Note: All the characters and the story itself are in AU. Well I'm trying my best to stick with originality of characters but they can get a bit overboard and may also go beyond their usual streak. Further I always prefer to tell my story in the form of conversation, like you can see the characters, see their emotions but yet what's inside their mind will stay under wraps.

Crazy Ever After – Chapter 2

Callie made her way to her own office. She shut off the lights and sat on her chair & swiveled to the emptiness of the room staring at the dark ceiling. She kept on wondering where the hell she went wrong. She loved Arizona through everything. She gave her soul to her relationship. She did everything to make Arizona stand up on her feet again. She knew she broke her promise to save Arizona's leg but that was to save her life and she might make the same decision again if it's Arizona's life on stake. She started the brain mapping project for Arizona. To build her a prosthetic, as responsive as her lost leg. She did everything. Everything. She put her own soul in Arizona, just to make her feel complete. And after all THIS Arizona cheated on her. How the hell should she have reacted? She never intended to hurt Arizona so much but it was like her whole life, her whole love has been a lie. How was she supposed to be ok with it? How she should have known that what happened with Arizona was because of her PTSD? Maybe she took things a bit overboard by kicking Arizona out? Callie was too much overwhelmed too even think anymore. All she wanted to do was to find out what else Arizona's been holding back. She checked her watch, it was 1745 hours, she changed her clothes, dressed up in her casual top, jacket & jeans, and she made her way towards the counseling room.

In the counseling room:

As soon as Callie entered the room, all eyes turned towards her. She searched those eyes for hostility. The hostility she has noticed in those eyes for Arizona but all she could see was compassion. But this time the compassion was not only for her, it was for Arizona too, it was for them. She sat besides Meredith, who gave a reassurance pat on her back. Meredith has been really supportive towards her ever since the infidelity chapter. Callie has trusted her with her feelings & she knew Mer knows exactly how hard it has been for her.

Outside The Hospital:

It has started snowing a bit. There had been warnings of heavy snowfall ahead. Arizona just stood there, letting the dampness of snow soak into her soul. She's better now. She knows she's better now. But her relationship isn't. And she knows that she won't survive loosing Callie again. All she wanted to do was save her relationship but her past was still holding her heart hostage. She doesn't know how to move forward with all these cart webs still holding her back. A part of her knows that she has got to be honest with Callie, that she has to tell Callie how exactly she felt back then and how she feels now but she doesn't know how to do that without hurting Callie's feelings and sentiments. What if Callie didn't except her with her darkness? What if Callie is only trying to forgive her so she could get the Arizona she fell in love with before the plane crash? What if Callie will not be in love with her new-found self? She knows she can't be the old Arizona...What if Callie didn't like this new Arizona in her. These thoughts had haunted her ever since they got back. She closed her eyes and prayed for strength and then went back inside. It's time to go back to the counseling room. A part of her wished that she could ask April to schedule the recording some other time but there's also a part that wanted to get done with this already. So, she went ahead. It was 1800 hours when she entered the counseling room.

On the right side of the glass:

Arizona made her way towards her seat. April still wasn't there. She presumed she's behind the glass wall, probably giving some guidance to the camera crew seating behind, recording the sessions. She was right. Cause within few minutes, April emerged out of the glass door closing it behind her.

April - heyy you're already here...hmm? Ready to start again?

Arizona - Ready get done with this.

April - are you okay? You look stressed?

Arizona - Nah...just tired...

April knew that Callie won't go ahead to tell Arizona all about this. She knew Callie wanted to know as much as she can about Arizona's dilemma. She was content to meet everyone on the other side of the glass, seating so sincerely to know more about Arizona. And this time she was even more determined to bring out every ounce of Arizona's true feelings.

April - well I can reschedule if you want me to...

Arizona - oh no, no...Let's just finish it...

April - It'll take a hell lot of time...you okay with it? Or you can take this night off?

Arizona - No. I'm telling you...I'm okay. This is not some charming stuff to talk about, obviously it's stressing...but I'm fine...so let's start okay...

April - As you wish woman! So...from where we left...What after that? As you said, you didn't imagine that Callie will forgive you, but did you have any hopes...to get back together with her?

Arizona - I had those hopes. For a long time I was holding on to those hopes...but then one day even those hopes got crushed.

April - When was that?

