'What have I become?' I thought as I clenched my fists in anger. I am a monster and I had just killed a girl, these are the hands of a murderer. I can't do this anymore I must leave and never return and start anew even though the monster inside of me slowly awaits it time to make its next presence known. Crap! How am I going to sneak out of a place filled with vampires, I mean it's not like I could sneak out when they're all asleep? I must come up with some excuse anything….
I pull myself up from the ground and exit my room all while trying to keep a look out for Aro. As I strolled into the main entrance of the building I glance over and see a familiar face. "Aro I must speak with you right now it is a matter of importance"
"Anything my dear friend, what is troubling you?" Aro's deep voice questioned.
"I am rethinking my stay here, I feel I must go out into the world for myself and to succeed in my life goals as a doctor" I say although I am not lying, it was only due to this sudden experience that has forced me into proceeding with my wishes.
"Whatever you feel you must do Carlisle is up to you, I am glad I was able to enjoy your company. Always cherish these fond memories as you venture out with your own life" Aro finished, and with that I left with a thankful smile across my face.
Aro has been and always will be considered as a true friend I will only ever have fond memories of him, but I could never let him know my true form and that is why I was careful enough to avoid all physical contact with him as I was leaving.
Twelve years have passed and I have graduated with a medical degree with ease... I wish I could have said that but it was one of the toughest things I have ever done in my life as my bloodlust grew whenever a human was near, try being around humans with racing pulses as adrenaline courses through their body due to the incident of their injuries taking place moments before. But until the end of my life the most hard-hitting thing I have faced would be getting this one girl's attention. Her name is Esme, I watch her in awe every time I see her sitting below that magnificent, shade-providing tree. I first saw her when I decided to spend my leisurely time reading a good novel in peaceful park across the road from the hospital I now work at.
I eventually built up the confidence to approach her and as I did she looked up to acknowledge my presence. I tried so desperately to speak but the words had got caught in my throat as the flow of her long beautiful caramel hair left me speechless.
"Hello" she started the conversation welcomely with a small, inviting smile placed upon her face.
"Hello my name is Carlisle, I've seen you around here before and thought I would introduce myself" Way to go Carlisle way to seem like a stalker by pretty much admitting that you watch her.
"Hello I'm Esme, nice to meet you" you said while standing up and offering me her hand to shake. I gladly shook her hand back and smiled while I continued the conversation "Anyway I should get going my shift continues on very shortly and I must get back"
"Where do you work? She asks
"I work at the hospital just across the road there" I reply
"Maybe I have to come visit you sometime" She smiles.
"I would like that" I answer.
That's how it all started, meeting the love of my life but do I dare tell her the truth behind my façade of my true form; a vampire and my even more deepest secret of being some sort of hybrid that I now know as a Kanima from studying different folk laws in order to find answers about who I truly am.
