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I try to concentrate on my partner's face, but the only thing I can think about is her. What had happened upstairs was very strange and disturbing. I try to tell me it's because I had been at least a year without seeing her, but deep down I know it's not, that holding her in my arms, so close, and it upsets me more than I'd like.

It was as if suddenly I had removed a bandage from my eyes, as if suddenly, Kate was a woman and not a girl. To me she had always been a girl, not too different from my own daughter, Alexis. Alexis of course is five years old and Kate no longer has fifteen, she's twenty, and my senses are fully aware of that.

I am a lover of women, that, everyone knows, but Kate is not like any of the women I've been with, she is different, she is the daughter of a friend.

And yet, she has awakened in me feelings that I shouldn't feel, a desire of so many things that are absolutely wrong.

I look away, trying to get this overwhelming shock out of my head and I hold my breath. Maybe it only was the moment, the situation. Maybe what I felt when she was in my arms is no more than just confusion.

-Rick ... you listening?.

I look up and noticed Jim's eyes looking at me curiously.

-Umm, yeah.

I feel the enormous weight of guilt burning into my head. Because at the end of the day I'm having weird thoughts about his daughter.

For the love of God. For how long have I known Kate? How many years?, and what were all these feelings now?. I knew them, they were the sensations awakening in me when I wanted a woman, but I simply refused to accept it. I had to leave this house as soon as possible to clear my head.

-You look worried. -He said giggling. -It's not usual from you.

-No, it's ... - I make a gesture of indifference. -Tiredness maybe. Gina has been pushing me to release a preview of the new book.

-I heard that the last one was going wonderfully.

-I can't complain- I say half-smiling.

- When is the next book signing?- He asks me distracted while watching some papers on his desk.

I drink a bit more of the coffee that Lola has given me and I settle on the couch.

-Is this Saturday. -I sigh-Mother was supposed to look after Alexis, but it turns out that my mother has got a role in an independent film that will begin shooting in Los Angeles tomorrow - I shrug-I don't know if I can get someone to take care of her in so little time

Jim grins looking up.

-Johanna and I used to have that problem with Katie until Lola appeared. She took care of Kate during her whole childhood. He took his glasses off, smiling nicely.- Although Johanna always tried to spend as much time as possible with her. Just like I.

-I spend a lot of time with Alexis, maybe even more than she wanted. - I laugh-With my work I do not need to go far from home. Only when I have some firm or any tour.

Or when I go out with someone. I think to myself. And Kate's image comes to mind.

Fuck.

-Dad, I'm going out ...As if I had invoked her, Kate looks out the door interrupting.

Her eyes look at me a few seconds and then they quickly look at Jim.

- Yeah, but you just got home. Aren't you gonna wait until your mother gets here?.-Says Jim, leaning on the desk standing with his arms crossed.

Kate rolls her eyes.

-I want to do some things, and then it will be too late.

Jim looks at her in a scolding way and moves his hands, indicating her to come closer.

-Come here.

She sighs and walks over to him. The father and daughter love they have is very clear. I myself, feel that same way for Alexis, is a love that can't be compared to no other.

- Do you need money?. -I hear Jim ask.

My eyes can't stop looking at her, and I experience the same feeling from a while ago, to have her in my arms again overwhelms me. Her long and curly hair on the tips start to seem the most beautiful thing. And her smile ... oh, the way she smiles, with sincerity and sweetness.

She is damn pretty.

How had I never realized that?.

-No need ... -She starts to tell him, but Jim is pulling out his wallet and some money.

-If you're going take the bike, be careful.- He warns.

I understand that feeling, that feeling of wanting to protect her, to want to give her all and more. When you have a daughter, she means everything to you.

For that very reason I shouldn't be looking at Kate in the way I do. But I can't help it.

She starts walking towards the door but he stops her.

-Oh Katie.-Kate turns. - Do you know someone who can babysit this Saturday -. He says pointing me later.-Rick needs someone to keep an eye on Alexis while He is in a book signing

I'm surprised for a second, he had not mentioned to help me find one.

-Well, the truth is that she I don't know- looking at me thoughtfully -She says -. I just arrived and I haven't really talked to anyone, but if you want , I can do it .-She said looking serious.

Not the first time she would, Kate has babysit Alexis a few times, and the truth is that Alexis loves her and I would stay calm but all the feelings that I experienced that day about the girl I'm looking at that moment make me hesitate.

- Really?, it's a Saturday, I suppose you'll want to go out and have fun, and I do not want ...

She chuckles.

-Castle _ do not get bogged down, I will gladly do it. Anyway I have not talked with anyone to go out or anything.

-I really appreciate it then.

-It's nothing. - she says and makes her way to the door.

-Do not come home late . Warned her father.

-Okay -. she answers _ and closes the door -. Bye Castle -. I hear say.

-Goodbye.

