What was next? Try and go on with life..Or opt it with the whole Cliff Diving thing I Was Sure,

I had no desire to be alive.

I had to leave the meadow,It was too then,I thought to myself...Maybe it was true?Maybe Edward was at school right now sitting with his brothers and sisters and wondering why I wasnt there.I ran with un-human like pace,Like..

A I knew I was still this puny little human,

By the time I got to the car I thought I would collapse,My heart was racing and my legs were killing me.I got in the car and the engine made the same rattling sound,It shook so much I was somewhat I didn't care,This was something Edward would try at make me get a new car moment.

I drove down to my school,And I saw all the cheerleader's practicing their new routine, 'S-P-A-R-T-A-N-S come on now,We are the best! School spirit is what we have and that is what we flaunt!Bring on the came and give us what we want!'

If someone was watching me right now,I have obviously had no school spirit.

I walked in and the teacher gave me and old look..I would too if I was her,I was barging into school at 12:30 during school hours and I was supposed to be here at 8.I walked straight up to the fair haired blue eyed receptionist,She looked like a moody one.

I guess I'll try to be nice for a moment,

"Hello,My cousin was looking for a friend's phone number and I thought you might have that number in your records?" I asked in my politest tone. "Who exactly is it your friend is looking for?" she asked in a suspicious way,I better not have to show proof that I go to this school.

"Edward Cullen?" The name ripped me to pieces.It was nothing like my dream when he first left me in the woods,

Fourty thousand times browsed through the shiny Mac computer and I waited,All to impatient.

"Umh,I'm sorry..but there is no existing record's for an Edward Cullen..What's your name may I ask?" More pain,3 Cheers for the worst life ever.

"Isabella Marie Swan,Why do you ask?" I said in a suprised tone. "Miss,You dont go to this school.I have to ask you to leave."

I was undeniably in utter,complete shock."I never said I went to this school,It was an inquiry for my friend..Angela Weber.I'll leave now anyways,Sorry for the inconvience." I said in a more rude tone. "Oh,Well okay..Goodbye now."

She eyed me up and down,I almost lunged for temper was bad these days,

Very bad.I stormed out of this god forsaken hell nearly smashed my truck to a pile of ashes when I closed my door.

My anger lasted for 3 seconds,And then I broke into silent tears and inaudible sobs.

I was a pile of ashes,I was the world broken into the tiny pieces.

My heart was the Ozone Layer,a hole that can't be fixed.

I missed him,I missed my Edward so much! And my baby Rennesme,But who was I really wasn't that much of a baby part I missed.

I took out my phone and rang a number I didn't want to call,

Jacob Black.

"Hey,Bells!" He said it in an over excited tune,I didn't like that. "Hey Jake.-time for me to put my game face on.-"So..Jake,How about we go out and get..dinner?or something like that." "Wow,Bella sure!" Ugh,Too much hope for a relationship,Did he know I was a married woman with a child..And in love with a fictitious life?No,He did not.

"Okay,Bye."

"ARGH," I was sick of this lie,I wanted my fictious husband and child.