What Love truly means
Chapter 2-Confessions of the heart and soul
Same warnings as in chapter 1, same legal stuff as in chapter 1.
Sora hurried himself to get everything ready, Roxas had to go home first to tell his parents and get his stuff, Sora was glad he had to do this, he could get everything looking nice, he had to create the atmosphere that was somewhere in between calm and romantic date, both of them were going to feel uncomfortable as it was. Sora tried to clean everything up in the kitchen, living room and his bedroom, Sora then made the resolution that he would confess to Roxas in the living room, so he could run to his bedroom if Roxas denied feeling the same way, Sora berated himself for coming up with such a childish idea, but he realised when it came to the actual moment he would do it regardless of how childish he felt afterwards. He then heard a knock on the door; Roxas was here, Sora made deep heavy breaths to calm himself as he walked towards it.
Roxas POV
"Hey Sora" Roxas said, not bothering to wait for his friend to tell him to come in, Sora always forgot to do that. A quick glance at the boy made Roxas feel a little less nervous, Sora seemed just as edgy as he was.
"So what do you wanna do first?" Sora asked.
"How about some video games, then dinner" Roxas liked to plan things one or two steps ahead, that way he had more control over what was going on and Roxas really wanted a decent amount of control in this situation, Roxas thought he best press the desired subject onto Sora after they had dinner.
"Ok, come on"
The slight change in tone from his first sentence to his second, made Roxas realise he was putting on a fake happy face, Roxas didn't like when Sora made his fake smiles, they made Roxas feel hollow inside, Roxas always felt hollow when he knew Sora was sad, he pushed down his instant reflex to turn all concerned now is not the time for that he said to himself, now he had to focus on Sora, the chocolate haired boy handed him a controller, then they sat down to play the game. Roxas wasn't much of a gamer, he preferred to spend his time reading or drawing, he was nearly as good as Namine, nearly.
Sora POV
Sora knew this was going to be easy, Roxas didn't play video games, at least Sora was better than Roxas at something, Roxas was smarter than him, a better drawer and a faster reader, not that Sora ever read enough to really know how fast he was, he gradually grew calmer as the mindless pushing of buttons to try and counter Roxas' moves made him focus, they were playing SoulCalibur IV, their favourite game, Sora liked to play as Nightmare, even Sora felt like being evil sometimes, Roxas liked to play as Siegfried, the opposite to Nightmare, Siegfried reminded Sora of a dream he once had about Roxas, he had come to Sora's rescue as a knight in shining armour, Sora of course was the damsel in distress, the dream always ended with the strong and powerful Roxas taking Sora in his arms. Sora let out an unintentional sigh as his thoughts drifted to the fantastic moment.
"What?" Roxas questioned.
"Huh?"
"You sighed, what is it"
"Oh nothing just remembering something nice"
"Hmm I wonder if you'll remember the time I kicked your ass." Roxas chuckled, slicing Sora's character down the middle and causing him to fall off the arena.
"Maybe, but I bet you can't beat me again" Sora laughed as he ordered the game to go for a rematch. They kept playing for another hour or so, Sora winning more than his fair share of games.
"Ehh, I'm hungry" Roxas stated, stretching as he stood up from the couch
"Ok, I'll go make dinner then, I'm kinda hungry too" came Sora's reply.
Sora walked into the kitchen to get the pasta he decided he would cook tonight out of the pantry, Roxas liked Sora's cooking, because every time Sora cooked Roxas couldn't help but smile, the thought of the blonde's enchanting lips and twinkling cerulean eyes made Sora swoon, only mentally though, he was being very careful not to make anymore physical movements or sounds that might give away his affection.
"Dinner will be ready in about 15 mins"
"Okay" Roxas sat down at the breakfast bar in the Kitchen, looking at Sora.
"You know, you don't have to sit here and wait" Sora pointed out to his friend.
"I know, but I thought it might be nice if I sat here and talked to you while you cooked"
"Fine" Sora said, pretending to huff and pout as he moved around the kitchen. Roxas chuckled, knowing that he hadn't even got close to getting on Sora's nerves
"Roxas?"
"Yeah?"
"You know how happy Riku and Kairi look together; do you think you'll ever love someone like that?"
Roxas POV
Roxas couldn't help but blush profusely at the statement why was Sora bringing up that topic? Roxas began to panic; this was not when he planned for Sora to ask him that question, but why was he asking it without any sort of encouragement from a previous topic, unless…Roxas thought. That was impossible though, Sora was too innocent to ever love a single person like that, too cute to think that one person deserved his love and not the whole world. Roxas plucked up the courage to answer back though.
"I hope so, but I think the one I feel that way about now is oblivious to me"
"Who is that?" Sora asked his interest increasing.
"Oh you know them very well" Roxas grinned mischievously, Sora hadn't won yet, Roxas was gonna keep him guessing, just to be mean.
"Is it Namine?"
"No"
"Rikku?"
"No"
"Paine?"
"No"
"Well then who is it?"
Roxas' heart was pounding; he was so close to revealing who it was, confessing to Sora.
Beepbeep, Beepbeep
The timer on Sora's oven started, so he quickly spun around and turned it off, pulling the pasta off the stove and starting to dish it up.
"Sorry about that, so who do you have a crush on then?"
"You'll just have to wait till after I've eaten"
"Aw, that's not fair" Sora groaned pathetically.
They started eating then, Roxas always enjoyed Sora's cooking, however even though Sora was a good cook and normally a neat freak, he was a really messy eater, the sauce from the pasta splashing all over his face and arms.
