A/N: I will try to update at least twice a week; I've been having some relationship problems lately, but I will try my best to stick to that schedule ;)

So without further a-do ~


My thoughts were a mess. What is this? This is not.. this is not normal bella. I snorted. Talking to yourself now, Bella? Bravo.

Maybe I was going a little insane. I didn't understand these feelings; and I couldn't deny that I felt a pull towards Embry.

We were all awkwardly standing around; nobody said a single word. Which is totally unheard of when you're within hearing range of Paul. I looked from Paul, to Sam, to Embry.

"Bella...," he paused. I waited, silently. His expression was of complete disgust. I knew that look all too well; I hated that look. Was I really that hard on the eyes? He always gave me that look- come to think of it, a lot of people have been giving be that look as of late.

Paul. Jessica. Lauren. Even mike, occasionally.

I turned tail and ran.

Where was I headed? Who fucking knew- I just ran, and ran. Until I couldn't run any longer. I landed myself right at the end of the La Push cliffs.

Nobody wants to be weak. But that's exactly what I was. A weak, pathetic excuse for a human being. Pulling myself from my thoughts, I took in my surroundings. Right. I was at the La Push cliffs. The dark, inky water slapped at the rocks below. A devilish grin spread across my face. Everybody knew the weak Bella. The pathetic Bella. Well, maybe I don't want to be that person anymore.. And only I could change myself. After all this time- all this time that I thought I needed him, Edward- I really didn't. I didn't somebody else to make myself happy.

And with that, I started to strip. Standing in my bra and undies, I faced the dark depths. From the looks of things, a storm was on its way in.

I jumped before I could pussy out.

I was soon numb, as the water beat my ice-cold body against the rocks. The last person to consume my thoughts was embry.. What would embry think? What would he even care..? Probably not, last time I was updated, he was disgusted with me. I hope he won't think badly of me for this.. Why the hell do I even care what he thinks about me? Why the hell should I give a fuck? Because I didn't..


Embry POV ~


I wanted her. I wanted to fix her, give her all the loving she deserved, make her feel wanted. All the bullshit she's been through; she didn't deserve that shit. No girl did. We knew she was here for Jake, we knew how she needed him. It would only hurt her though. One day Jake too would leave her, because of this wolfy voodoo shit that goes on. Imprinting. And today, bad luck had struck.

I could only look back, as I watched her take me in completely. I felt as though this was something that couldn't be avoided; we just had to take full inventory. Never had Bella looked at me, the way she was right now. I was guilty, too. Who could not give Bella a full once over? She had fucking curves from hell. By the looks of her small waist, everything went straight to her tits. And I will forever be a boob guy, for sure.

I was blessed with a goddess, but she already belonged to somebody else. Jacob. Maybe not realistically, but in their 'Bella-Jake forever' world, she would always be his. In this world, she was destined to be mine. Bella would tear herself up over this. Jacob would tear himself up over this. Chances are, I would tear myself up over this too. Imprinting..nobody fucking understood it.

As I looked Bella in eyes, I couldn't help but feel disgusted with myself. If I could do this to Bella and Jacob, what kind of friend was I? It would break our baby alphas heart to know the girl he wanted to be with forever, could never be his. Yet, I still didn't know how to go about this. She felt the pull too- I know she did. Her expression said it all. "Bella..."

Why the fuck did everything have to be so complicated? The imprint wanted me to make itself known. I wanted to spill my undying love to her; follow her around every second of the day, like the dog that I am. I wanted to be there every time she needed a pick-me-up. I could already see myself waking up every morning, and looking over at Bella asleep beside me, with her beautiful hair splayed out in every direction. Bella in the kitchen, with just an apron on..

She ran. Fuck.

Maybe it was a little creepy of me to follow her, but Bella's a danger magnet. I was not about to let my imprint roam the woods with a crazed bloodsucker lurking around.

With our bond, I was getting little flickers of her emotions. I didn't need to see her face to tell that she was confused, angry- upset. One of the hardest things I've ever had to do, was watch Bella stumble through the woods like a lost child. In wolf form, I could easily catch a whiff of salt in the air. Not that needed wolf powers to tell me that she was probably crying; I could feel it. She stopped at the cliffs.

Bella, what in the world are you doing..? Now that I could finally see her face, I could see she was having an internal battle with herself. There she stood, on the edge of the cliffs, looking like a warrior about to be sent out to battle. Tears streaked down her face, her hair floated behind her in the wind. There would never be a word appropriate enough to describe Bella Swan.

I followed her hands as they came to life. I would say I was sorry for enjoying the show, but I wasn't. She was sex on legs, and watching Bella strip in front of me was such a tease. Even if she didn't know I was watching. Shit. If she ever found out, i'd be a dead man..

Too lost on my thoughts of whether I should guilty or not, I missed the lovely swan fling herself off of the cliff. Without thought, I, too was flinging myself into the air.

As soon as I hit the water, I was grabbing for her; I didn't feel anything coming through the bond. She was right below the surface, looking quite peaceful. Except that the water was anything but peaceful. I hauled her body towards shore; something I would've never survived if I was a normal human being. I suppose we also wouldn't be in this situation, either, if I was a normal human being.

As soon as my feet could touch, I was running as fast as possible in water. I flopped her onto the beach and starting feeling for a heartbeat.

"Bella! Bella! I swear to god, if you leave me.. Don't leave me! Don't leave me, Bella! Please don't.." I pleaded. I gave her a little thump on the chest. Another. And another. I let go of the breath I had been holding as I watched her chest start to rise. Scared shitless, I watched as she coughed up water. Her lips were blue.

"Bella... As much I would love to sit here and listen to why the fuck you just pulled that stunt, we need to get you someplace warm. Is that okay with you?"

She squinted at me. "Embry?" I nodded. She exhaled, moaning. "Embry.. Yes. Some place warm.. I'm so cold. I'm so cold Embry.. I-I- just want to be warm aga.."

I scooped her up- I didn't need to be asked again. We would go to my house. As I looked down, I decided that I would never let the girl in my arms be cold again.