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Kyo's door opened with a creak, it always did, and I knew to expect it, but I opened it quickly, so it was a short sharp creak, instead of a long one. Kyo was laid on his bed, he was wearing a pair of navy blue boxer shorts, and nothing else. He was laid on his side, in a foetal position, cuddling a pillow, I smiled to myself, he looked kind of cute like that. His hair was messed up, like he had been moving around a lot, his face was pure perfection, I couldn't take my eyes off of him. I felt the urge to touch him. To run my hand along his jaw, touch his neck, run my finger-tips along his the muscles in his arm. I wanted to feel the silk of his hair, his cheek, kiss his rose tinted lips.
I felt my cheeks burning, as I realised what all of this obsessing was for. But I smiled, I didn't run away screaming. I just stood there, looking at the beautiful body of my nemesis. He started to stir, so I stepped back quickly as if I could hide behind some invisible shield.
I looked around his room. It was as I expected it to be, slightly messy, but a bit sparse. He had a shelf full of books. Which surprised me. I didn't think Kyo was much into reading. He slept with a lamp on, which was on a bedside table, next to a glass of water, and an alarm clock. His desk was messy. Full of school books and the sort. It's hard to describe, but I was just full of Kyo's character. I looked back to him.
He had rolled over onto his back, his arm above his head, the pillow falling off of the bed, escaping his grasp. I could now see his body fully, each toned muscle, each perfectly curving line. The jutting bones of his hips when he took a breath out, the trail of orange hair that began at his belly button, leading my eyes downwards. It was breath-taking. I wanted to stay there all night, just looking at him, staring, analysing. I wished that I had a camera, to capture the purity in his face.
However the animal instinct in me could felt the sunrise fast approaching. I had to leave, as he woke early, and I had not yet slept. I took one last, longing look, and I left, smiling, and getting ready to begin my act of hating him again. I was actually looking forward to fighting him, because that meant I could touch him. I felt happy, but also sad, I was contented, but I still wanted more if I could get it.
But I needed sleep, I had school. and I knew, that every chance I got, I would do this again.
For the first time in years, I fell asleep with a smile on my face.
In the morning, the rat was the same as usual, he slunk down the stairs, his whole fragile frame wobbling. As he shuffled into the kitchen, his head down, I glanced at him, and remembered the dream that I had had about him the night before, where he stood, and looked at me for about an hour, just smiling. My mind was strange when it wanted to be. It was more of a nightmare than a dream, it thought to myself.
He looked up, when tohru spoke to him, and smiled at her. And he glanced at me, and turned a light shade of pink. Of course I thought this was odd. And it irritated me. But I let it go, I was enjoying breakfast too much to think about it.
School was impossible that day, I just sat staring into Kyo's back, watching him slumped over his desk, staring at nothing in particular. I was so tired, I had spent so much time last night, just staring at him, and here I was again. The only danger was that someone would se me, and notice how oddly I was acting. Because, I had to face up to it, I WAS being odd. If anyone found out, they may think I was stalking him. But in my mind, you can't stalk someone you live with. And thank god I did live with him, because if I didn't, I would have gone mad at night, without him to look at.
Looking back on it, I'm quite shocked at how well I took this,obsession of mine. I think it was mainly because I didn't admit it to myself. Throughout my phase of analysing everyone I saw, the one person I didn't even think to analyse myself. Perhaps this is why the full force of what was going on inside my head didn't hit me.
I really didn't realize. But I was completely swept away by this amazing creature. He was making me feel, it took a lot to do that normally,but I had somehow gained emotions, just from thinking about him, and looking at him.
I watched him at lunch,when he sat with all of us, eating from his bento box, he seemed so innocent. Even through all of the anger and glares. You could tell, that somehow, Kyo had managed to come through everything he had, almost unscathed. Of course, from watching him, I had realized where the cracks laid. But he hid them so well, that most people wouldn't notice.
During the lunch hour, Kyo caught me looking. More than once. I knew I should have stopped. I should have waited until it was safer for me to look, with everyone here, it was scarily possible that I would get caught. Everyone being me and the cat, Momiji, Haru, Tohru, Hana, and Uo. But it was like I was addicted. And Kyo was the only drug that could quench my thirst.
His reaction to my glances was to scowl at me. He didn't say anything. Which surprised me a lot. I expected a full onslaught of insults followed by a declaration of a fight, and the proverbial "I will beat you" but there was none of it. There was something wrong with that cat.
And I had only just noticed it.
I just had to find out what.
