As Eudy saw Kylier coming in to destroy the Ankh Cannon that she put so much time into building, and also noticed the tear in her eye as well as her unwavering look, The Imperial Magister began to see her life flash before her eyes as she became unable to move from her position at the cannon.
"Where did I go wrong?" she wondered. "Maybe this was what I wanted, not power or high status under our leader's rule, but maybe something like a person who would be willing to sacrifice their life for me." Her thoughts then shifted over to her family, and she remembered "When my younger brother was born, they focused all of their attention on him, and I started to feel lonely, I needed someone to look at me". "At the academy, I remember seeing all of my classmates with friends, while I the magic prodigy, felt like everyone was looking at my intelligence rather than me as me. So, I began to stretch the rules, breaking them on occasion, just to get the others to notice me, and not just the prodigal student".
Her last thought came in the form of her first meeting with the young leader of Gram Blaze, and her thoughts on him. She originally thought of him as a child who just had a lot of charisma and power, but as she look at most recent events, he seemed more like a true leader, with people following him because of his ordeals being suffered by everyone, with the death of Siskier; him killing his mother to gain the power of Brongaa, and all the people who opposed his ascent to the throne including Jenon and Medute.
As the cannon exploded, she finally came to one thought: "Well, maybe someone in the next world will accept me for me, and fulfill my soul". And so, the flame of her heart was extinguished.
