six stems of cinnamon roses to say that your apology comes without pretensions." I stated as he looked at me in disbelief.
"Lady if you're trying to get me to buy that many roses you're deluding" he huffed as I breathed in.
"Right well you can always go with five stems of daisies, which express unwavering loyalty and love; six stems of Forget-Me-Nots, which signify faithful love and the sweet memories you share; and finally, a single stem of the mauve flower, which asks the question 'Do you still love me?' if she says yes, you have to tell her you won't mess things up again" I stated as I sighed.
"You're confusing me with all of your symbolism" he stated as I chuckled. "How about I just take this white lily" he asked as I frowned.
"Well the whit lily represents purity and virtue" I said trying to tell him not to take that one.
"All right enough with the symbolism just tell me which flower to take that isn't too expansive" he stated. I closed my eyes to hide my eye rolling.
"All right take this one, it's called foxgloves she'll love it" I stated trying to show my enthusiasm.
"Okay great, thanks" he said as he followed me to the register.
"That's 14£99 please" I said quietly as he handed me the money. "Have a good day…. Prick" I said as he left the shop.
"Foxgloves" I chuckled. Foxgloves were known as insincerity. I watched the clock. It said 6pm, closing time. I grabbed my keys and closed the shop. The wind was howling and the rain was rattling as I got into my car.
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Today was going to be different; I was going to prove to Sian that I did put my family first. I watched the clock as it hit 3pm, time to go get the kids. I quickly got up and took my keys.
"Math over here" I said as he looked my way and furrowed his brows. He ran over to me.
"Mum? What are you doing here?" he asked me as I frowned.
"I came to pick you up silly" I said as I took his backpack.
"Where's Sian" he asked me.
"Well you're spending the rest of the week with me" I sniggered as he smiled nervously. "Now let's get your sister ay" I said to him as we headed for the car.
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As we entered the crèche we were greeted by a woman.
"Hello may I help you…. oh hi Matty, oh I'm sorry you must be Sian's wife" the woman said as I nodded. I could she have forgotten me, I mean I wasn't a regular but I have picked up Lily before.
"She didn't give too much of a fuss?" I asked her as she smiled at me.
"No she's an angel" she said as she led me to her. She was an angel just like her mum. She had the same blond locks and the icy blue eyes Sian had. She almost smelled like Sian, but there was a slight difference.
"Hi babes" I said to her as I picked her up. "Momma" she squealed. "Yeah hi, I heard you behaved as a very good girl today." I said as she nodded clutching on to her teddy.
"If you two want we can go for ice cream" I said as Matty shrugged. What was up with him these days? I looked outside and I saw rainclouds gathering.
"Or maybe a hot coco ay" I said as I took Math by the hand. "Thank you, I'll bring her round tomorrow" I said to her as she smiled.
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"Mum look what lily did, look … mum look" he giggled waving something at me. My head was going to burst.
"Babe I'll look later, can you please keep it down I'm trying to work" I said calmly as he frowned angrily and threw the object on the ground.
"Sian would've looked" he said as he ran out of the living room. I sighed and closed my eyes; I decided not to go after him. I'll talk to him when he's cooled off and I really need this article done. I glanced at the clock 6h30pm, shit I have my deadline in an hour and my article isn't near done.
Lilly started crying for the object as I sighed in frustration.
"What is it beautiful? Do you want this" I said as I picked up the drawing from the floor. I sighed as I looked at it. Lily, mummy, momma and Math it said.
"Here you go Lily" I said as I handed it to her. "Are you mad at me too" I said as glanced away, distracted by summit. "Great even my two year old can't stand to look at me; she really does resemble her mother." I muttered as Matty came down disguised in his pirate costume and started shouting which made Lily cry. "Ugh no" my mind screamed as the phone rang.
"Hello" I sighed.
"Hi….there's been…" the voice said but I couldn't hear it.
"Hold on a minute I can't hear you... Math will you keep it down" I shouted as he stopped and dropped down in front of the telly giving me the family trade death glare. I sighed as I picked up Lily and tried to sooth her.
"Yeah sorry could you repeat that, my house is in chaos right now" I stated.
"Right are you Sophie Webster" the voice asked.
"Yes I am why" I asked him.
"Okay good, I'm Dr. Clarence from St. Johns hospital… your wife has been in an accident" he stated as panic hit me.
"What… o my god is she okay…" I said with a shaky voice as I felt my legs go to jelly.
"We got her stable but I think you should come down to the hospital" he stated as I felt a big lump in my throat.
"Yes of course, I'm on my way" I stated as I put down the phone.
"Matthew put on your coat and shoes we're going to Uncle Derek" I stated as a grin appeared on his face.
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I ran into the hospital after dropping the kids off at Derek's.
"Hi I'm looking for my wife Sian Powers Webster…. She's been in accident" I whimpered.
"Right… calm down miss…. Right Sian powers she's in room 235" she said as I rushed off. As I reached her room I entered it like a mad person. I saw her lying in the hospital bed with her arm in a cast.
"Hi" I said shyly.
"What are you doing here" she asked as I frowned.
"You got into an accident…. They called me" I stated as she scoffed.
"Well you can go now cause I'm fine" she huffed as I felt my eyes watering.
"But… you're hurt…I'm not going" I stated as I brushed a single tear away. She looked at me and I could swear I saw sympathy and tenderness in her eyes. But it went as fast as I came and was replaced my utter cold.
"Why not" she asked.
"Because you're my wife" I stated as she scoffed again.
"Only on paper" she snapped.
"Okay fine, how about Lily and Math" I said to her as she sighed and her gaze softened. "Please just let me take care of you right now" I pleaded with her as her breathing became heavier.
"No, you lost that right a long time ago." She said as her voice broke a little. "Just go Sophie, tell the kids I'm fine and I'll be back in 2 days with just a couple bumps and bruises" she sighed as I groaned.
"I told you I'm not going" I stated as she sighed.
"Fine, just don't talk to me or touch me" she said as my heart broke all over again.
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I sat there for hours just looking at her, watching her sleep, eat. She didn't say a word to me, nothing at all.
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"Soph…. please don't" she said as I was watching her sleep. She fluttered her eyes and looked at me, I smiled and for the first time in months she smiled back, but there was hurt in the smile so much hurt. "Soph please, I can't… I can't take this anymore…. Please just go…" she whimpered.
"Sian…I" I tried to comfort her but she shrugged me off.
"Can't you see this is hurting me…. I need you to give me space okay, I can't get over you if you're always here" she stated as I frowned.
"I don't want you to get over me" I stated as she breathed in.
"Well I do so please….please just… go" she begged me as tears almost fell from her eyes. I couldn't bare to see her this way, she was hurting. She was hurting because of me. I gulped in anticipation of what I was about to do. I kissed her lips gently as a sob escaped her lips. I was trying to keep her taste on my lips, trying to hold on to that moment for just a moment longer. I sighed and rested my forehead against hers.
"Okay… I'll back off for good this time" I said as I got up.
"Thank you" she whispered as I left the room.
"Was this it, was it really over..." I thought as a tear escaped my eye and rolled down to my chin.