Arizona - Owen's Girlfriend Emma was here for job interview...she kind of told me that Callie flirted with her...that the interview was quite intimate...and it hit me...hit me right in the gut... It hit me that Callie must have moved on...that she must have seeked companionship somewhere else...

April - But it wasn't like that right?

Arizona - Of course not. I guess i misread things...I did asked Callie whether she got involved with anyone or not...she said she didn't.

April - Why this notion made you give up on your hopes? Why didn't you imagine that it could be something like what you had?

Arizona - I didn't get involved with anyone because I wanted to move on. It was not like that... It was just for channeling my triggers of PTSD somewhere else... Come on?! You told me to channelize my mind somewhere else... I never moved on. I was always right there where Callie left me...

April - Did it helped?

Arizona - I don't know. I tried to talk to myself that it was helping...but I never felt comfortable with it...

April - So what helped?

Arizona - You helped. Talking to you helped. Sofia...my girl...spending time with her helped. My work...that helped. Acknowledging that I have a disorder & knowing what triggers it helped.

On the left side of the glass:

Owen - *looking towards Callie* Wait Emma told Arizona that you flirted with her?

Callie - *confused* I asked her some personal questions about family & kids for you?! Gosh the woman thought I flirted with her?

Cristina - *side eyeing Owen* seems like a good thinker...

Bailey - Wait Callie...you and Arizona... Don't you guys ever talk?

Derek - They wouldn't have been in this place if they had just talked honestly...

Meredith - Well they didn't wanted to hurt each other...I guess?!

Karev - And that played out well?

On the Right side of the glass:

April - So...everything was done. You figured it out that Callie has moved on. You didn't even had any hopes of getting back again. You guys reached a point where you tried your best to stay cordial around each other for Sofia's sake & then the lawsuit happened!

Arizona - Yup

April - How was it for Callie?

Arizona - Well she was getting sued for no logical reasons...obviously she was distressed with it.

April - How do you know?

Arizona - What do you mean? I can always tell when she's hurting...

April - Even after everything?

Arizona - That has nothing to do with it... Just cause we grew apart doesn't mean that I can't see her pain anymore

April - *nodding* Okay! Arizona now I want you to answer my questions as quickly as you can. Like rapid fire ok... So during this lawsuit... you were there for her?

Arizona - In every possible way...

April - Why?

Arizona - An employee of this hospital was getting sued...come on? All of us were there?

April - Why were you there?

Arizona - To support her.

April - What else?

Arizona - Because like I told you...I can always tell when she's stressing out...

April - *leaning on the table* WHAT ELSE?

Arizona - SHE WAS GETTING SUED, but she's still married to me. Jury responds better to married woman with family. I WAS HER FAMILY. Where are you going with this April? It wasn't like this in our previous sessions?

April - *smiling & settling back* Even after all your hopes were crushed, even after everything Callie put you through...you were still looking out for her.

Arizona - *settling back* Yes!

April - And then after the lawsuit...when Callie realised that people do sometimes make mistakes that's completely out of their hands...She came back to you !?

Arizona - Yes.

April - So did she forgive you for what you did?

Arizona - No. She was ready to try again.

April - and that was enough for you to just forget all your miseries and get back to her?

Arizona - *raising her voice* I CHEATED ON HER APRIL & she was ready start fresh. What else could I have asked for?

April - So you are saying you were completely unaffected by what she did to you?

Arizona - yes...i guess...it wasn't her fault...she was hurt.

April - And you weren't? How many days were you guys apart?

Arizona - *blurting out* 83 days...

April - *settling down* you were hurt Arizona. You were hurt as much as she was but you choose to ignore yourself again. You choose to go back to her...

On the Left side of the glass:

April's words took Callie back to Leah's words "ask her how many days you guys were apart", she realized that she has hurt Arizona much deeply than she can imagine, than what Arizona is showing. It was overwhelming for Callie cause she never intended to hurt her but still somehow she has.

On the Right side of the glass:

April - *flipping through files* so going back to the plane crash & amputation. It was hard?

Arizona - duh?

April - So you said Callie promised she won't let anyone cut off your leg?

Arizona - She did that to save my life.

April - so why did you blamed her?

Arizona - *guiltily* I never wanted this life for me. I never wanted to be an amputee. For a very long time my life was a burden on me. She made a promise & when she didn't keep that, all I could think was that Callie saved me for herself.

April - did that notion changed?

