Memo: I've got to say that I'm really disappointed by some of the reviews I got- especially some of the anonymous ones. The points they brought up I wasn't able to address them directly, and so I'm going to do it here.


The following review was my favorite:

annoyed person
2006-10-23

this chapter was crap. you're using the same characters but the only thing that is the same is their names. they might as well be different people, bella was never and never will be that insensitive. u are a horroble writer

Oh annoyed person, you've definitely made my day you know. The same characters, you're right- I do have them. But about Bella? Did you even READ the note at the end? You DON'T know her point of view- and so how do you know she's insensitive? She's putting up a front, just like our beloved Cullen did in New Moon. You've read that book now, haven't you?

Oh, and yeah- my theory on you is that you're already a user but too ashamed to put your name on here. Is that true? I wasn't able to ask you this directly because you were anonymous, but don't insult my writing. 2000 words shouldn't make me horrible and insensitive just yet.

And to all you guys who believed she was out of character, the main thing is you DON'T have her point of view just yet. I know I shouldn't reply to reviews on here, but unless they really go against me like my favoritest little review up there, don't worry. I'll have why she left here.


And most of all, I'd like to thank everyone who accepted this story for how it is!! There are a few of you actually who've added it to your favorites and alerts, and I'd like to thank you guys the most because you aren't against new concepts.

I'd also like to thank everyone who reviewed- they were each taken into account and replied to (if not anonymous). I appreciate it!! (So, very, very much!, lol)

Disclaimer: Nada


Bella's View-

I watched him blankly as he sped away. Sighing, I stepped back into the house, and closed the door behind me. He wasn't welcome here anymore. I knew he wouldn't come back either. He knew it was for the best.

Shaking my head bitterly and fighting against the tears, I took off my jacket and hung it- my hands too numb to even completely close the closet door. Even in Forks for about two years, I still wasn't used to the rain.

Making my way to the living room, I turned on the fireplace; sitting down and rubbing my hands- I could barely feel them. I almost laughed, clenching my teeth reflexively. I felt a tear slide down my cheek, and wiped it away instantly.

He wasn't worth tears. Not anymore. He's part of the past, I reminded myself.

Ever since he had come back, I had been watching everything I was doing around him. Especially since the Charlie incident- my motorcycle brigade apparently almost got me grounded for a few years…

After what had happened when I had almost hugged Jacob, Edward had been cautiously watching me. He believed that I was leaving him for Jacob- apparently what I had said to Jake once if he only gave me time, had not gone unnoticed as I had hoped through Edward.

Edward was always by me, I had realized, and always telling me what to do. And I listened- doing whatever he asked, giving in instantly; the only exception to this the marriage proposal.

I had finally realized that I gave into everything he asked, my own state of mind had seemed to disappear. I was always the damsel in distress; and probably would still be even if I was a vampire. He'd always be saving me.

And through this, I knew I had to leave. End it before it was too late, since there was only so much I could take. Edward had been my everything; was my everything, and I knew I couldn't live like this.

I knew I couldn't leave my family now. Charlie had been losing whatever he had left, always thanking me and watching me now that he was at home so often. I had found out the only reason he maintained any version of sanity when Renee had left was because of fishing- Harry Clearwater's death had cost us a lot.

Renee believed she was pregnant, for another tidbit. Phil was freaking out, he didn't know how to take care of either her; or the baby. He was trying though, really hard to help raise money- I believe he's on the verge of getting a steady job. His life long passion for baseball he's giving up now.

I couldn't leave my little brother or sister alone- I didn't know how Phil would be like a father since I knew to support the child he'd always be working, and Renee I had taken care of while growing up. I didn't believe this role could be reversed vice-versa either.

That, sad enough how it was, barely counted up to a fraction to why I wouldn't leave. I knew now why he had always insisted on ending this, knowing from the start that this was a bad idea. And I'd been too persistant as well, always nagging him to let it keep on going.

I felt another tear. And another. I didn't bother wiping away these ones.

He's of the past, I told myself, Look towards the future.

It's for the best, I tried again. It'll make him happy Bella, and that's all that matters. It'll make you happy too- you can't ruin his life this way. You're a pest Bella, an unwelcome pest in their lives who'll only complicate it. You'll never fit in.

Telling myself these lines is what helped me break up with him in the first place. I couldn't live with myself like this, always depending on someone. I hadn't been raised this way. I was the caretaker, not the dependant one.

I knew I'd only add complications, to everyone. My utter selfishness I had learned better of since that day…it had changed everything.

I heard the door creak open at that point, and I nearly jumped. Charlie was back. Wiping away my tears on my sleeve, I forced myself to forget it. He's of the past, I reminded myself. You have to look towards the future. It's for the best. For both of you.

"Hey Bella," I heard Charlie's voice sigh when he saw me in the house. He look relieved, as though I was going to leave him again. According to Edward, I was the only thing that mattered to him now…

"Hey Dad,' I replied, turning my head to smile at him briefly. I didn't want him to see me like this. I was the caretaker I knew- always would be one- and not the dependant. I didn't want to bother others…I was too much of a burdeon on my self already. "How was work?" I asked.

"Good as usual Bells," he sighed. "I'm happy you're home. Do you have any plans tonight?"

"Nope,' I shook my head, smiling to myself. "I'm just going to stay home. What about you?"

"Staying home Bells, just as usual," he sighed, and I knew he was smiling despite himself. "You want to watch a game with me? It's the Mariners again?" Besides his question, I could hear the plea between his words.

"Sure Dad," I answered, and got up.

The lines had finally sunk in.

Edward was of the past. I had at last realized that this was for the best- not just for my family, but for me as well. I couldn't create a burdon now could I? Not again.

I was determined not to be a problem anymore.

Not for him.

Not for me.

Not for us.


Note: She knows its for the best because it can never work out. She believes in that, and pretty strongly too. She doesn't want to create a problem and so that's why she's like this.

Tell me if you don't understand. I'll try to clear it up as much as I can.

Now tell me what you want me to put in, if you have suggestions, comments, if you liked it or not, and so forth

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