Connections, Love, & Attachment
"A Jedi should not know anger, nor hatred, nor LOVE."
Padmé: "Are you allowed to love? I thought that was forbidden for a Jedi?"
Anakin: "Attachment is forbidden. Passion is forbidden. Compassion, which some would define as unconditional love, is central to a Jedi's life, so you might say we're encouraged to love."
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Note: please don't ask me to update soon with this one. These story is not something you can write in one day anytime I want to. The first one took a lot for me to write. I was thinking about my ex boyfriend that day for some reason. The relationship ended a few months ago. We're still friends but we don't ever get to see each other at all anymore. We've known each other for four years. He's been my closest friend since we met. When I write this story I'm thinking about him. I'm ok with it, but not really over it. I don't think I'll ever really be. He's the first guy outside my family I trusted.
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Hera:
"Spill it love." I say. I know that look better than any other look he has. He's given me that look several times over the years. "You're thinking about us."
"A little, something else just occurred to me. You know how your always saying Ezra and I are so much alike." Kanan says.
"Yes, you two could be more like each other if you were father and son." I say.
"Does the same thing apply to you and Sabine?" He ask.
"Never really thought about it. I guess in some ways we are a lot alike as well. Why?" I respond.
"You don't think that they are… you know like the two of us?" He adds.
I think about it for a minute before I respond.
"Are you asking me if they're involved with each other? Honestly, it wouldn't surprise me. They are both teenagers and they are attracted to each other. Even though Sabine denies it you can tell she's bluffing."
"That doesn't make me feel any better."
"You worry to much love. If they are so what. You would sound like a hypocrite if you called them out on it. We both would. I guess you could have Zeb do confront them but I don't think they would listen. It's only a matter of time before they do if there not already."
"Knowing Zeb he might encourage them."
"Love your honestly worried about the kids being to much like us. Why does it even matter?"
"Ezra's a Jedi in training. That type of behavior is forbidden."
"And your a Jedi. Your forbidden to act on your feelings as well. Does that stop us? It doesn't stop this." I say placing my hands on his face and kissing him right on the lips. He returns the kiss.
"It doesn't stop you from responding." I whisper.
"Well darling, you have a way of breaking me apart. I can't deny you anything." He says lifting me up by the waist. He coms Zeb. "Hey big guy. Hera and I are going to be busy tonight."
"Ok boss, what about the kids? Want me to get them out too?" Zeb responses.
"No, I don't think they will be disturbing us. They're busy themselves." I say.
"I thought you said you didn't know." Kanan says.
"Oh they are but that wasn't the point love." I say.
"The kid's get a little action from the artist? So that's what they're doing across the hall. Way to go Ezra. It took you long enough." Zeb says.
"They're doing what? Now?" Kanan says. I calm him down with another kiss.
"We don't know that for sure love."
The kiss distraction him enough to keep him from running into Sabine's cabin as we pass by it. Kanan pushes me against the wall trying to get my cabin door open while we continue to make out.
Once it's open he carries me through it. I waste no time unbuckling his armor. It falls to the ground.
Kanan pulls off my pilot helmet as I reach for the bottom of his shirt. I pull off his shirt and feel the zip in the back of my suit go down. He sets me down on my bed kissing my neck as my suit slips off my shoulders and he pulls it down to my waist. My hands go straight to work on his pants button and zipper. He undoes my bra and tosses it across the room his pants fall down in the process. He then makes quick work removing the rest of my suit.
"You know I'm going to make sure not a single inch of you isn't covered in kiss before we're done right?" he says.
"You say that every time love." I say as he works his way to down my neck and upper body.
"I mean it every time." he says between kisses.
"And you follow through every time." I add laughing slightly. Then let out a small moan as he reaches my breast.
I grab his ponytail and pull it out. His hair falls down. He goes farther down my body. I pull off his under shirt. My hands run over his abs. He pulls me panties off with his teeth. I grab his boxers as he starts to work his way back up my body. His boxers going off slowly as he moves up.
"You ready Love?" He ask as he kisses my breast again.
"I'm always ready for my Jedi." I say.
He laughs a little at that. "This is very Jedi like of me is it."
"Doesn't matter what you do. To me you'll always be my Jedi knight in shining armor." I sigh.
Another moan escapes my mouth. I pull his head up to mine and bring our lips together. We kiss passionately and I feel him enter me.
