Title: Dream Child
Author: Celestial Seraphim
Warning: violence, mature themes, angst, , OOCness, mxm, dark themes, abuse, etc.
Pairing: KakashixNaruto, SasukexNaruto
Side Pairings: Undecided
Disclaimer: I don't own any characters or settings in the Naruto Franchise save what I create.
Summary: Kakashi never realized how much he could hurt the tiny heart he held to tightly within his hands until he realizes just how precariously Naruto's mental state balances on the edge. When one night proves just how dangerous Naruto's situation can become and a certain Raven stumbles upon their situation he'll need all the help he can get. But will he lose Naruto's heart in the process?
Author's Note: So I found another adorable Doujinshi by the same person who did 'Himawari' and 'Feverish' and it's called 'Summer Festival'. Does anyone else love the way this person draws their mask-less Kakashi!? I think I'm really starting to love this pairing thanks to this artist, I just think it's incredibly adorable. I never understood the appeal until I started reading them lol. By the way the cover does belong to the wonderful human being who draws these Doujinshis so go look at them! Lol here's another chapter out for you guys! Enjoy!
Dream Child
Sometimes instead of a corridor, it's a maze…
Sometimes instead of a door, it's a cage…
Sometimes there's a ledge beckoning you over…
-Unknown
He felt shy thinking about…Hell, he felt shy just remembering certain things. He'd always admired the older man though, always felt safe when he was around. Kakashi was different after all. He'd never flinched from him, never tried to avoid him, and never neglected him. He'd always treated him fairly…after all even Iruka who was like a big brother to him had avoided him at first. Kakashi…Kakashi was different though. If he thought on it now, Kakashi reminded him of the ANBU that used to come to his rescue when he was younger. He could still remember the ANBU's gentle touches, they really were pretty similar to Kakashi's…he'd have to ask him about that one day.
In all honesty though he couldn't be sure when it started. He couldn't believe it actually happened after all it was Kakashi and he was…well he was just a kid. A monster. A demon. When he'd first met Kakashi he'd thought 'here is someone I can respect and wont judge me' but somewhere along the way it had changed. He didn't know why but he wanted to be closer to him. He wanted to be praised by him and have him pat his head whenever he did a good job. He wanted him to notice.
It was hard though.
It was hard to keep up the act and pretend everything is alright. It is hard. Sometimes it was just so tiring…sometimes he wanted someone, him, to notice. He still couldn't believe he had. Naruto never thought that, that day Sakura got injured and caught a fever would mark a drastic change in his life. He'd honestly been worried about her after all. She was mean to him and hit him, sure. She was his teammate though and maybe if he'd been a bit stronger she wouldn't have gotten hurt. When Kakashi had urged him and Sasuke-teme to go to sleep, Naruto had been restless. Even after taking a nice warm shower he'd been unable to sleep so he went to Sakura's room, noticing Kakashi was still awake as well. Then again he needed to be in order to watch over Sakura.
He watched over her as well. Shifting his attention when he heard his smooth baritone say his name. Something about it made the hairs on his body stand on end, or maybe it was the droplets of water trailing down his neck. However, he must have realized he was listening because he asked him what he was doing there. Worry had curled his stomach at the sound of her breathing and unthinkingly he had bit his lip.
"Sakura-chan is going to be okay…right?"
His voice had been soft, barely above a whisper. He'd been afraid of waking her and interrupting her healing rest. Kakashi's reply had been immediate, "She's going to be absolutely fine once her fever breaks and her wound starts to heal. You'll see tomorrow morning."
Naruto had looked at him then, silently pleading with him to reassure him that she'd be okay. That everything would straighten itself out. Grey eyes looked carefully into his and suddenly everything happened all too quickly. He could still remember the shock he felt when he realized Kakashi was pulling his mask down. Could still remember the split second thought of 'so young' before his mind went blank at the feel of the older man's lips on his. They'd been slightly chapped but not completely rough surprisingly. He still blushed at the thought of it. However, Sensei's next words had made the world seem like it finally righted itself.
"Everything will be okay, Naruto. I promise."
Just like that it had felt like Kakashi had known it wasn't just Sakura's condition he'd been worried about but everything messed up in his life. The knot in his stomach eased and just like that Naruto somewhat sagged against the older man, too world weary to feel embarrassed. Feeling the need to ground himself as he leaned his forehead against Kakashi's shoulder he grabbed a hand full of his shirt. He still doesn't know how long they stood like that for…hours? Minutes? It didn't matter because for once he didn't feel so alone and Kakashi noticed. He had started slightly when his rough hands gently –he still couldn't believe how gentle he'd been- detangle his fingers from his clothes.
"Go get some rest, Naruto. Before the morning comes…"
His head had immediately snapped up, eyes locking on grey as he searched them. Silently pleading for Kakashi not to pull away because that's what it suddenly felt like. Again those grey eyes watched him carefully before gently the older man had said, "We'll talk about this when we get to Konoha…when we're all safely back home."
Naruto had watched him carefully before nodding his head and bidding him goodnight. He hadn't gotten any sleep that night but he was relieved when Morning came and Sakura chirped an energetic 'good morning' to them. If anyone noticed the fact he'd refused to look at their sensei, they didn't say anything. He could still remember how breath taking it had been to be kissed by Kakashi of all people. How it had seemed to tingle starting from his toes and traveling to the tips of his fingers. He knew he was still probably a kid in his eyes, knew that he hadn't grown up fully but sometimes…sometimes it felt like he was older than that. Sometimes he thought Kakashi could see it. Could see the whispers, the stares and the beatings slowly weighing him down more and more.
Times like those he yearned for Kakashi.
He'd never wanted to be protected by someone before. Had never really trusted anyone enough to want to try and let someone protect him but maybe, just maybe…
He could let Kakashi try.
Please Kami-sama…don't let me down…