Arizona - Eventually! Yes it did! I figured that it wasn't easy on her either...

April - Why did you blamed her?

Arizona - It wasn't easy...to be handicapped...to be incomplete. It was awfully hard & it always reminded me of those hideous days in woods. I wanted to cry, I wanted to scream...I just...wanted to let my pain out...and...

April - and anguish & wrath were the only ways to do that...

Arizona - Yes.

April - So basically you channelized all your hurt, anguish & wrath towards Callie. What made you think she would be okay with it?

Arizona - I was holding on to her promises. She promised me that she would never leave me.

April - Okay...moving ahead...*looking down* Well those are some nice pair of silhouettes you got there... Eventually things got better?

Arizona - yup! Callie...she basically did everything to put me back together...to pull me out of the darkness. Slowly & steadily we moved ahead...

April - And then?

Arizona - Then I realised I can't count on my slow key recovery.

April - When was that?

Arizona - When Callie indicated that we need to move forward... both psychologically and intimately.

April - *flipping through files* well you guys were out of physical intimacy for what? Umm 5 months.

Arizona - yeah & when Callie indicated that... I realised that I can't count on becoming confident in myself... That Callie needs me to be a wife.

April - How hard was that? You guys were in love...why it was so difficult for you?

Arizona - I was still in pain back then. My phantom limb pain was getting more & more worse. I tried...I tried my level best to be a wife. I never told Callie about my pain... I never told her about my haunting nightmares... I slept on the bathroom floor... I tried...but I kept failing her... I was scared... I was scared if kept on failing that I might lose her.

On the Left side of the glass:

Callie - *holding her head* I... I...How the hell was I supposed to know all this?

Owen - She's telling the truth... I helped her during her phantom limb pain phase... Even back then she told me that she wants to be a wife...that Callie needs her to be a wife...

Callie - *looking towards Owen* you should have told me that...

Meredith - *looking towards Arizona * She should have told you that...

On the Right side of the glass:

April - So did you succeeded? In finding your happiness in her happiness?

Arizona - *smiling* yeah...we did. I was happy. I was content. Everyday with her was a blessing for me. She made me the happiest person in the world...

April - Then you planned a family. Another baby to have more happiness in your life.

Arizona - yes. I got pregnant. We were so happy about it. We even planned to buy a house. I was literally so content...

April - And then...

Arizona - *choking on words* we lost the baby... I was shattered... It was like dying all over again... I couldn't bear it... It was like i slipped back to from where I started...

April - *getting hold of Arizona's hand* you okay? *Arizona nods* Callie was there for you?

Arizona - It was hard on her too... I guess...she didn't wanted to acknowledge that our baby has died...she wanted to move forward...

April - She wanted you to try again? *Arizona nods* Why?

Arizona - She wanted to leave all the miseries behind... She was looking towards finding happiness all over again...

April - What about you?

Arizona - I was in darkness...completely! It was impossible for me to even think about another baby. Look at me...the universe doesn't wanted to give me happiness...how could have I fight for it? I didn't have that heart... & above all I was failing Callie... I was failing to give her happiness... *crying* I was nothing...nobody...there was nothing in me to love...

On the Left side of the glass:

Callie was overwhelmed with hurt & guilt. She never wanted this to happen to them. But when it did happen, all she wanted to do was fix it... She never knew this would make Arizona spiral downwards. She looked at others; there wasn't a dry eye in the room...except Meredith, who was seemingly lost in some other thoughts. Callie looked at Arizona, wanting to reach her, wanting to wipe away her tears...but she couldn't. Her own tears were making her vision blurry; she wiped them away & concentrated on the conversation again.

On the Right side of the glass:

April - So during your dark days of nothingness & low self esteem...this *looking at file* Boswell chick walked in your life.

Arizona - Slut

April - *controlling a laugh* well I prefer whore but okay Slut is fine...

Arizona - I wish I could see her intentions...

April - You had PTSD Arizona & that woman was giving a rub to your otherwise negligible self-esteem... So were you attracted to her?

Arizona - No. God No. I wasn't attracted to her. I was attracted to the notion that someone was attracted to me...& she didn't knew me before... It felt like even in my incompleteness I was enough for her...

April - thinking back...how does it feel now? Do you think she was attracted to you?

Arizona - No the slut just wanted sex. Looking back I can tell...she just treated me like a use & throw object.