"Uhmm. Getting straight to it this time I see." I get out between kisses.
"Couldn't help it. Passion is forbidden remember." He whispers against my lips. His tongue enters my mouth as he goes deeper into me.
"Oh Kanan!" I moan. I wrap his hair in my hands and tug at it. He pulls away from the kiss and starts to thrust. He strokes my lekku and kisses my forehead.
"I love you Hera. I don't care that this was forbidden. The Jedi were wrong. Love doesn't lead to the dark side. It saves you from it."
My back arches as he enters me again. I let out a moan. His hands move to my breast and he starts to massage them. My mind goes numb. My breathing quickens. I moan several more times.
"Kanan, don't stop. Please don't ever stop."
"Why would I ever stop loving the most beautiful Twi'lik women in the universe."
"You're just saying that."
"I might be a little bias. You are the best relationship I've ever had." He kisses my lips again. This kiss last longer than any other.
"Not many women would be able to put up with you and your Padawan. I never met two people so stubborn." I say once it ends.
"Do you really want to insult me right now?"
"No, just stating the truth. Umm do that again love."
"Anything you please my lady."
I roll my eyes. "Always such a romantic aren't you Sir Jarrus."
"Only for you darling."
"True not every girl gets her knight like I do. I don't think anyone gets a Jedi this way."
"Except you and Sabine apparently."
"Finally coming around to that are we."
"I guess I'll have to learn to live with it. Like you said I can't really stop them." He says rolling us both on our sides.
"Kanan, will you please stay with me tonight." I ask.
"Don't I always?" He replies.
"Except when Ezra needs you."
"He'll be ok tonight. If he has any common sense he'll stay with Sabine tonight."
"They're teenagers love. This was their first time together. He's not going to stay. They don't want to get caught. They don't know we know."
"He'll still be fine. No one has nightmares after that. It fills your mind and you want more."
We fall asleep Kanan still inside me.
The next morning I wake up and Kanan's gone. I get dressed and leave my cabin.
"Kanan?" I say finding him standing outside his cabin he now shares with Ezra the door opened.
"Shush, come here and look." He whispers. I walk over. He wraps his arms around me.
Ezra and Sabine were both asleep on the top bunk. They were both in their night clothes. Ezra had his arms around Sabine who's head was resting on his chest.
"Ezra." Sabine mumbles.
"I guess he didn't stay but she didn't want him to be alone." I say.
"He said her name earlier. They're kinda a cute couple aren't they? I wonder what their parents would think about the two of them." Kanan says. Just then Kanan pulls me to a certain spot. "Sorry I kinda want to watch this and if they see us…" he whispers.
Ezra's eyes slowly open. He looks down at Sabine using his chest as a pillow. "Oh Sabine." He says rolling his eyes.
"Umm Ezra." She mumbles sleepy.
"I'm right here." He says leaning down and kiss her forehead. She pulls herself up and rolls on top of him. It knocks the breath out of him for a second. He regains his breath and takes her head in his hands and pulls her face up to his. "I love you." He says then kisses her on the lips. We watch as he pulls away.
"Ezra? Did you just?" She yawns.
"Uh huh." He nods. She wraps her arms around him and kisses him back. He gratefully returns the kiss.
"You're right love they are cute together." I whisper looking up at Kanan. He leans down and kisses me on the lips.
"Should we interrupt them now?" He ask.
"You may." I say giving him my permission.
"Uhum" he clears his throat and stepping into view. "I'm sorry to interrupt the two of you but can I borrow my Padawan for a moment."
Both of them breaking away from their kissing and looking at him.
"Sorry boss. It won't happen again." Sabine says.
"Master, I can explain." Ezra manages to say.
"There's no need to Ezra. I know what the two of you were up to last night. Next time I find the two of you together it better be in her room." Kanan says.
"You knew and you're not mad?" They boys ask. "Do the others?"
"It took you two long enough. For goodness sakes even a blind man could see their was something between you two. No offense love." I say.
"None taken." Kanan says.
"So you both knew all along?" Ezra asks.
"And your all ok with it?" Sabine adds.
"I wasn't at first when I sensed it. Hera here had to calm me down and keep me from bursting in on you two." Kanan says.
"I'm fine with it. Teens will be teens, but what would your parents say if they were around?" I say.
Both teens blush a little.
"Come on kids I'll make breakfast. Zeb will be back any minute now." I say.