I look and I see Jim at the door with a mixture of pride and satisfaction.

- Did you see how much she has grown?.

Oh yes, I've noticed. Too much maybe.

-Yes.-mean pretending to be calmed. -The truth is that you must be very proud.

-Johanna and I are very proud. He turns to grab his cup of coffee -. Besides that she is studying law makes us very happy.

I nod once.

I've known Jim for six years. Just when I began to write my first book, which then would be published and it would sell a considerable number of copies.

He was the first to advise and guide me through contracts and legal issues. And before long we had become very close. And now I was at home looking like a dumb the way his daughter was smiling.

Dear Lord.

-I think it's time for me to go.-I say standing up while I look at my watch- I told Alexis that we would go out to eat.

- I'll send you a copy of what we wrote by fax?.

-I would appreciate it.

-Very well.-He says smiling.- Later.

I go quickly starting to feel relieved but still strange, that's when I hear a loud noise.

Looking up I notice that it's Kate on her Harley.

It's a preciousness of black color with metallic accents and leather seats.

I remember how angry and worried Jim was when Kate gathered the money to buy it, and Johanna nearly collapsed, but the truth is that he had to give that she took much care of it and that she looked beautifully on it.

Sexy, she simply looked sexy.

- Need a ride?. she asks while the motorcycle makes great noise when it starts to warm.

-I don't know if it's safe.

She rolls her eyes.

-You will never be safer in your life.

I smile.

-I don't want to delay you what you have to do.I excuse myself _ _ knowing that, that is the last thing I should do.

She shrugs.

-It will only be a small detour. Come -. she encourages me, putting on her black helmet.

Her hair gets stuck underneath but still a few strands come of the helmet in beautiful waves.

My mind screams at me not to do it, but my feet are already approaching.

-Okay, but keep in mind that now the life of Richard Castle is in your hands and still have not delivered the last book. There would be many lawsuits if something happens to me.- I begin to say as I get behind her.

I notice movement in her back letting me know that she is laughing.

I have two lawyers parents - Turning her head slightly to talk to me and her breath smells like mint. I looked away and I'm almost out of control - I think I'll take the risk - she adjusts her helmet and says - Hold on

I put my hands gently around her waist and my adrenaline is triggered. Kate smells like cherries and I have to make a huge effort to not fully hold her, hug her.

I can see the muscles in her back and arms, and at the same time try not to think about how close my hip are on her back, because I can already sense an approaching erection I gulp deep and concentrate on the brightness of her helmet.

Her closeness makes me out of control and I start cursing myself for agreeing to let her drive me.I I was trying to run away from her and the strange sensations of that day, and now there I was almost hugging herI

You are so stupid I say to myself, as she starts the engine.

The road becomes eternal to me, not because Kate precisely goes slow, but because I am too confused. Too out of me, out of myself. But the moment that Kate has the motorcycle parked in front of my loft, I ended up accepting it.

I desire Kate Beckett and there's nothing I can do about it so it would not happen.

That's it, I had accepted it.

-Wow -. I say getting off the motorcycle. She takes off her helmet and smiles at me- You do know how to handle that huh?. I'll tell your father that he can be calm about you riding it.

He shrugs.

-It is very easy.

-Thanks for the ride.

-Always.-She said with half a smile. - See you on Saturday?.

- Then I confirm- Saturday.-placing helmet she leaves with a squeaking noise while I hit the front frustrated.

I go home with the idea that there's nothing wrong with what is happening. It's just a small attraction to a girl ... a beautiful woman. What man would not admire the beauty and simplicity of Kate?. That she is the daughter of Jim's just an anecdote. Besides, it is clear that nothing will never happen between us.

There is nothing wrong. I repeat.

But I know it's not a small attraction, because if that were the case I would not have had to make this enormous effort so that my body would not react to the closeness we had.

I walk to the kitchen to serve some water, I felt like my throat was dry and the scent of Kate in my nose.

- Daddy!. -Alexis comes running and hugs me.

-Hey pumpkin. - I pick her up and kiss her on the cheek -. How are you?.

-I was watching a movie with grams- she makes a grin.

-Let me guess ... she has fallen asleep… again.-Alexis nods.

I chuckled.

Well, let's let grandma sleep tonight she is going to Los Angeles and she has to rest. Let's eat something 'kay?.

- Pizza!

- Pizza?

-Yes, pleeeease?.

I lookat her face while she begs and I can't say no.

- Okay -. I say laughing -Oh, Kate will come on Saturday to stay with you while I'm in the book signing which I told you about. Do you remember Kate?.

- Yes! she's very funny- She looks at me -. You sure I can't go with you to the signing? I'll be good ...

-No hun, you know I can't keep an eye on you while I'm there.-I sigh-But you'll have fun with Kate.

-Okay.

I put her on the floor.

-Come on, go get your coat.

She runs to her room and I just try to forget this crazy day.