April - So you do regret it?

Arizona - Is that even a question? I regretted it from the minute it happened. I still do. I wish I could just erase it from my life. I knew i made the biggest mistake in my life... I knew that... But there was no turning back...I was crestfallen.

April - What about Callie?

Arizona - I drove a dagger through her heart... Of course it was hard on her...

April - Did you tell her...that you made a mistake...?

Arizona - Yes.

April - Did you told her how you felt? What you were going through?

Arizona - No. I mean I tried to...but at that time the deception was too hard on her...

April - She didn't even want to hear what you had to say?

Arizona - *searching for answers* It was...was hard on her...

April - She didn't even think that your relationship was worth of at least a conversation?

Arizona - She...She was trying...

April - She walked away...

Arizona - *frazzled* It was... It was hard on her...

April - You didn't ask for forgiveness...you were just asking for one conversation...

Arizona - APRIL! Why are you channelling this conversation towards blaming Callie? She was hurt... It wasn't her fault...

April - *standing up* ONE CONVERSATION!

Arizona - SHE. WAS. HURT *standing up* you know what? We're not doing this.., I'm done... I'm calling this off...find someone else... *pointing towards the glass door* I'm taking those recordings with me... *walks towards the glass door*

April - *panicking* ARIZONA STOP... STOP.. ST...

It was too late, as Arizona has already opened the door. April's face went white as Arizona made her way to the other side... She followed.

On the Left side of the glass :

It was uncalled. No one was prepared to face Arizona like that. Every one of them was speechless. As Arizona stared at them in utter horror, they just sat there holding their breaths. Arizona's eye darted from everyone in the room to April who was standing behind her. She was dumbstruck and the ground beneath gave away when the realisation hit her. It was a set up. Arizona flattened out on the glass wall as it all started making sense to her that every one of these people has saw her confession. Finally Arizona's hand made its way to her mouth as she choked on to the sight of Callie, her eyes were red & she was staring at her hands in her laps. She stared in disbelief and horror as April at last broke the silence in the room.

April - *reaching out for Arizona* Arizona... I...

Arizona - *forcing her to speak & backing off to April's touch* No... No...How could you...how...

Arizona choked on to her tears and ran away from the room. Every one stood up to their feet to stop her.

Callie - *wiping away her tears & making her way out* This is what I was afraid of...

April - *guiltily to Callie* Not you...

Callie - *confused* Excuse me? *pointing towards the direction Arizona went* That's my life falling apart..

April - She can't face you right now...you...

Bailey - *stepping between Callie & April* *to Callie* you... You are too much pressure... She can't face you right now...she's scared...

Callie - Bailey! *pointing to April* How can you take her side?

Karev - Bailey is right Torres! Robbins will not be able to face you right now...

Callie's eyes searched each of her friend's eyes for some support but they all were suggesting the same thing.

Callie - *in shock* I can't believe you people...I

Meredith - *stepping in* I'll go. *holding Callie* heyy I'll go for her...trust me ok...you can trust her with me...

The look in Meredith's eye reassured Callie & she sat down holding her head as Meredith made her way out.

Karev - *looking at his watch* Dammit its past midnight... I need a drink...

Webber - I need an aspirin!

Derek - *to April* Kepner I think we should call it a night... We can continue tomorrow am...

April - *confused* only if Arizona comes back for tomorrow...

Owen - I don't get you April. This was probably your only chance for your project...you knew it was Arizona...you should have told us. We could have chosen some other case study...

Jackson - *eyeing April* She did it on purpose. It looks like she did it for her but I know she did it for Arizona... Look at all of us...we definitely have more respect for Arizona now... April just did what a friend should have done...

Bailey - *taking hold of Callie* Lets go. You need to sleep...

Callie - what makes you think I can sleep?

Bailey - Then we will just lie down okay... Let's go... I'll drop you home.

Callie - No! What about Arizona?

Derek - Mer will take care of that...

Callie unwillingly dragged herself with Bailey. Every cell in her body just wanted to go to Arizona but a part of her knew that everyone's right. Arizona needs some time & space.

