A/N: Okay, so this is a new chapter... Thank you guys so much for the comments! They mean a lot to me! I tired to make my chapter longer this time...
Beck was suffering. Suffering from life. Suffering from depression. Suffering from school. The only thing that kept him alive was his long-time best friend and current girlfriend, Jade West. Though Jade was the one who looked like had depression, it was Beck. Beck seemed like his life was worthless. For years now, he had been cutting. It was his only outlet to his constant suffering. The pain felt good. It was almost as good as how it felt to hold Jade in his arms. Almost.
"I am a worthless piece of scum… I am a worthless piece of scum… I am a worthless piece of scum…" Beck repeated to himself. He dragged the razor blade across his arm. He dragged it slowly, savoring every tingle of pain.
"Beck? Are you cutting yourself again?" Jade whispered, shocked. Beck turned around, only to find Jade standing there. He could see the tears forming in her eyes. He dropped the blade and walked over to where she was standing. It was silent in Beck's RV. The only thing heard was the quiet ting of the razor blade as it hit the ground. They embraced each other. Beck's blood stained the side of Jade's shirt, but she didn't mind. She was wearing black, so it didn't show much. The couple just stood there, holding on to each other. That was when, Beck began to cry.
Jade didn't really know what to do. So she just rubbed her boyfriend's back, whispering things such as, "It's okay," "I'm not mad," and "Everything is going to be okay."
This meant a lot to Beck. These soothing words coming out of Jade's mouth certainly meant something, since she hardly ever said anything like that. Ever. Not even to Cat, who was her best friend.
That was when Jade heard Beck say something into her shirt.
"What?" Jade asked.
"I love you, Jade." Beck said.
"I love you too, Beck." Jade replied.
That was what happened six months before Beck died. After that day, life seemed to be brighter for Beck. He got rid of all his razor blades and he began to get help from therapy. Life could have never been better… Until one Wednesday, four months later.
What began a normal Wednesday, ended the life of one. Jade had a doctor's appointment that morning. Beck was nervous. For the past three weeks she had been nauseous and seemed to be more out of focus than before. Jade also seemed to gain a little weight. She seemed to be more tired and went home to take naps than to hang out with Beck. He was worried. What if she was pregnant? What if she had a terrible disease? He kept questioning himself over and over throughout Sikowitz's class.
"Hey Sikowitz… Sorry I'm late." Jade walked in while Beck was thinking. He smiled at her. She gave him a weak smile back. However, Beck could see in her eyes that something was bothering her.
After class, Beck caught up with Jade.
"Jade, are you okay?" Beck asked.
"Yeah…" Jade fibbed. Beck knew this was a lie, and gave her a suspicious look.
"Really? You don't look so good…" Beck said.
"I'm okay. Really. I need to go. I'll see you later." With that, she left him, dumbfounded in the middle of the hallway.
Questions kept swarming around in Beck's head throughout the rest of the day.
"What if Jade's pregnant? What am I going to tell mom and dad?" Beck kept asking himself over and over again. Before he could ask himself whether or not Jade's pregnant for the 900th time, school ended.
Beck walked out of his Honors Algebra class. He walked past the janitor's closet, only to hear muffled sounds of crying. He was 90% sure it was Jade, so he did the only logical thing he could think of at that moment. He called her. Only to hear her ringtone through the door. So he walked in.
"Jade… Why are you crying?" Beck asked, worried.
"Because I have feelings." Jade said coldly, as she started to walk out. Beck knew something was terribly wrong.
"You have to tell me, Jade." Beck said.
"I choose not to." Jade answered.
Beck knew what he had feared was true. She was pregnant.
"Okay, fine I'll tell you. Just wipe that horrified look off your face." Jade said.
Beck snapped out of his thoughts and dragged Jade to his car. To Jade, the ride over to Beck's RV was fast, but to Beck, it was probably the slowest 10 minutes of his life. They rode in silence. No one dared to say anything.
In Beck's RV, the two walked in holding hands. Jade with her usual scowl on her face, Beck with a nervous look. He was apprehensive about what was to come.
As soon as he shut the door, he said what was on his mind all day.
"Jade, I know you're… pregnant." Beck managed to choke out the last word without fainting.
"What? NO! I'm not, Mr. Jump-to-Conclusions." Jade answered. Beck sighed a sigh of relief. Jade sighed a sigh of impatience.
"I have congestive heart failure, and the doctor says I only have two months to live." Jade said, barely audible.
A/N: Please comment if you'd like more... I have another chapter fresh and ready to be posted. It answers how Beck dies. So, yeah. Please comment.