Sora POV
When he and Roxas had finished eating, Sora cleaned up the dishes and moved to turn the dishwasher on, but when he turned around Roxas started to giggle.
"What?" Sora asked innocently tilting his head to one side.
"You mean you haven't realised half your face is covered in mess? Here" Roxas stood up and walked towards Sora with a napkin, as he wiped it off Sora could feel how close Roxas was to him, he could feel his warmth, smell his beautiful scent and hear his calm and collected breathing, but Roxas' hand shook, the napkin scratching across his skin unevenly, Sora was shaking, his heart pounding a thousand beats a minute, his breathing shallow and nervous, Sora couldn't help himself, he wanted this so bad he just had to do it now, just had to. Sora's lips inches away from Roxas', shocking blue eyes staring deep into faded cerulean ones, for that one moment when they stared at each other like that, their souls, their very beings connected, Sora felt whole, more whole than he ever had before, even in his happiest of moments. He held Roxas' chin, taking in that beautiful face, before he risked all, he closed the gap between their lips, gently touching his to that of Roxas, it was only a testing kiss, probing to see if Roxas felt the same way, when he didn't react in any way Sora pulled back, the way Roxas just stared tore Sora apart, he didn't feel the same way.
"I'm so sorry" Sora cried, bursting into tears before running up to his room and shutting the door, he didn't lock it, he wasn't that selfish. He sat there on his bed sobbing for a few minutes, his head in his hands, unsure of whether to kill himself or simply run away, he had confessed, confessed and lost everything, Roxas would never talk to him again, the feeling that he was going to be whole at last long gone from his mind, suddenly he heard the door open, there stood Roxas, eyes full of compassion, compassion Sora didn't deserve.
"You must hate me" Sora said between sobs, head still buried in his palms.
"I don't hate you" Roxas walked over to Sora kneeling to be at eye level with his friend
"You don't?" Sora's heart made a slight jump at the statement, but he still kept crying"
"No…how can I hate someone I love silly"
Sora could not believe what he just heard, he wanted to say something, but his lips were pressed shut by a tender kiss from Roxas, fresh tears still falling from his eyes, for a different reason this time though, this time Sora cried tears of pure joy, Roxas loved him too; Sora put his arms around Roxas' neck, earning an identical response, the two of them stayed there for a long time, holding each other in their arms. His feelings made known and accepted, Sora felt whole again, their souls were connected once again, but this time it was forever. Soon sleep took over both of them, Sora managed to pull Roxas onto the bed before he drifted off.
The next morning, Sora woke up to find he was snuggling up to Roxas' clothed chest, wet patches resided right were Sora's eyes had been, he had obviously cried for a long time last night, maybe even in his sleep. Sora looked at the clock, still another hour before they had to leave for school; he slowly lifted the arms that Roxas held around him, creeping downstairs so he could start making breakfast. Many new and exciting thoughts started to grace his mind, all of them about Roxas and their shared love for each other, Sora was so busy thinking and cooking he didn't notice the blond walking down the stairs, nor did he notice him walk into the kitchen, stare at him for a while before walking right up to him, he only noticed Roxas when the soft and loving arms wrapped around him.
"Morning sleepy-head" Sora whispered to the face resting on his shoulder.
"By your progress in the kitchen, I can see you only woke up a couple of minutes before me, I don't think you can call me sleepy-head" Sora loved the way Roxas' arms were forceful and demanding, but at the same time delicate enough to only touch places that Sora would be comfortable with.
"Thank you" Sora said
"For what my dearest love?" Roxas layered a slight seductiveness on his tone, making Sora inwardly giggle.
"For everything you've done"
"Oh but I've barely gotten started" Roxas' lustful reply sent a shiver down Sora's spine as he was spun around and put into a deep kiss by the blond, the brunette felt a tongue licking his bottom lip, begging for entrance into the moist paradise, Sora gladly accepted the tongue, starting to play with it using his own. Sora felt a hand reach up his shirt, it started to touch nipples, caressing them, Sora let out a moan at the sudden touch, feeling Roxas grin within their kiss, Sora returned the favour by moving a hand onto Roxas' ass, earning a giggle from his partner, Sora moved his hand along the cheeks, running a finger along the entrance through Roxas' shorts.
"Do you want me to take them off?" Roxas purred, making Sora's pants far tighter than he would want them to be.
Beepbeep, Beepbeep
"That's twice that thing has gotten in our way" Roxas moaned, releasing his grip and pulling away from Sora.
"Would you rather I burnt the food?"
"If it meant we could…express our love to the full then yes"
"That would be a wonderful thing to do, until the house burnt down."
"You're no fun" Roxas whined, pretending to complain, he didn't want to go that far with Sora, not yet anyway, though the other's intentions and wants were a mystery to him.
"I know I'm not, anyway what do you mean twice?"
"Last night, just before it went off I was thinking about confessing to you, but you eventually beat me to it"
He and Roxas sat their staring into each others eyes as they ate their breakfast, looks of adoration on both their faces, they were going to be together forever and this was only the start.
A/N
Tada, there it is, the second chapter of my beloved story, I'm still pretty new at this so give me a break if it sucked, also I apologise to those who were excepting a lemon scene, there will be one in the later chapters, two in fact, but this story is not supposed to be about passionate sex, its about what happens when you realise you've known your true love for your entire life. Anyways please review so I can make my stories slightly less pathetic. In the next chapter I will be using material from other games to generate dreams for Sora, see if you can see where they are from. Notice I stopped stating when we changed points of view, I decided it was splitting up the story and I have concluded to have both boys thoughts displayed at once. Next chapter will have the boys (or rather Sora) making their love public.