At the apartment:

Callie made her way in. Bailey & Cristina had tried to make her gulp some food but she didn't have any appetite. Her mind was rushing with a million thoughts. She knew one thing. She loves Arizona & she'll love her no matter what. Her eyes settled on their couch. Ever since they got back, Arizona has been bunking on it. Though she had told her that she can sleep on the bed, in fact Arizona literally asked for it but later she just wanted to bunk on the couch until things were better between them. Callie made her way to the couch & lie down on it; she inhaled into Arizona's fragrance & felt content. She was glad that Cristina is keeping Sofia tonight. She stared into the nothingness of the dark ceiling & just lie there with open eyes thinking about Arizona. She's still clueless about Arizona's PTSD. She needs to know what exactly were her triggers but now She was afraid that Arizona might not go back to complete her sessions. Well if Arizona decides to not go back, then she'll support her. She was against this from the very start...but she'll also make sure that Arizona tells her all about it. But...will Arizona tell her? On her own? What was the reason she kept it all to herself for so long? Doesn't Arizona trusts her any more? What happened to the bond of trust & faith between them?

All these questions kept Callie awake. The more she tried to reason herself, the more confused she got.

Outside the hospital

Arizona just sat there on the bench. It was her fave spot, towards the far end of the parking lot, just dimly lit by a street lamp, shaded with a maple tree. Perfect peaceful ambience. There weren't anymore tears in her eyes. She's probably out of tears. It has snowed earlier, so the grass beneath her feet was damp. She got rid of her heels & let her right feet feel the dampness & coldness. Though it was freezing outside, but still she hasn't bought her overall coat. The cold was calming to her and she was not ready to go back in there & face everyone. She just sat there thinking about the worst case scenario of her confession. By now, she's used to feel small, so she was not worried about what others may think of her. Technically she's done with PTSD so the board can't stop her from practicing medicine but will they take any action against her for hiding her earlier medical condition? Well her PTSD never took over her working skills. She's still a great surgeon. So nope, they probably won't do that. But what about Callie? Sure it must have been a shock to her. Will she forgive her for hiding all of this from her? Well that adds up to the number of things she needs to seek forgiveness for. But will Callie be able to do that? Except her with so many flaws? Why would Callie forgive her? She's a walking talking flaw machine after all, who would like to have her in their life? And what if Callie does forgive her...will she be ever able to live up to Callie's expectations? She failed her...repeatedly...Is she strong enough now to even deserve Callie's forgiveness?

All these thoughts kept throbbing Arizona's mind when she noticed a shadow approaching her. Is it Callie? No. Doesn't look like her. Is she waiting for Callie to come out for her? Finally Arizona noticed it's Meredith. Why is she here? To sympathize with her?

Meredith made her way towards Arizona; it has taken her a half an hour to find her. She told herself that this is not the time to confront Arizona but a part of her knows that it's now or never. She took a seat besides Arizona.

Meredith - *rubbing her hands* we should go inside. It's damn cold here...

Arizona - I'm fine. Really. You can go.

Meredith - what makes you think I'm here for you? The world doesn't just revolve around you Arizona... I'm here for Callie.

Arizona was taken aback.

Arizona - *confused* *startled* what about her? Is she okay? Mer... Is she okay?

Meredith - *looking towards Arizona* How can she be okay? After what you put you through... How do you expect her to be okay?

Arizona - I know...

Meredith - *shutting Arizona midway* No you don't know anything. You don't have any idea about anything...

Arizona - what do you mean?

Meredith - you both went through hell. Why do you think it was any easy on her?

Arizona - I never said it was easy on Callie... I always knew it was equally hard on both of us...the plane crash...the amputation...

Meredith - *shutting Arizona again* NO! NO it wasn't equally hard. It was harder on her...

Arizona - I was there in the woods with you Mer...You know how hard it was...to die...everyday... I lost my leg... I

Meredith - Shut it! I know all this. But did you ever imagine what it was like? For Callie? *Arizona was confused & shocked*. Callie... She relived those moments that we spent in the woods...everyday when she fought for justice for you...for Mark. It was devastating for her to show up everyday & take a stand for you & for Mark, to speak on your behalf, to explain your miseries to them word by word...moment by moment. For what? For herself? No! She fought for justice for you Arizona.

Arizona went white. What Meredith was saying was tearing her apart because it was all so true.

Meredith - Did you ever imagined... What it was like for her to be the one to decide to amputate your leg? To be caught in a situation where she had to decide whether to save you or save your leg? Put yourself in her shoes...what would you have done? Would you let her die? Did you ever imagine what it was like to be the best orthopedic surgeon in the world & yet become so helpless in a moment? Did you ever realised how hard it was for her?

