Chapter 2 – The Roof
Eddi took a big gulp of air and felt the oxygen hit her lungs, quelling the tears that had been threatening to surface. She walked slowly over to the small stairs that linked one part of the roof to the other, and sat down. This was the first time that she'd been up here since Luc had left; she hadn't been able to bring herself to do it, until now. She gazed over to the railings on the far side of the roof, and remembered the first time that she'd ever seen him. "Don't do it." She whispered to herself, reliving those first words. Eddi imagined Luc turning round, remembered all the sarcastic comments that he'd made to her, remembered his disapproval of alcohol. She really hadn't liked him at first; she'd thought he was a cocky smartass. Well, she still thought he was a cocky smartass, but he was her cocky smartass, and being without him was so painful.
Even throughout all that time that she'd thought she'd hated him, he'd still been on her mind nearly 24/7, she hadn't been able to stop thinking about him. He was like an obsession, except she hadn't realised that the feelings she'd mistaken as disdain, had really been the beginnings of love.
She walked over to the railings, and looked over the edge. It was a long way down, just like her relationship – When you fall in love, it's a long way down. Love. That felt strange to say, had she really loved him? She'd only known him a short time, and most of that time they'd been at loggerheads. People said it took years to fall in love, and yet she couldn't really think of any other explanation for the sense of need that she felt for Luc.
This wouldn't do, this dwelling on the past, she needed to let it all out, before it consumed her, even in her work. Eddi looked over her shoulder, making sure that there were no other people, and then she tilted back her head and screamed. She screamed till her throat was raw, and she let the tears flow down her face. Then, after about 10 minutes, there was nothing left, so she wiped her face, took a deep breath, and headed back down the stairs to AAU, feeling very empty.