Arizona - *tears rolling down her face* I do. I did... I

Meredith - *standing up* No! You didn't. Because if you had realised that than you wouldn't have treated her like crap. Did she ever complained? No! She inhaled every blames you had to offer. She knew that your anguish is the only way for you to let out your pain, and she happily took that all on her. For what? Herself? No...That was for you Arizona!

Arizona - *searching herself for answers* I knew I was being awful...

Meredith - Awful? The word you use is 'Awful'? *pointing fingers to Arizona * you were hostile Arizona! Did you ever imagined what Callie was going through back then? What it was for her to see her best friend slipping to death everyday for one whole month? To look towards you for some support and all she ever got in return was hostility? For what? Saving your life?

As the realisation hit Arizona, her hands clutched her head in desperation. She went speechless.

Meredith - *calming a bit down* I know it wasn't easy on you either Arizona. But it was harder on her. Did you ever imagined how it was for her to see Mark die in front of her eyes? To become so helpless...to stand on a fluid ground & seek your support so desperately... What did you gave her? More blames? More hostility? Did she complained? No...Instead she gave you support! She made herself that shoulder that you could lean upon & that heart that you could blame whenever you felt miserable...

Meredith looked towards Arizona, she knew Arizona is sinking to her words but she has also seen Callie's sinking side & she can't just sit on it.

Meredith - You. You made her sleep on her dead best friend's bed Arizona. At that time...when she wanted to just curl up to you and mourn Mark's death...you made her sleep at his apartment... And she did that...gladly... Don't think that just because she was smiling in front of you that it was easy for her... It was killing her...everyday.

Suddenly it all became too much for Arizona. She couldn't bear anymore of it. She stood up to leave, but Meredith blocked her way & continued.

Meredith - *with a cracking voice* She used to hide & cry Arizona. We have seen her crying...for you...for Mark... She used to hide away in supply closet...in her office... & just cry. You know what? When people used to go through a bad day, they go home & cry... But Callie? She used to cry here at work...and then go home to you with a smiley face & strong determined attitude...just for you woman. Just for you. So that you won't collapse... So that you could lean on to her...

Arizona sinked to the bench again, staring into the darkness, looking at her past, at all those times when she was unbelievably harsh on Callie. It sent a chill down her spine as she choked on to just the thought of it.

Meredith - And after all THIS she choose to seek happiness...she choose to move forward... Who wouldn't do that?

Meredith stared at Arizona, looking for some answer but Arizona was radio silent.

Meredith - *calmly* you were going through a painful time... Why didn't you told her that? I still don't know what your PTSD is...so I am not judging you...but she would have understand that Arizona...

Meredith & Arizona just sat there for few moments in silence. Arizona was clueless on what to think. Meredith was wondering whether she should continue or not, so she kneeled in front of Arizona & took hold of Arizona's hands.

Meredith - I went through a miscarriage too & I know how hard it is. I know that. I know very well why you didn't wanted another baby... When they took Zola away from us, even I didn't wanted another baby & yes only for that moment Callie was wrong. She was wrong to push you to think about another baby... But she was looking towards happiness & it was not just for her...it was for both of you. *raising her voice* and it was not just your baby... It was her's too. You both lost the baby. Yeah she choose to move ahead again...because there was no point in holding back to darkness.

*standing up* She choose happiness for you. And you gave her what? Deception? Betrayal?

Arizona finally pulled herself together. And made herself speak.

Arizona - *shouting* WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE I ENJOYED WHAT I DID. IT WAS A MISTAKE. I never wanted it to happen... God I don't even defend myself because I always knew that what I did was wrong...

Meredith - *raising her voice* I'm not saying that... I know you regret it...but what about her? Do you think, just cause she was being cold to you that it was not killing her? Can you imagine what it was for her to love you so much & then hurt you so much? Yeah she wronged you...but it was your doing Arizona... YOU SHOOK THE ANGEL IN HER. Ever imagined what it was like for her to try so hard to forget you...to hate you & yet being not able to do that? 83 days? You look at those 83 days as the time she took to give your relationship a chance... Why don't you look at them as the time she took to forget you & yet she couldn't...?

Arizona - I... I...

Meredith - yes she didn't thought that your relationship was worth a conversation but what about you? Did you tried? To talk to her again? She was pissed; of course she was going to walk out on you... but what about you? Did you stopped her? Held her back? Made her listen? Told her about your PTSD?

Arizona - I... I didn't knew back then that I had PTSD...I...

Meredith - But you didn't tried...maybe she just wanted you to fight for her... But you? You just gave up...

Arizona - *standing up* I never gave up... I was always there where she left me...

Meredith - But you didn't fought for her either...

Arizona - *raising her voice* I never gave up. I never knew whether she would ever be able to forgive me? Love me? I never gave up...

Meredith - *calmly* you do realise that you guys wouldn't have been in this situation if you guys just had talked honestly... If you would have been honest with her...

Arizona - I realised that...

Meredith - And now she's looking out for the same honesty again... Like I said, I don't know what your PTSD is, what exactly is holding you back...but I would like to know about it... Callie. She deserves to know about it... *putting her arm around Arizona* ... So... Come back tomorrow afternoon...finish your session...let it all out... We...

Arizona suddenly got pissed again about the fact that April, Meredith & others set her up. No. They don't deserve to judge her miseries or her relationship. None of them do. She jerked Meredith's arm behind and started making her way towards the parking lot.

Meredith - I'm hoping you'll show up.

Arizona - *turning around & backing away* No. None of you get to have a show of our miseries... So... No...

Meredith - Callie would...

Arizona - *walking backwards* No...You don't get to tell me what Callie wants...

Meredith - *calling out* you know what? Go to hell... I don't care... Do whatever you want but just know one thing... You & Callie... You are both alike but there's one big difference...

Arizona's pace slowed a bit.

Meredith - Callie. She always made you her STRENGTH. But you. You always made her your WEAKNESS...

Meredith stared, as Arizona disappeared in the parking lot. She examined her watch; it was 4am, so she made her way towards her car too. She didn't knew whether what she told Arizona made any difference, but she was feeling content.

In the apartment:

It was dawn when Arizona made her way in. She was blocking out her thought process. It was too much stressful. She carefully tip toed in and then noticed Callie sleeping on the couch. One look on Callie's angelic face and all her worries & stress disappeared. Arizona got rid of her jacket, pulled out her shoes and went near Callie noiselessly. She was mesmerised by Callie's beauty, her innocent face, and her baby expressions. Arizona smiled to Callie's innocence and carefully tucked one of Callie's hair locks behind her ear. Then she carefully tucked her under the blanket and even more carefully placed a tender kiss on Callie's forehead. As her lips touched Callie's skin, a tear slipped down Arizona's eyes and made its way to Callie's face. Arizona felt like her cold hands could be too harsh on Callie's face and could awake her, so she wiped her eyes clean & leaned closer to kiss that tear drop away from Callie's face. As her lips touched Callie's cheek, Arizona inhaled into her fragrance & cherished that moment for a bit...

Then as if she got too much overwhelmed with emotions, Arizona abruptly backed off & made her way inside to their bedroom.

Callie was awake. She was awake all the time. She missed Arizona's touch as soon as Arizona backed off. The kiss was tender, but it felt like heaven to her. She was afraid if she had opened her eyes, the moment would have been ruined. She watched from underneath of her eye lashes as Arizona went inside. Then she heard some noises from the bathroom, Arizona is probably taking a shower. After about half an hour, around 7am, Arizona came out of their room. Freshly dressed in a purple shirt and black jeans, Arizona was breathtakingly stunning to her. Callie's eyes settled on Arizona's damp short hairs and she immediately felt a twinge to run her hands through it. Oh! How much she missed doing that. She looked, as Arizona dropped her black cardigan on the sofa across hers and then made her way to the kitchen. It was really getting hard for Callie to keep her eyes close and watch Arizona in all her lovableness. Soon her nostrils got filled with the mouth-watering smell of crispy bacon & cinnamon toasts & hot coffee. Callie's stomach growled at the fragrance & then she saw Arizona holding a tray & making her way towards her. She was right. Arizona has made her a yummy breakfast of Scrambled eggs, cinnamon toasts, bacon and coffee. She saw Arizona placing the tray on the coffee table in front of her, and then picking up her jacket from the other sofa. Wait? She's not gonna eat. Callie closed her eye shut as Arizona made her way near her one more time and caressed her face with the back of her hand.

Arizona was about to step out of the apartment when Callie sat up, she had her back towards Arizona & she didn't turned around. She just spoke from that same position.

Callie - EAT!

Arizona - *bit startled* you...you're up? *she wondered whether Callie was awake all this time*

Callie - EAT!

Arizona - I... I talked to Cristina; she's bringing Sofia to park... I thought I would pick her up from there...

Callie - *finally turning around & facing Arizona* you haven't eaten since yesterday... So EAT!

Arizona - *fumbling* Oh no! I grabbed a bite last night at...at...

Callie - No. You haven't. So EAT!

Arizona - Sofia...she...

Callie - I'll go with you. You eat. I'll be ready in a few minutes...

Arizona - *realising that she can't reason Callie* what about you? You haven't eaten either...

Callie - Then eat with me. Just give me a moment, I'll be ready.

Arizona re warmed the coffee pot again as Callie went inside to get ready. She was expecting a bombard of questions but as always Callie was being patient with her. As she was setting the table, Callie emerged out of their bedroom wearing an off white shirt & black jeans. Arizona was awestruck. The way Callie has rolled up the sleeves of her shirt, the way her hands were so full with jacket & handbag & phone & yet she was trying to put her ear- ring on, the way her heels were making a rhythmic noise as she walked towards her, took Arizona's breath away. She was mesmerised by Callie's stunning beauty.

Callie kept her stuff aside & sat down struggling a bit more with her ear-ring. Arizona just kept staring at her. Then suddenly as if it all gets a bit awkward, Arizona broke the silence first.

Arizona - umm may I?

Callie looked at Arizona & the sudden rush to have her hands on her body hit her again. She nodded in affirmation. As Arizona came & stood near her, she pulled her hair to one side so Arizona could put on the ear-ring on her ear.

As soon as Arizona's hand touched Callie's ear lobe, they both felt sparkling sensation down their body. They miss it. The touch, the desire, the need to have each other. They both miss it desperately. The power of attraction has always been too strong between them.

Finally they both had their first meal since yesterday & surprisingly both of them licked their plates clean. They talked about the weather, the snowfall, Sofia and other off topics.

Callie - *looking at Arizona's empty plate* How come you were not hungry?

Arizona - I wasn't. I swear I wasn't. But then I saw you & then the food & hunger took over me *laughs*

Callie - *sipping coffee* *laughing* It took over me too...god I am so full...

Arizona - Ummm Callie... *Callie looked towards her* were you awake? The whole time? You know...when I got back?

Callie - *teasingly* No! Why? Did anything happened?

Arizona - *blushing* Oh No. I was just wondering... *examining her watch* I think we should get going...

Callie - yeah we should.

Both off them together cleaned the dishes & then set out to leave. As they were about to get out, suddenly it hit Callie what exactly they have done. They again failed to be honest around each other; they again skipped the real communication. Arizona was about to open the door when Callie called her out.

Callie - I was awake

*Arizona smiled to herself & turned around*

Callie - I was awake all the time. I was awake when you kissed me...lord that was heaven...I was awake when your lips were merely a breath away from mine and I thought you would kiss me but you just give me a peck...like damn you *Callie was fumbling with words & blurting out* . I was awake...I was awake when you got out of our room with those damp hairs & all I wanted to do was ran my fingers through it...God I never wanted to kiss you so badly...I

Arizona - *eyes going darker* ME NEITHER!

Before Callie could understand what Arizona was saying, Arizona sprinted forward and crashed her lips on hers. She pulled Callie to a deep passionate kiss; Callie's hands immediately reached Arizona's neck and submerged in the entanglements of her hair. They kissed. They kissed like they have never kissed before.

↪➡ Will Arizona complete her session? What exactly was her PTSD? Will Callie be able to forgive Arizona for everything? How much Callie & Arizona will hurt each other before they fall together? Will they fall together or will they fall apart? Is their relationship worth bearing all the pain?

Hope you guys enjoyed it. Be sure to tell me your exact thoughts on this. A major fight. A major twist. Stick tight for next chapter. XoXo!

P.S. For me they both made mistakes. And I don't think I'll be honest to my story line if I point all the blames on one shoulder. I'm totally loving your reviews and encouraging Pms. Keep them coming. For those who are asking, I am from Vancouver, BC. I think that explains the lack American slang and culture (booze & all) plus the mention of snow every now and then.